Marriage

I've decided today that it is something I cannot do. I've always been different, not in the sense that I acted funny or anything, but I never ever felt like I belonged to the same universe as my peers. It's hard to explain. But yeah growing up, it began to seem odd that we were learning both science and religion, one minute learning about evolution, the next creationism. I then started to distrust the people lording over me, filling my head with biblical bullshit. Now these same guys I grew up with want me to be "normal" and go to church and kill people and get married and work a job since that's how the adult world works, any psychotic moron can have a say in how people live in this society. God bless America and all that.

My father says there are very smart men in this world, no doubt the super elite minds who despite preserving religious traditions, tend to side more with the facts. I know about these guys. Very wealthy, very smart, white athiests. The problem with athiesm though is that it doesn't have all the answers, just proposes that we will one day finally become fully aware of why we exist. But yeah, unfortunately even athiests are human and as I'm starting to learn these same super smart guys can be flawed, giving in to their own selfish need to hurt people who they particularly don't like.

I learned this the hard way going about posting on forums. Bunch of hotshot college grads on there, looooooooove to compete with each other over who's the smartest and can outwit the next person. The airforce calls it getting "butthurt" that's when you verbally assault a person harshly enough to where they react emotionally to your insults. It's a political tactic called the adhominem attack, supposed to cause you to lose a debate right off the bat, but people don't give a fuck man. poor kids using the internet come in and say some crap then a grown man comes swooping in to slice his head off with his understanding of debate tactics.

The more I learn about debating, the more I don't like it though. It's gay. No need to pull out a dictionary and slam a officially sanctioned definition into some dork's face. Just the fact that your nerdy ass has a dictionary handy just so you can outsmart someone online, is gay. You are gay if you think that makes you cool. And fuck critical thinking while I'm at it. Sitting on your computer critically thinking about batman is gay. You are gay if you think waxing poetic about batman makes you cool. Thank you for listening.