Sigh

I need a girlfriend badly. But it's hard to get one. Sabrina frato... she will always be my first girlfriend I think. She let me touch her breast, which was the best experience of my entire life, good God! I wish we could have met in another life. But honestly, I'm afraid I'll end up a divorced dad and all that bullcrap.

My mom says I'm scared of girls, that's why I won't try to get with one. Such a stupid thing to say. I have no fear of anything. Not even death. What scares me most is only failure. And I keep remembering everyday how much stuff I've failed to accomplish due to ignorance of the world or any other number of uncontrollable factors that contributed to my downfall as a respected internet personality. No one's forgotten 07. It will be forgotten just like the last time it happened, so I'm not all too put off by it, but we live in an age where some fucktard you used to post with at one website will still be online 9 years later talking the same shit, and yes, I'm talking about you gomer tonic.

Thank God I still have time to fix my life, that's all. I just need to find a good job and get some sweet pussy for once before I die. Stupid people in the military were seriously trying to convince me to go die in war without ever fucking a girl. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELL no.

I'll die in war, don't bother me really. gonna die anyway. But I gotta fuck a girl, just that one time, I spend so much time dreaming about it...