So relaxing

Gotta say masturbating ain't too bad. I started at 16, been doing it ever since. It calms me down like if I were to smoke a cig or something. I don't panic or feel anxious. I forget all about my problems. It's my bodies way of accepting reality in that life must end at some point, so that new life must begin. So be it. I don't want no damn kids though, they're ugly. I saw a little girl today and good grief I was kind of taken for a loop I'd not seen a real deal kid in a long time. she's so happy, I don't know why though, this world's a crappy place.

*shakes head* whatever. What was I going to say.

Ah,, the "adult world" as they call it. What is it? It's a place ruled by those who had some awesome sex one night, then got a girl pregnant and now they have to feed their pups. I'll be damned, never really knew older people were all like one big mob of parents and yeah if you ain't on their side, fuck off is all you'll be told. technically I have my rights to do what I want to do to, but naw, people with kids make all the rules buddy, you be damn sure of that. It's just weird to have a bunch of religious nutters telling me how to live a good life, really pissing me off in the end. It's just because I'm black. These guys don't want me to to end up one of "those dumb niggers" so they want to convince me to become all smart and shit and speak articulately cuz datz wut meks u smart. It's a lot more complicated than that. People unfortnatley because of the media have been given this false perception that rich white christian conservatives are the ideal kind of people, granted they rule the world and if you want to get a good job, suck their cocks hard, but no, there's all kinds of different white people of various religious belief systems, sexualities, all sorts of crap that throughout history has led to a lot of blood shed. This country was founded by white people who got sick of being told what to do by other white people, and then they went ahead and decided to enslave blacks cuz we all know we hate people bossing us around. We humans suck.