Thawtz on the change the channel movement

(Well I myself already changed the channel, forgot about that guy...)Wow, don't know what to really think. I'm 32, like I've seen a lot of stuff on the internet since I began using it since I was freakin 14.... I mean it goes without saying, don't get involved with the damn internet like it's your life... there's things like jobs, school, living that kinda take precedence? I mean, I find the joke stuff we do online, fan films, all of it fun but I've honest to God never cared enough to get to know or follow any of the people I watched over the years... like, yeah I'll have to reference zd/tech tv, tons of people came and went on that network that I found interesting, but I didn't follow their blogs or vlogs or now twitter, didn't give that much of a crap about them...

I feel for the people that got kinda abused by the people in charge of that community of video reviewers, but you should have seen that shit coming, it's not like those guys were anything more than weirdo internet nobodies that never shut the hell up.

I can go to hundreds of youtube channels that are dead right now... porn stars that either died or just quit... that's the nature of the beast, here today, gone tomorrow, don't get personal with it....

I mean, I don't like this whole new world I ended up in where we have people making nonsense videos every day instead of doing something that matters or not seeking attention. It's just we all kinda took the jackass bits from johnny knoxville and ran with that and just ruined its uniqueness since every douche bag with a phone cam can easily make their own version now? It's becoming too retarded. I don't have a problem with retarded, but this is super saiyan retarded how much the net has become a joke....

Just sayin, internet is becoming too serious man, used to be a thing on the side of life, not the goddamn life itself...

Musings on teh solo thing that just dropped

Meh...

It was a troubled production and looks to be a troubled too many cooks in the kitchen movie at the end of the day. Of course it will make a bazillion dollars and that's all disney cares about so I can't put a dent in it or anyone involved with it.

My honest opinion of it. Donald Glover is trying so hard to be something he isn't and that's a badass... so that's all we're gonna get from him, his dorky ass trying to be cool. I knew his voice wouldn't come close to Billy Dee's but Jesus he's not even trying.

Yunno hyperbole is the name of the game on the internet. Everything's the end of the known universe.... I thought people were over blowing Alden's performance as Han. He's god awful. Miscast 100% Anthony Ingruber will get the last laugh at the end of the day.

Well, the movie looks very non-star wars which is surprising. Where's the hokey pokey puppets and weirdo star wars elements? It looks like battle star galactica or star trek. Where's the star warsy aspects?

I don't blame Ron Howard in the least. He's my uncle in a lot of ways. I mean I not only grew up watching him, but his movies raised me and created my love for film and what it can do. I have no doubt his passion will ooze through the film and that part of it will work and feel right.

What won't is that he didn't have his hands in the pot from the beginning and never wanted these actors, never wanted the design to it, cinematography etc. He didn't get to pick any of that so he's stuck running behind someone else's vision and that's just not a good way to fly... just isn't...

Will not pay to see it, my final decision is made. I don't know what I'll end up doing, don't really want to bootleg it either, but I have some bits of cash saved up so I'll see something else and hop in on it take a peak then no doubt it'll leave my brain without making an impact. Yunno, proabably going to do decent but not gangbusters.

If I made this movie, it'd be so awkward, so weird, so messed up awesome star wars, you'd be so rocked off your socks, oh well, too bad...

lonely road

fixing stuff in the film, trying to make it work despite my lack of skill and foresight, but yeah it's getting to actually kinda work and I discovered some neat tricks in after fx to punch up shots that were bland, so hey, that's something..

future's looking somewhat brighter for this thing. Gotta take a break from it. I find if I stress my brain too hard doing the editing, it kinda starts to max out and lose strength so I'm gonna not over do it, just relax and lazy my way through it, eh, what's wrong with that?

So yeah, it's getting places, exciting... that's what I hope to achieve every day, keep pushing it forward more to completion.

It's just, ugh, it's getting very complicated because I'm trying to do advanced level editing techniques with it at times and do fancy crap I don't technically need but since I'm me, I like pushing the limits of my abilities and then it becomes... well any editor will say don't make it a jungle on the time line, one little thing goes wrong and it's over, whole thing loses sync and you have to repair it somehow.

So that's my issue. I want it to have this different music here, more dramatic stuff here, then fade to a montage scene I want to work on next... but it's not going my way...

Bull crap crappity crap. Well I'll get the montage done today some point. I know exactly what I want for that scene. It's pretty much the first scene I kinda had thought of before going forward and crafting all the others.

The shannon scene will kinda edit itself since it's not too complex, should be fun to fix up that one.

Not looking forward to the joker batman scene, that's gonna be tough and the whole part where I have to talk to batman, it's very tough to get that right.

But luckily I have time and don't necessarily need to rush it so yeah, we're gonna be alright and should smoothly meet the deadline of Solo's release....

Glad I did the end first

working on the middle of the movie... holy shit is it tough.

Want to just say screw it... makes ya wonder how people do this for a living...

I couldn't do this full time, it's like torture.

Can't find footage you thought you shot... nothing syncs up, the music is tough to find that fits the scenes, everything's poorly shot, no continuity to anything. Yes, lesson learned, actually kinda shoot to a script, actually write a script, that might have been a good idea.

I didn't because I know what I want to do, but throughout the shoot I got confused about what happens when and figured whatever. So yeah, I mean I started this project 5 years ago. Of course stuff I shot back then doesn't fit with more recent stuff.

I don't know if there's truly a good solid flick inside of what I shot... it's gonna be fun and interesting that's all I can promise.

Never did this shit before so it's tough to get it down.

the scenes I did yesterday I just wanted to be ok, nothing fancy smancy or great, but due to blind luck I some how turned them into almost professionally done hollywood level stuff. So that was surprising.

My goal though isn't to make this thing like all glitzy and nice and hollywood, it's gonna be a fan film low budget piece of clunky junk that's fun and sparks some interest in a hollywood version of static some day.

Some dude on facebook as I mentioned is making a pro level static film so I'm not the only one hoping it gets done some day. I know been crying about lack of static forever. Which is why I'm doing this. It's my hope that they do make one and it's happening, us black guys in the world are kinda just making it ourselves, might as well, eh....

Static is my homie, man. I mean not only because he's black and quick witted like spidey. That's superficial. The thing that I liked about him was that he's so damn badass and fights for the people because he's one of them. You don't see topics of racism, black gang war, life in the projects, stuff I've seen all my life in standard comics... so yeah, finally seeing reality that I know in comic form was huge for me. I mean it's just I liked that static would care about making life better in ghettos and go after criminals in the places superman wouldn't show up... he's probably the most grounded down to earth hero of all and that's why people like him. He's not fighting aliens and shit, he's fighting some asshole causing trouble in his community, something spidey would be too busy to do... so that's why he's interesting, he tackles faaaar more than they do and carries a larger burden on his shoulders. Hell often times as the series went on, he'd actually be fighting people he knew at school, that's how small and personal his battles were. Later in the series though he ended up just as epic scoped as supes and batman which kinda defeated the purpose of the character, a shame...

Well there you have it my garbled nonsense of the night...

Musical notes

Gathering thoughts on the musical choices I'm making. I'll credit who I use if I can figure out all of them, probably can't post it on youtube for that reason, immediate copy right strike so I'll attempt vimeo and just a personal release here and on facebook if that works... It's a fun light no-profit movie yet I'll get pure cease and desist crap from the web even though practically 99.99% of the stuff on the internet is remixes and stolen copyrighted stuff, but who the hell am I to argue...

I always intended the film to have a hip hop tone to it, but yeah, I was born in the 80s, that kind of music is what I was baptised in, so that's my true love and you'll get a 80s feel to the track as I'm going to use heavy synth stuff in it when I can.

If you haven't guessed, I'm black, so one particular quality of blackness is that you grow up being inundated by very very very good music from all kinds of performers and especially damn great black musicians. I don't know if white people listen to black music much if at all, but besides the mainstream stuff, probably not much. I've been into black music since I was born. Jamaican, African, Soul, Reggae, yep... all the good black music I've ever heard is in my soul. Makes me wonder what the hell people have against blacks, the music is off the damn hook isn't it?

Well I was thinking about it... do I want this to be identifiably black?

Not really, no... besides me starring in it. I want it to feel universal so anyone can watch and enjoy it. I mean if you don't like rap and hip hop and can't understand the art involved with that stuff, it's not going to be pure rap and hip hop at all, it'll be a variety of stuff.

But yeah underneath everything I'm going to kinda have that black spiritual feeling african vibes to it if I can stick it in there here and there...  I went to an african kindergarten where we played african drums and an attempt was kinda made to teach us black kids about africa. So I personally have an appreciation for black african music myself having been kinda educated in how to play african drums and such.... so yeah that'll be something I seek out and try to put in there to kinda say, yeah this black kid is modern, listens to goddamn justin bieber but he's got a black soul, that kinda thing, it's gonna be weird, just bear with me...

Little progress

Got the fight cut, decided to grapple this thing and force edit as much as possible rather than sit here and jack off or just read the endless circular meaningless politics crap on twitter... This world is becoming farcical isn't it....

Wasn't fun or nothing...

But I'm spent, I want to edit more, tighten it, but I can't, my reserves are tapped out. Don't want to think about it right now....

I didn't shoot enough footage so I've been struggling with what editors must dread, trying to cut around stuff you don't have... Lucas talked about doing this for star wars. He basically shrugged and said if it wasn't shot on the day, just have to fix it in editing, now I understand why he liked green screen so much. It's easier to get shots that you need but never shot at the time etc...

It's not the end of the scene, it's just that during the battle, every shot of static is wide far stuff. I didn't do not one close up to kinda break up things... so it's a lost cause gonna have to craft the scene as is and make it work within the limits.

But whatever, most important thing is to get over this scene and figure out how I'm going to do the static finds his garbage pail lid bit that comes directly after. Oy, gotta organize the files, get a rough cut done of that some point, but eh, we're doing good. I'm making progress and I want to make a little tiny smidge every day regardless of whether I'm into it or not.

You gotta look fear in the face and tell it to go to hell at times, eh....

Going back to work

Did some very slow editing today but I've finally got the rough draft of the scene completed sans the musical choice...

But yunno that's the process it's tough and a gamble, never know whether it's going to work or not.

It flows though. Nailed the flow of the scene, it's logical, it works. It's been rough few days... I wish I could edit the movie with a happier disposition...

I don't want to be an emo person... like, going and blowing a gasket over losing my battlefront clip, it's like not how I want to be. I'm a party dude. I like just feeling good 24/7 if possible... I try my best to accomplish that, always have.

Saying to myself, just work on the static shock film has been tough to do because of my down emo attitude and just the state of the world, but jesus do I want to get out of this funk in my life...

Need to get a life. That's how you do it, just get a damn life, big titties, live!

It's been a tough trial getting to this point of having set up a draft of the scene that works. Hell of a good bit it'll be fun to watch in context I hope...

The other scene is of the first fight with my redcape character... what the f am I going to do about that mess of a scene, don't know yet....

But yeah, finally got around to watching Steel. Just lifted my spirits that movie. If you want to feel better, look beyond the hate and watch it. It's fun, it's just a fun little 90s flick, doesn't try to be godfather, just sets out to be light hearted self aware fun, and it does. I liked it. I actually don't get any of the vitriol towards it. It never ever tries to be more than what it is. It's a decent comic book movie.... would have probably done ok with better fx yet same story if released today. Better than the assfest of spiderman movies we got. And most of all it's a positive role model for black kids, something not really being done much anymore. Wow, used to actually be this attempt to present to the world a good image of black life and black people in cinemas. Now, it's like it's impossible to get that without climbing a mountain, jesus what the hell have we become? Why am I seeing Golden Girls version of Roseanne now? I damn sure hated the show when she was young, hell no not going to watch the elderly version, sorry... I mean it's depressing really. No offense, but not much entertainment value in the life of the elderly, just isn't...

Maybe there is and I don't know about it, but I don't expect there to be much fun to get old and all that jazz. I mean I've seen old dying people at the hospital and it terrified me, not something I'd want to watch for entertainment... but yunno live in the moment, eh...

Like see, I'm making myself feel emo as shit thinking about that stuff I saw in the hospital. Breaks my heart that we all have to die, kills me thinking about it.

But I'll do what I can, what I must do, and make this goddamn movie! I'll die alright, my way!