Hard to adjust

Hard to adjust to adulthood really. I don't know how to act like one since I never had any role models and it's just crazy to realize that other guys my age feel like they still have to push other guys around like dumbass school kids. People like me are expected to still be in school fucking around with term papers on obscure crap we'll never need to know, especially if you want to get a girlfriend. I ain't mad at bullies as much as I used to be. The unfortunate reality I've come to discover is that if you aren't capable of killing a man, no girl wants you. Such a shame really. But that's life, gotta roll with the punches.