Keep the faith

I will no longer be posting to this blog after about next week or so. I feel like it's holding me back, ya know. I have to evolve and move forward really. I know what's going on, how I'm kinda being followed by the KKK or old forum enemies or members of the airforce (which is a big deal.) I kindly ask that you get off my back. Now I know it's hard to do because I'm like on your hit list or whatever. But I'm not a threat to you, so I don't see where the animosity is really stemming from. And furthermore, I've never had any intention throughout the long years of my life from nap time in kindergarten to long hot days in high school etc, that I'd be in the middle of a shit storm as big as the nonsense that transpired in 2006 forward.

I have a lot to think about really. I want to get going on the time machine if possible. Maybe get a girlfriend. You see, that's my point. No one should have to be worrying about fending off kkk or military when they're still trying to get pussy. There has to be a line drawn somewhere. I'm not a wimp. I will go to war if necessary. But it's not necessary. And you have to have something worth fighting for in the first place. I have nothing. I've always had nothing. I look back on my life, and it's incredible how meaningless and boring it was. The only thing that truly mattered to me was of course cartoons, movies, videogames and comics which is what I've always found fun and will always cherish.

It's what makes me sad about the state of the world, when there's so much beautiful art to be enjoyed, people would rather fight and fight and fight over nothing. God help us.

Thanks for reading. 

All I really wanna do is fuck you

I was just thinking about shit like titties. I've been told a lot that I'd have kids one day or some shit. I don't know where to begin with that shit, yall. I didn't like kids as a kid, and to have them probably wouldn't work out too well either. I was just doing my thang at toys r us right, and this little girl was starring at me from over the counter. I'm all like "wtf" because I haven't been around kids in years and now I'm thrust into a situation with them and she's there all innocent and cute right. And I wonder if I should try to be funny or whatever. Like I said, I don't have much experience with little ass girls except for I know how they're bitches when they're young, totally diva queens. Hmmm but whatever.

Ya know what I really want to do. feel up on a girl's soft ass and titties.

I often sit and dream of it.

updates

All I got to really say is that I wish I discovered this stuff earlier. I've been having this problem since I was 19. That's 7 years I've had to endure this tension headache. Turns out I simply was deprived of a vital nutrient for my brain. All the things I could have done, taken away from me because of my impaired mind. How the fuck do people expect kids to figure this stuff out once they leave for college. I can get a fucking PHD if I want to now, without the nagging brain pain.

Just don't care for one. But yeah, it's good to be back to normal for once. I cannot stress enough how important it is for guys my age to get the right vitamins and supplements in their diet and don't go crazy or anything. Don't take no fucking antidepressants. You're not depressed, you're low on choline in your fucking brain.

I don't care about the past anymore either. I always wake up, go about my day, try to resist the urge to masturbate, and I'd always get what's called "anxiety attacks" I'd remember bad times etc. I'd plow through the bad memories but ultimately the only way to truly shut them up was to blow a load. and I did.

But I knew how false a sensation getting an orgasm was, since I'd be back to the same old feeling only moments after.

Question now is, what to do with my new lease on life. I don't know... I'm just so mad that people must have really known how to treat my illness all this time, but just didn't tell me. That's unbelievable. And seriously backwards. Why not just kill me instead of watch me go day to day constantly in pain. I want my job back at tsa now that's for sure. I really quit not because of the staff fucking with me, no, I was getting paid A SHIT TON of money to do nothing all day. They can spit in my face for all I care. I quit because I was stressed out too much by my headache. And now it's mostly gone. I feel better than I have in years. And I'm unemployed. I would be doing so well at tsa if I knew about this choline stuff....

 Don't know... just gonna try getting a regular ass job somewhere, man. I can handle any job now that I feel better. That's all that matters.

well fuck me sideways

it's not lecithin that's doing the job. It's choline. Which is found in lecithin. But I need to get just the choline. Everybody if you're smart, you'll take choline... shit fixes everything in your body and gives you super powers.

I took some this morning, shit's poppin baby. I can feel it healing my brain from within. I am now not even human anymore baby. Life is gooooooooooooooood son.