Alicia Ayers

My long lost love.

I have to say finding her on myspace has rattled me intensely. I truly never loved anyone more than I loved her. So reading about how many guys she's fucked makes me want to kill someone. Now more than ever do I understand exactly what makes a soldier want to run into certain death. Love is a powerful drug.

I think about the days when I was in 8th grade trying to sum up the courage to talk to her, and wow man, that was it right there, the cross road when my life took the dive into shit that it's been in since. I bailed, man. That's all. I was 13, right. I'd started puberty to some degree, got interested in alicia as more than just another stupid girl, but as a sexy girl, gorgeous body, fit and she was a cheerleader so she was flexible.

But I didn't have a good home life, so what was I going to bring her to anyway. But yeah all my passion for anything, be it science, math, history, and art, was so that I could finally be with her again. I worked hard to become strong in school hoping I'd meet up with her again by the graces of god, whatever that means. Life didn't have that in mind though and ultimately I lost... simply lost... because she was gone. The airforce though a dream I'd had since childhood means nothing next to getting with her, nothing... They asked me what was holding me back. lol... oh is it that hard to see? She's my other half, I'm nothing more than incomplete puzzle without her.

She's my age now. Her body is even better looking now though i'd have liked to have seen her teenage body, but good god is she in great shape. Still has that chubby face, perfectly plump ass, long curvy legs, not much in the boob area, but I can live with that. Damn I sound creepy as hell typing about some girl I don't really know. Sure we've known each other since kindergarten but that's long in the past.

The future's all I have left now. What the hell am I going to do, i wonder...