Speaking of gay

The last time I masturbated was thursday. What was I doing, I was horny like I am now. I'd been looking at nude chicks on my comp for quite a while, not white chicks either, but ridiculously big boobed black girls, cuz I like to think I'm sucking on their breasts, but I don't know... I decided to make things more interesting this time. Orgasming feels good for like a few seconds then it stops feeling good at all right afterwards. I used to just rub my dick on the couch and that'd send me to heaven alone, then the resulting explosion of semen would be the icing on the cake. I then started drawing porn regularly. Just drawing every curve of the female body made me feel great. I didn't need to ejaculate. I loved loved loved drawing girls. Then I got the internet, a more advanced version with kazaa and stuff. It was then that I learned of anal sex. Oh what is this... I downloaded a clip of a woman being fucked in the ass by a dick so big it hurt her. Right on! I loved it. She's all happy to get it in the butt, then it actually goes in and she's like "ohh wait! slow down." Cool. That's women for you, happily getting fucked in the ass. So I kinda got curious about it too, anal sex. I didn't want to be gay, just wanted to know the taste of it, so yeah one day while masturbating I put my finger tip in my butt. It was interesting and new sensation that actually DID elevate the orgasm. After that I did it all the time until I got worried that I actually was gay. Then my god it was hard to quit anal stimulation. I felt gay for a long time about it until i learned that that's an actual masturbation technique, and you're not necessarily gay if you stimulate the rectum before orgasm. I still love hot young women, there's no changing that. I look at my porn pics and immediately my dick shoots up at the sight of a pussy these days. In fact I've never really wanted to taste or touch or lick a girl's vagina until now at 23. I've always looked at them in an idealistic sense, not a real flesh and blood and potential baby making sense, but damnit if I'm not looking around girls on the street and seeing them as pieces of meat I can use to make a little me with. Must be nature taking its course. Still I'm just saying I've been there that's all. I know why gays are gays. I've been down that road, but women are still my number one interest no matter what.