Tale of two titties

So I'm totally getting hammered here in the sense that my mind is focused on one thing and one thing only, boobs, curves, the smooth skin of a young virginal female. I can't deny this is fucking me up to no end. I read a blog once where a guy talked about how not masturbating gave him extra life force or something. It makes sense. Releasing semen is releasing life, as it's our only method of becoming immortal, in the sense that we bond with a female and make a new person. Of course it would drain you of your own life force somewhat.

Back in high school, I drew ronda comics all the time. Good shit. I did it because it got me going sexually, that's all. Looking back, I'm kind of sickened that the instructors at these high schools are really just big fukin kids obsessed with sex like me, only their life depends on getting the job done and forcing a bunch of youngsters to study a bunch of shit they'll forget in a couple years. But it keeps them out of the way and maybe there's one or two super smart kids who'll be a great asset to the corporate machine one day, that's all it's for I realize now.

While in the mil for a minute, yeah some really young guy, probably one of these elite minds, basically laid it out that he doesn't give a fuck about me beyond my productivity and use to whatever grand master plan there is for the next generation. It's still that way. Adults it would appear prettymuch play "who's toughest" to see who deserves to lead the pack, and the leader dictates much like in a dictatorship. America works that way too only we have little suggestion boxes hanging on walls that allow us mere mortals to get a word in to the elites who control society. I hope that whoever is in charge is looking out for our best interests since having seen what kind of goofball jock douche bag bible thumpers running the military, I'm kind of no longer blinded by optimism.

Fact is this. We're all dead. The moon is slowly drifting away from the earth, and when it does leave its orbit, earth is done. YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT, CHILDREN, WE ARE SCREWED. It's going to happen long after I'm dead, for sure, but sigh.... what to do to avoid our fate, I wonder... So all this war is retarded as shit to me. who the hell cares about the here and now. The future of humanity is really not like all that bright unless someone dedicates more funding to scientific research. This is what worries me more than anything. I feel like mua dib in that dune shit, it's kind of freaky knowing that despite all our efforts to have children and protect them, we're just going to be tossing them into a world that's slowly and surely fucked in the long run.

Alright that's enough random thoughts...