Tough Choices

I made a serious error in judgment that will now lead to me abandoning my intention to potentially start a relationship or whatever with this hot girl i work with. I don't know what I'm doing with girls, and as it is, I guess I screwed it all up trying to be funny and sending her some pic of me at the delta party. She was not happy and scolded me in a reply. I'm hurt but at the same time I've actually planned for something like this to happen, just in case she totally rejects me, I'd accept it as what was an inevitable backlash to my increasing our working days together... I mean, it is what it is, a gamble... I was planning to start some funny convo with her tomorrow but fuck it now... show her the party vids etc... I'll say hi and that's it. Get the work done and fuck off. It's lame but that's how it's got to be... I've put in too much time at this place to have my life fucked over by some good looking girl... that dude i worked with was right, women just bog your mind down really make you lose focus.

I hate her now.