punks

so i live a block away from my old high school. and now that schools back in full swing, i see the same old shit i saw damn near 10 years ago when i started going there, hard to believe it's been that long. but yeah since you start at 14 and im now 24, its been about 10 years. 6 since i finished. If i knew better i'd have never gone to high school at all, sure, you won't find many supporters of that since people have been brainwashed to not question the school system, but it really didn't help me in any way that matters to me now. so what was the point. all the stuff about hunting down employment I learned through the school of hard knocks, aka real life itself. I must conclude that high school's really nothing more than a big mini prison to keep young fuckers occupied for hours all day or something. Put these kids to work. wtf is the point of training them for years to do something that has shit squat to do with their ultimate occupation.

but most of all, i regret listening to both my parents and teachers about staying away from girls. Now I'm just annoyed and aggravated by how people who are digging deep into pussies every night are treating me as if I'm one of those guys who's, how do i put it,... generally a little asshole, that kid who doesn't care about anything but fucking. sure would like too. But I'm 24 the age when you're too old for the girls who'd spread their cheeks for you and too young and immature for the girls your own age. FUCK.

that was the biggest mistake i ever made, maybe it'll pay off and not seem like such a misstep, i don't know yet. I sit puzzled by the hypocritical views on sexuality held by very powerful and supposedly smart people. at this high school they have annual dances in which boys and girls are encouraged to hook up, and i guess figure out how to fuck after school? i don't know what the parents of the world want for the kids. why not be honest? why play games like this?

sigh sigh sigh. I mean, i had chances aplenty, was never averse to fucking the crap out of one my cutie classmates, of course not, but i believed it was better to avoid that stuff, dedicate my time to star wars etc. now HILARIOUSLY people want to toss me under a bus for not conforming to their expectations regarding old tired courting rituals and ultimately marriage itself.

it's too much for my mind to take in, since it's such a huge about face from the days of taking meaningless tests and getting accused of being gay daily, but i know if i try i can understand why people are so retarded. i just don't think it's worth the effort.