I am now Captain America.
Good GOD. This lecithin stuff is like the real super soldier serum. I was lifting weights and thinking "this is too easy."
HOLY FUCK.
I'm going to have fun with this.
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Lecithin
Holy shit, why don't they tell us about this stuff. So I started reading about how to increase ejaculate, for the purpose of getting a better orgasm and ultimately better sleep out of it. Turns out they recommend taking Zinc and some articles say take Lecithin. It's funny, I take the zinc and lecithin at the same time one day, and i go fucking staright to sleep after that. And I have a weird son of a bitch dream where I grow a crazy beard and I'm obsessed with the fact that the beard is messed up and I don't have a mustache, and I'm just focusing on the negative side of my face, and it's just making no sense. Then I wake up and I feel for the beard I was dreaming about and all I feel is my little stuble, and i come back to my senses. But the fact remains that I got better sleep that night than I had in a long while. So I was over the moon. And I woke up feeling fresh as a daisy. One of those feelings when you feel better than you have in a while and it seems like you're back to normal that kind of thing.
So I think to myself... it's the zinc that did it. I then take more zinc the next day. No sale pal. It doesn't do shit. I don't sleep well, back to basics ya know, lame brain pain.
Then I for the fuck of it, decide to take zinc and lecithin again, since I had the pills there next to the zinc, and it's a wrap. I'm out again, and have another weird ass dream. This time, I'm on the floor and I'm just spazzing out. Going berserk.
But once again my body is better rested. I feel like I'm back on track. Got some good fucking sleep for once.
Turns out it's the lecithin. That stuff is like a lubricant for the body. And it works. My brain sucked the shit out of my stomach ya know. I could just feel it traveling up to my brain, and it was sweet. All my headaches were damped, not eliminated, but the sharpness of the pain, is gone. I wish I took this stuff back at tsa, cuz I would have not let nothing bother me. This stuff is the cure I was looking for. I'll be damned. I'm going to tell my sister about it, see she heard of it... yeah. But I mean, we'll need to give it more time to work its magic But I'm just overjoyed. Years ago in college, my brain for whatever reasons changed and flipped the switch so that there was no more euphoric sensation from masturbating. I'd do it, get a brief high, then nothing... Now I know. My body for whatever reason, was deprive of lecithin. Which is some kind of brain and body lubricant. It smooths out the body's operation, and relaxes you, kinda like an antidepressant. Which is great, if I can get the same benefits and not have to go down that road of trying experimental drugs from some pharmaceutical company.
I'm back baby. I've never felt more alive. I've been living a half life up until this point. i'm up, I'm motivated. I don't even want to jerk off. I feel like I want to do stuff. Jump around. have fun. Grab some titties. Whatever.
Lecithin. baby... only problem.... like I said, those dreams man. Thing is. Once it gets in your brain and starts lubricating and healing the trauma in there, it connects neurons that were previously dead or whatever, and increases your brain's powers, and that must be why I was fucking tripping out during sleep. My brain was able to push itself harder than it has in a long time. And even now, I feel it in me, giving me power that I didn't have yesterday.
Highly recommened. I mean, I'll have all the crazy dreams I want as long as I can live my life without being burdened by my libido's bullshit.
Gift from God, baby.
So I think to myself... it's the zinc that did it. I then take more zinc the next day. No sale pal. It doesn't do shit. I don't sleep well, back to basics ya know, lame brain pain.
Then I for the fuck of it, decide to take zinc and lecithin again, since I had the pills there next to the zinc, and it's a wrap. I'm out again, and have another weird ass dream. This time, I'm on the floor and I'm just spazzing out. Going berserk.
But once again my body is better rested. I feel like I'm back on track. Got some good fucking sleep for once.
Turns out it's the lecithin. That stuff is like a lubricant for the body. And it works. My brain sucked the shit out of my stomach ya know. I could just feel it traveling up to my brain, and it was sweet. All my headaches were damped, not eliminated, but the sharpness of the pain, is gone. I wish I took this stuff back at tsa, cuz I would have not let nothing bother me. This stuff is the cure I was looking for. I'll be damned. I'm going to tell my sister about it, see she heard of it... yeah. But I mean, we'll need to give it more time to work its magic But I'm just overjoyed. Years ago in college, my brain for whatever reasons changed and flipped the switch so that there was no more euphoric sensation from masturbating. I'd do it, get a brief high, then nothing... Now I know. My body for whatever reason, was deprive of lecithin. Which is some kind of brain and body lubricant. It smooths out the body's operation, and relaxes you, kinda like an antidepressant. Which is great, if I can get the same benefits and not have to go down that road of trying experimental drugs from some pharmaceutical company.
I'm back baby. I've never felt more alive. I've been living a half life up until this point. i'm up, I'm motivated. I don't even want to jerk off. I feel like I want to do stuff. Jump around. have fun. Grab some titties. Whatever.
Lecithin. baby... only problem.... like I said, those dreams man. Thing is. Once it gets in your brain and starts lubricating and healing the trauma in there, it connects neurons that were previously dead or whatever, and increases your brain's powers, and that must be why I was fucking tripping out during sleep. My brain was able to push itself harder than it has in a long time. And even now, I feel it in me, giving me power that I didn't have yesterday.
Highly recommened. I mean, I'll have all the crazy dreams I want as long as I can live my life without being burdened by my libido's bullshit.
Gift from God, baby.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Get back to the kitchen
I don't like women working. Period.
Who am I to say that? But I'm thinking about it and stuff while I was naked in the tub, women these days need a reality check. And things would be so much better if they stopped trying to be men.
I just got let go by toys r us, and only reason for it is because it's a female dominated work place. Girls everywhere, and typically it's not the most laborious job so it's easy for a female to do.
I get that. I'm now in a rut again, totally unemployed, low on money, only my wits to save me in the end.
I think maybe to say just fuck it and kill myself, fuck it.... who cares about a nigga, especially me. But then i think about God, and kids, and life and maybe trying to accomplish something good, I don't fucking know man... I just don't know. Ya see, I always considered myself to be like Luke Skywalker or Superman, a good guy, a hero, but then ya got so much people who are like the devil in human form basically trying to bring you into their dark side of life. And I'm like "dude, that's not right. No..." so I'm struggling man... What does it mean to be a hero?
Anyway, yeah, gotta get back on track. Figure I'll try and volunteer at a hospital, possibly get a full time position there. Like I said, health care industry is permanent, and they pay through the nose, so you're good if you get into that. Set fo life.
Who am I to say that? But I'm thinking about it and stuff while I was naked in the tub, women these days need a reality check. And things would be so much better if they stopped trying to be men.
I just got let go by toys r us, and only reason for it is because it's a female dominated work place. Girls everywhere, and typically it's not the most laborious job so it's easy for a female to do.
I get that. I'm now in a rut again, totally unemployed, low on money, only my wits to save me in the end.
I think maybe to say just fuck it and kill myself, fuck it.... who cares about a nigga, especially me. But then i think about God, and kids, and life and maybe trying to accomplish something good, I don't fucking know man... I just don't know. Ya see, I always considered myself to be like Luke Skywalker or Superman, a good guy, a hero, but then ya got so much people who are like the devil in human form basically trying to bring you into their dark side of life. And I'm like "dude, that's not right. No..." so I'm struggling man... What does it mean to be a hero?
Anyway, yeah, gotta get back on track. Figure I'll try and volunteer at a hospital, possibly get a full time position there. Like I said, health care industry is permanent, and they pay through the nose, so you're good if you get into that. Set fo life.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
porn possibilities and perceptions
I'm an avid porn viewer.
As is probably 99% of the world. If there's an industry that will never die it's porn. Some industries are permanent. Transportaion, Food, Construction, health care, what else... well you get the point.
I was just thinking about it... as I was watching this gorgeous angel do her thang... it's just so easy now to get porn.
We had to earn that shit back in the day. Personally I kinda miss it. Specifically the 90s and its many quirks. Tv was a mixed bag back then, but the shows that were good, were fucking good, man. Tv now is horrible. Only thing good is the korra airbender show and that's not even half as good as the best shit from the 90s. So that right there tells you how much tv has declined as of late, and it's not necessarily tv's fault. It's 2 factors at work. The people who made great tv are getting older, and retiring. One can ask themself why there's no more classic looney tunes, well Mel blanc died. And god bless the man, he did bugs bunny up until the day his voice couldn't possibly do it any more. That's great. But the second factor is that the internet has become to many the new TV. It's evolving now, it's becoming a place where people are actually developing programs, sketches, cartoons and trying to take a bite out of tv. It's not bad. It's just it's losing that underground basement quality and becoming the corporate nightmare that is tv these days.
Nevermind that.... Getting back to porn though. I used to have to dig deep for porn. I mean, I literally took 3 years out of my life and drew tons of porn comics that I regret to this day having trashed because I loved what I accomplished. I have plans to redo the whole thing, but it's hard to come to terms with what it all means... what's the point? Have a big pile of porn and do what with it? I don't know whether I should even worry about the future, since I'm not going to be around to care anyway right? Just make the bloody thing and enjoy it while it lasts, thats all we can do...
I mean she deserves it. I designed and created my heart and soul on paper, I'll never just let her die. She'll always be a part of me, forever.
My point is however, the ease at which one can aquire porn is just disappointing to me now. You know how rare it was to find anal porn, or a porn that "looked" like anal from certain angles. You have to really loook back at porn and see that there was rarely any anal or if you got lucky the guy missed the pussy for a second and it went in the ass. Sometimes that happend and it was glorious.
I remember back in high school, that's when I first saw anal. I watched the FUCK out of that video. It was amazing. Now I look back on it and it's no where near the type of ass fucking you can find these days. But that's what I'm saying, there's so much of it now, it's become less special.
I guess things have escalated. Because there's hd right in your face porn of a bunch of girls taking dick in the ass, every porn has to have that now. It's like, "click" wonder what kind of porn this is going to be. Girl bends over and eats a dick with her ass hole. Oh, more anal.
ya know... for years butt sex was really considered extreme porn. Yes, back in the 90s even porn had limits. No beastiality, no anal, none of this extreme crazy shit we have now as the norm. And some porn was even shot like a real movie, so it was even more special when you actually gave a shit about the person being fucked.
Do I want to go back to that? Yeah sorta. I mean I'm no prude. I have a very flexible open mind. I'm like a really cool laid back dude, not a care in the world. So bring on the titties. Hell if I had it my way, I'd be cool with girls just walking around fucking naked, fuck it man... but you do lose something. If girls were naked all the time, finally getting to see them naked wouldn't be anything special. It's because we attempt to be civilized and shit, that it's so amazing to finally get a glimpse of a girl's naked sensitive body.
But I do believe it's lowering standards. Especially for girls. I can't imagine what girls these days are going through or what they're expected to do with the overwhelming amount of evidence to the contrary of whatever feminist ideals they hold. No woman can ever really take a stand on women being clean innocent princesses anymore. And it's their own fault anyway... *shrugs*
It's like, we're getting way too far of track. It's like, if society were to become like porn, what would actually "be" the porn after that? Just like how every porn started having anal in it, anal's getting boring, so there's now a lot of interracial all over the place, and DP and creampies. What's next?
I hope we get into more cinematic porn myself. Straight up porn is eventually going to get boring. I personally would love to have the next wave of porn being like a real serious movie and then the circumstances lead to porn, instead of there being no reason whatsoever for the girl to get naked and jump around stupidly. Have some kind of reason for it at least. Like how a lot of anime does it. They throw in porn every now and then instead of the porn being the only thing there.
As is probably 99% of the world. If there's an industry that will never die it's porn. Some industries are permanent. Transportaion, Food, Construction, health care, what else... well you get the point.
I was just thinking about it... as I was watching this gorgeous angel do her thang... it's just so easy now to get porn.
We had to earn that shit back in the day. Personally I kinda miss it. Specifically the 90s and its many quirks. Tv was a mixed bag back then, but the shows that were good, were fucking good, man. Tv now is horrible. Only thing good is the korra airbender show and that's not even half as good as the best shit from the 90s. So that right there tells you how much tv has declined as of late, and it's not necessarily tv's fault. It's 2 factors at work. The people who made great tv are getting older, and retiring. One can ask themself why there's no more classic looney tunes, well Mel blanc died. And god bless the man, he did bugs bunny up until the day his voice couldn't possibly do it any more. That's great. But the second factor is that the internet has become to many the new TV. It's evolving now, it's becoming a place where people are actually developing programs, sketches, cartoons and trying to take a bite out of tv. It's not bad. It's just it's losing that underground basement quality and becoming the corporate nightmare that is tv these days.
Nevermind that.... Getting back to porn though. I used to have to dig deep for porn. I mean, I literally took 3 years out of my life and drew tons of porn comics that I regret to this day having trashed because I loved what I accomplished. I have plans to redo the whole thing, but it's hard to come to terms with what it all means... what's the point? Have a big pile of porn and do what with it? I don't know whether I should even worry about the future, since I'm not going to be around to care anyway right? Just make the bloody thing and enjoy it while it lasts, thats all we can do...
I mean she deserves it. I designed and created my heart and soul on paper, I'll never just let her die. She'll always be a part of me, forever.
My point is however, the ease at which one can aquire porn is just disappointing to me now. You know how rare it was to find anal porn, or a porn that "looked" like anal from certain angles. You have to really loook back at porn and see that there was rarely any anal or if you got lucky the guy missed the pussy for a second and it went in the ass. Sometimes that happend and it was glorious.
I remember back in high school, that's when I first saw anal. I watched the FUCK out of that video. It was amazing. Now I look back on it and it's no where near the type of ass fucking you can find these days. But that's what I'm saying, there's so much of it now, it's become less special.
I guess things have escalated. Because there's hd right in your face porn of a bunch of girls taking dick in the ass, every porn has to have that now. It's like, "click" wonder what kind of porn this is going to be. Girl bends over and eats a dick with her ass hole. Oh, more anal.
ya know... for years butt sex was really considered extreme porn. Yes, back in the 90s even porn had limits. No beastiality, no anal, none of this extreme crazy shit we have now as the norm. And some porn was even shot like a real movie, so it was even more special when you actually gave a shit about the person being fucked.
Do I want to go back to that? Yeah sorta. I mean I'm no prude. I have a very flexible open mind. I'm like a really cool laid back dude, not a care in the world. So bring on the titties. Hell if I had it my way, I'd be cool with girls just walking around fucking naked, fuck it man... but you do lose something. If girls were naked all the time, finally getting to see them naked wouldn't be anything special. It's because we attempt to be civilized and shit, that it's so amazing to finally get a glimpse of a girl's naked sensitive body.
But I do believe it's lowering standards. Especially for girls. I can't imagine what girls these days are going through or what they're expected to do with the overwhelming amount of evidence to the contrary of whatever feminist ideals they hold. No woman can ever really take a stand on women being clean innocent princesses anymore. And it's their own fault anyway... *shrugs*
It's like, we're getting way too far of track. It's like, if society were to become like porn, what would actually "be" the porn after that? Just like how every porn started having anal in it, anal's getting boring, so there's now a lot of interracial all over the place, and DP and creampies. What's next?
I hope we get into more cinematic porn myself. Straight up porn is eventually going to get boring. I personally would love to have the next wave of porn being like a real serious movie and then the circumstances lead to porn, instead of there being no reason whatsoever for the girl to get naked and jump around stupidly. Have some kind of reason for it at least. Like how a lot of anime does it. They throw in porn every now and then instead of the porn being the only thing there.
zinc
wow cool. Didn't know zinc makes you sleep better.
nice. Now I can be free of my troubles. Ya see, sleep is probably the most important thing in your life. It's when your body heals and rests itself before the next day etc. When you don't get that shit? You fucked. You gonna feel like you half alive.
Been trying to fix my sleep for a while now. I'll be back with an update on the progress of this shit, see if it's truly working, because right now I'm so well rested and calm and cool in the head, I don't even want to jack off. Haven't felt like that in a long while...
ZINC BITCHES!!!
nice. Now I can be free of my troubles. Ya see, sleep is probably the most important thing in your life. It's when your body heals and rests itself before the next day etc. When you don't get that shit? You fucked. You gonna feel like you half alive.
Been trying to fix my sleep for a while now. I'll be back with an update on the progress of this shit, see if it's truly working, because right now I'm so well rested and calm and cool in the head, I don't even want to jack off. Haven't felt like that in a long while...
ZINC BITCHES!!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Difficulties of the rapid minded
shit. I'm in a rut right now. I have mild ocd. I have to conclude that. Because right now my mind is completely obsessed with figuring out what some old tv interview I watched was about. It's so stupid. I know it's stupid. But yet it's killing me that I can't recall the full details of the show. I tell myself to "let it go" but it doesn't happen. i won't let it happen. I have the memory, it's just not coming to me.
That's what I do a lot. I think about stupid insignificant shit.
You all out there are living your lives, raising your children, going to parties, fucking. And I'm worried about remembering spiderman's theme music.
Some things i can't EVER get back, and although it hurts to have to leave those memories behind, I have to just take the bitter pill and move on from them. Like some girl I used to watch on youtube. I get the idea to go back to her channel and see what she's up to, and blasted I forgot the bitches name. Just like that, it's as if she never existed... and I feel terrible for failing to recall it.
I don't even know why. I've NEVER been a super smart guy. But one thing I pride myself on is my brain's speed. If I need to recall something, a feeling, an image, even a word's definition (I'm verbal oriented mind) this fucking thing has never failed me. It's why I can do what I do, be creative, whatever...
Like dr quest said, his excellent memory is both a blessing and a curse.
I remember almost everything in my life with vivid detail. And as much as I recall the good times, I also recall the bad. That's what he meant. Sometimes it's good not to be super smart, and over analyze things.
I'll dare say the good thing about being super smart is being rich. Being some kind of freak of nature genius with a superior iq or photo memory, must be hell if you want to relax yourself and get away from thinking about shit too much.
I say to myself. Forget the past. Think about the boobs and the future, maybe even finally getting laid. Yeah... would be nice. But I like things to be in order. I DO have OCD, just not a severe case of it. I mean, ultimately push comes to shove, I'll ditch the whole thing and move on. yes... but nothing better than a nice clean orderly, smooth, operation. Brings a smile to my face when things fit and work, and go well.
That's what I do a lot. I think about stupid insignificant shit.
You all out there are living your lives, raising your children, going to parties, fucking. And I'm worried about remembering spiderman's theme music.
Some things i can't EVER get back, and although it hurts to have to leave those memories behind, I have to just take the bitter pill and move on from them. Like some girl I used to watch on youtube. I get the idea to go back to her channel and see what she's up to, and blasted I forgot the bitches name. Just like that, it's as if she never existed... and I feel terrible for failing to recall it.
I don't even know why. I've NEVER been a super smart guy. But one thing I pride myself on is my brain's speed. If I need to recall something, a feeling, an image, even a word's definition (I'm verbal oriented mind) this fucking thing has never failed me. It's why I can do what I do, be creative, whatever...
Like dr quest said, his excellent memory is both a blessing and a curse.
I remember almost everything in my life with vivid detail. And as much as I recall the good times, I also recall the bad. That's what he meant. Sometimes it's good not to be super smart, and over analyze things.
I'll dare say the good thing about being super smart is being rich. Being some kind of freak of nature genius with a superior iq or photo memory, must be hell if you want to relax yourself and get away from thinking about shit too much.
I say to myself. Forget the past. Think about the boobs and the future, maybe even finally getting laid. Yeah... would be nice. But I like things to be in order. I DO have OCD, just not a severe case of it. I mean, ultimately push comes to shove, I'll ditch the whole thing and move on. yes... but nothing better than a nice clean orderly, smooth, operation. Brings a smile to my face when things fit and work, and go well.
Future of cinema
What the hobbit has done recently is going to change everything. I dare say we've witnessed a revolution in cinema on the same level as color and sound. I don't even want to watch regular movies anymore after seeing this motherfucker. That's how powerful an experience it was. I always wanted to see a movie that blurred the line between reality and fantasy so welll that you'd be hard pressed to figure out what was real or not. Well here it is. God damnit.
It was like being a kid again, like how you have all the time in the world to get lost in a cartoon episode. Or you use your imagination to make the show or movie real. Like how I watch the original ninja turtles movie as a kid. That shit was real to me. The characters, everything. I didn't even consider them puppets or sets or actors. It was TRUTH. Like the bible.
Hobbit's the shit. I want every movie to follow it now. I can't go back, I won't go back to regular frame rate. It's like having a choice between bluray and dvd. Which are you going to go with? Bravo, Peter Jackson.
It was like being a kid again, like how you have all the time in the world to get lost in a cartoon episode. Or you use your imagination to make the show or movie real. Like how I watch the original ninja turtles movie as a kid. That shit was real to me. The characters, everything. I didn't even consider them puppets or sets or actors. It was TRUTH. Like the bible.
Hobbit's the shit. I want every movie to follow it now. I can't go back, I won't go back to regular frame rate. It's like having a choice between bluray and dvd. Which are you going to go with? Bravo, Peter Jackson.
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