Thoughts on Star Wars 7

What can I say, been into star wars since I was a kid. Kinda still am, although I truly abandonded the series after Episode 5 honestly. Wasn't until superman returns that I got back into voraciously hunting down movie info like a maniac.

So here I sit and they're forging forward like an angry bull with the producition of star wars 7. The movie looks like it could really be great, or ultimately and worst case scenario it's another INDY 4.

I've talked about my personal disdain for that film many times in this blog and it deserves it. I thought white people could do no wrong, I really did. Boy did they fuck that movie up.

I mean I'm a black guy who grew up surrounded and being blasted by the awesomeness of the smartest white people in the world, and then they get together and make that movie. Makes me wonder if white people aren't all that and a bag of doritoes. Indeed I've met and dealt with white girls who are retarded as a bag of bricks despite looking like meagan fox. I guess it's true, nobody's perfect.

It's tough being white, like, I imagine white girls kinda live a life of constant fear of being fucked by a black guy at some fucking point and having nappy headed nigga babies. Indeed many movies have been made on the subject. Alien is all about white women's fear of turning black. What else, lol, so many. I'm thinking the fly has that element to it. I loved that movie as a kid, but when you really watch it, it's about fear of turning black. Same with fucking Teen Wolf. That whole fucking movie is about a white kid turning black.

I got to really look back through film history and look out for any kind of subtle racism in movies. I really do. If you look out for it it's there. I mean honestly something like 300 a white guy kicking a black guy down into a well, there ya go...

A lot of movies have a hint of racism in them although I believe they're being a lot more clever about racism these days. Sad truth I'm coming to see more and more is that even white people aren't totally racist as fuck anymore because they'll tolerate niggas more than faggots any day of the week.

Barely I should say. Hell I don't like hanging out with black people for any stretch of time, I sure as hell am sure white people don't want to either. I mean it's a dangerous game to play and some white people are crazy enough to try it, but yeah, it's inevitable, if a white person hangs out in a black community for any length of time, there will be war, sad to say...

It's just, blacks have a lot of inbred long gestating fear of white people and like today I go to the store to get some stuff, and to my own shock I'm thinking in my head, wtf are those white guys doing here, this place is a black community, but no, I shouldn't think that, this is america, anybody can go anywhere and be free to do it. But no, I was actually kinda on edge that two clean cut white guys were waltzing around in my old neigborhood. How stupid and ridiculous for me to think that way, I mean. Why should I be scared of white people, they have the same fucking dick and balls as me. What's there to be afraid of. We should be hanging out fucking girls together, not being babies about racism.

It's just, let me tell ya, I kinda have to say I really hit the jackpot in the genetic lottery in the sense that I don't have to live my life 100% concerned with people looking at me as this black dude. I could get a hair cut and have no problems at all since people will assume I'm hispanic. But yeah I was just hanging out on the subway and you see the way this world is and you just see the huge gap between the economic levels between blacks and whites in this world. Blacks are NOT in any way shape or form on the same economic social, and educational level as whites, hispanics, and asians. And I'm thinking to myself, WHY? Just clean your black ass up, hit the gym, make the most of yourself if possible. Why simply mope around like a homeless fart stain in this world, wtf...

I mean despite all the bullshit I've gotten into these last few years, I still want to look good, stay in shape, get some pussy. Nothing going to change that...

Gotta get me some hot bubbly ass. I dream of plowing my dick deep in a girl's ass so bad, it's driving me crazy every day all I give a damn about is some juicy booty pounding. Why anyone would want to do anything else besides fuck a bitch, I'll never understand. And I sure as hell don't get why girls, young, ripe young bitches, aren't making our lives awesome these days by giving everybody some of that ass and pussy. Instead you'll get nothing, and bullshit from bitches out there hanging out. They want to get fucked, but they act like they don't, WHY? Just get fucked, don't be retarded about it.

weird, I mean I see hottie girls all day, man. Why the hell are they wearing clothes? Take that shit off, You are young, ripe and FRESH for fucking, don't wear no fucking clothes, BITCH...

Just thinking about superman today. Still making superman. Superman returns was a weird turn of events. How you going to make a superman movie, say, well that didn't work, then make another one with a new superman, and totally reboot the whole thing with the this half baked potato superman we have now who ain't got shit on Reeve. I mean and they didn't even bother keeping the fucking secret identity, wtf is that about. White people got to start thinking about wtf they're doing with their massive amounts of power in this world. Can't go making a superman movie that's half a pack of shit like with man of steel. 

If it isn't a goddamn classic superman movie, don't fucking make the thing, goddamit. Just my thoughts on that...

But I loved superman as a kid, love him still, but honestly the thing about superman is that he's like the poster boy of the KKK movement. Gotta say, never really knew it, but the KKK is the biggest most powerful military force on this planet. Period. Never really knew it, but they got everything under their umbrella of control and power, EVERYTHING.

Really I'm watching movies that I liked as a kid and well, surprise surprise, half the time you see the KKK signature a white guy wearing white clothes in those movies. I'm guessing they HAVE TO, that stuff is mandated by their superiors. If they don't play by the rules, they'll be found and executed or something bad will happen to them. I'm certainly guessing that's how the KKK operates, much like the military, you don't conform, they'll find you and deal with you.

I mean while down at lackland, fucking the staff sargeant was kinda looking piss ass terrified if he didn't conform and follow the rules and keep me fed and alive. No doubt he's under strict orders by the kkk elite in the air force. If he steps a toe out of line, he'll be executed. They must not play an inch, elite class white people.

I mean it's a good life, you got lucky, you were born white, you join the KKK fight for them, they'll give you a sweet life of zack and cody prettymuch.

 I mean it must be an all encompassing thing. No matter what, prettymuch all white people in this world get to live a luxurious high class life style without much burdens or issues. Mean while, blacks I must admit will never have a clue about that kind of life.

I think to myself, why? Why can't a fucking regular black person just live life like a king in this world? LOL, it must be tough to be white and have to deal with the black race hanging out in this world. I mean there they are, homeless, hanging around, asking for money, just this big dumb bag of crap black guy. What's so hard about finding a job, why you got to hang out asking for money.

But I see it all day. Back in high school I just knew, this jungle monkey black motherfucker being an idiot in class is going to end up shit in life. And I was right ten ways to sunday. Didn't take a minute to crack a book open and study anything, and now all you see is niggas like him on the street wondering how the fuck they ended up complete fail in life.

hoping for the future

Life certainly does have its ups and downs. And now I'm going to finally sign off from this blog much to the approval of a lot of racist white people I'm sure.

You guys win. I'll shut the fuck up from here forward. Only thing I'm looking forward to is getting my new job, but it's weird as fuck gotta say. They call me in for a second interview because I wasn't picked for the job on the first run through the list of candidates. Wow, wtf...

Either they legitimately screwed up or they're juggling me around like a goddamn football for their own amusement.

Means nothing to me, they're not the only fucking job in the world. I can get a lot of jobs, they don't matter that fucking much.

So alright, that's all folks. I'm done...

Getting a job and shit

Was just thinking about my potential to get and keep a fucking regular job. I certainly hope to at some point... Lol, I don't care if it's garbage man. I just can't believe how this world operates but it's pretty darn ruthless when you finally get out of school and have to go toe to toe with the super genius people running this world. You're in for a fucking trip. Not only have I stood toe to toe with the people in charge of the fucking atomic bomb, but they shitted all over my potential to start a family and stuff, which I have a hard time making sense of. One minute I'm struggling to get through an intense level of super mario DX on my gameboy DS and then I'm being told, Hey yunno that fountain of semen spilling out of your body, one day you'll end up filling a girl with it and boy are you in for a bag of shit.

Very strange, dunno what I'm supposed to think about that... but hey, roll with it. I'm not going to make a big woop about it. It's just, truth be told sadly this isn't a nice world, it's the jungle and if you want to survive you'll have to kick somebody's ass at some point. starting to feel like that.

I go to work and I got some numb nut retarded guy trying to start shit with me. He's an idiot, I know that from the start. He wants to start shit like he did with other kids back in high school. I'm not interested in his bullshit, yet he's a moron so instead of focusing on the job, he's interest is only to annoy me all day and be a pest. I start thinking, maybe I should kill him. That'd make my day smoother. He's not even that big of a guy. I could actually kick his ass, yet he's acting like he's the freakin GOD among men in front of me.

That's the most annoying thing about going from being a kid to being a grown man. You will come across guys who are thinking they're badasses and can push you around when NO I'm actually not this little shrimp and if necessary will defend myself. It's how white people feel when a black guy starts shit with them. It's like, they must think in their head "really, you must be some fearless ass motherfucking nigga." Then they pull our their gun and pop his dumbass head off and go back to being a white person...

Thoughts on Home alone 2

So I'm going to continue to blog a little bit here, since I guess I'm still stupid enough to impart thoughts to an audience who could care less what I think. I'm 28 now. What's there to say about that. It's like, I wish I knew how this fucking world worked while still a teenager, would have made smarter choices about life before ending up smack dab in the center of the white man's world. Man oh man, was the wool pulled over my eyes in this little life I've lived. White people got this world on LOCK DOWN. I keep seeing black people looking lost and out of sorts in this world now more than i did as a kid.

I'm a lucky fucker I suppose. Being part white does indeed grant me certain advantages over ordinary black people.

I mean it's like, I kinda feel a lot more free to walk the street without nobody looking down on me because prettymuch people think I'm a spanish dude wherever I go.

It's not bad, although I feel like I need to do something to earn the advantages lighter skin gives you. I just honestly don't like it. i want EVERYBODY to just live life without fear of anyone. But when you really look at this world and see the way it works, it's like this. So a black guy goes up to a white guy and starts shit with him, the white guy laughs his ass off and goes about his day not giving a damn. That's the way this world operates, hands down.

I mean I get annoyed by other black people constantly too, all my life been pissed off by other black people acting like goddamn idiots. But I can tell you without a moment's doubt, that's what dealing with black people is all about, always having to dodge their shit. Always.

It must be tough as balls to be white, gotta say. I never really cared, never gave a damn about the complexities of being a white person, but NO being white is EXTREMELY TOUGH. You have all the same issues with trying to get laid etc, and on top of that you're surrounded by a race of brown and black people who want to scoop up pieces of your magical white DNA.

What a horrible position to be in. Really no wonder so many of them lose their fucking minds in life. It's a tough life to live, no doubt.

I want to say to myself, there's no problems, we can all get along. But NO, we cannot. That's prettymuch why I have people hunting me down to this day is because I'm a black dude who basically pissed off a room full of white people. Now they're taking the kid gloves off and going to war with me.

You bet your fucking ass. You piss off whitey, you GONE. They'll find a way, jurrassic park style, they'll find a goddamn way to end you.

But enough of my EMO bullshit. I got to stop being so EMO. That's not who I am. I'm a really goofy clownish dude, why the fuck am I crying and moaning about racism etc. I NEVER do that. I just watch porn and jack off and enjoy my goddamn life, why am I EMO? FUCK...

 Who knows.... 

Was thinking about Home alone while taking a shower today. I'm a 90s motherfucking KID. If you were a kid in the 90s you saw home alone on TV every christmas. They ALWAYS showed that shit on christmas, you bet your fucking ass. I was a total nut for that movie as a kid. Culkin was my boy back then.... Who didn't love that movie, it was just so flawless a film. I mean regardless of the fact that there were like no black people in the movie, it was a great fucking movie. But the sequel? WTF.

I mean I worship white people, I think highly of them to this day, but the decision to make Home Alone 2 was a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally shitty one.

That movie just is so stupid, it's beyond comprehension. I can't understand how they decided to make such a film. I never got that movie as a kid, though I enjoyed it. It's not bad, it has its moments, but it's just really stupid. And meaningless. The worst thing about it is that it didn't accomplish anything. It basically told the same exact story as the first movie and that's it. Wow, that's just terrible. It must have sucked to be around back then to go to see the movie all hyped up for it and then you finally see it and it's WELL, prettymuch the same movie you have at home on vhs.

Why? Why make a movie like that. I'm not even going get into the fucked up 3rd movie or the goddamn really shitty home alone 4. Who makes these goddamn decisions to make terrible sequels to superior classy real films like the home alone movie.

The thing that truly aggravates me about it is that it just didn't even attempt to be different than the first movie. I watched sequels all the time as a kid. Batman movie sequels, fucking everything, superman etc. And yet never began to think that they'd make a sequel that's prettymuch a remake of the first movie like with home alone 2. I dare say maybe half way through the movie's production they should have said, let's not make it. Let's just fucking not make this movie because it's the same shit as the first one.

Boy howdy do I love home alone and the world and universe that it was, I feel at ONE with that movie. Kevin is ME. We're the same. As a grown man I don't even look at Kevin as a kid. When I was a kid, I was the same fucking way, a smartass, smart kid who talked shit to people. We're the same personality only he's a white kid and will probably end up running a coropartion at some point. But yeah, man fuck.

Home alone 2 is a tragic movie when all is said and done. i have to say. I really do not like that movie anymore. Because it's redundant, it's fun, it' like the rocky sequels. As a kid, WB11 showed all the rocky movies (at least at the time, there were only 5 of them.) So they showed a marathon of rocky films. And it was a great time to be a kid, got me into body building and gymnastics. That's why I'm the way I am, Stallone, got to give it up the guy he's influenced a shit load of 90s kids to get in shape and fucking get ripped, him and arnold. Got to say, yunno that stuff I saw as a kid, a man going the distance and struggling to improve himself, really sunk in deep into my core and became a part of me.

So yeah, I'm still nostalgic for home alone 2 but on a intellectual level I can't defend that movie one bit. It's just SHITTY beyond measure. And I have no true like hatred to wards a fun goofy movie that came about during the 90s where life was fun and goofy and weird and stuff. And yunno we're beyond that point these days. We have really gone over the top in terms of making life really fucking a circus of weird in this world. I don't know if it's a sign of the apocolypse the world's going down hill or some shit. I just don't know. I'm just trying to get my dick into the butt hole of a female at some goddamn point in my life that's prettymuch my objective...

Looking to the future

Well I'm going to put an end to this blog. Getting utterly bored with it and I don't think it matters what I think and I have to learn to just fucking not bring attention to myself. Lot of very pissed off powerful white people taking arms against me now and I'm like feeling like I don't under any circumstances deserve to have that kind of attention.

Here's what I want most personally. To live in peace, damn. Get some ass, plow my girl deep in her anus, squeeze her titties, go to work the next day. That's not too fucking much to ask?

I mean SHIT. What the hell kind of world is this. Something I was thinking about as I went to go get some pizza, why is everyone up everybody's ass about college? You know what I'm thinking about doing this very moment? Pounding booty!!! I don't want to go do school work, been doing that all my life, I'm done.

It's because I'm black and there just aren't any fucking college graduates by the bucket fulls in the black race.

Ok, great, WHEN DO I GET TO HAVE SOME FUCKING SEX.

i JACK OFF every single waking day. And that's what my life is, endless need to jack off... How about putting the fucking penis into a BITCH.

Fuck college.

Yeah I said it. And truth be told it's kinda a very depressing reality to wake up to that you as a black guy are SSSSSSSSSSSSSSURROUNDED by white people who are fucking like rabbits ever goddamn day and they don't give a FLYING FUCK about you getting laid.

But that don't mean shit to me. I ask for very little in life and in the end only want to live life with a pair of titties squishing against my face every night if possible.

We'll see. I'm hoping that at this new job I get to finally get some ass, or maybe hell, not going to happen, hell I don't even know if I'm fucking gay or not. Truth be told I kinda am a little gay.

heres some new static shots to end this blog with and shit, yunno...

Hitman Absolution

Sad thing to say but when you're not digging deep into a girl's asshole you have all the time in the world to play videogames. That's all I ever do since I was a kid, play games. I played all kinds on the super nintendo, then upgraded to the playstation and had a blast with that system. Say whatever you want until you're blue in the face, the games that came out for the PS1 are goddamn classics that are still in a lot of ways better than the games they're making now. Why? because they had limits. Nowadays we wanted game systems to have no limits to allow any kind of game to be made, any level of graphic detail, but unfortunately what you get when you give a developer unlimited freedom, is a game that's completely bland and lacks imagination.

It's because metal gear couldn't show us the beads of sweat on snake's face that the game had to be as creative and innovative as it was. Boy if that game was made today what kind of game would it be, like tihs fucking phantom pain they're making no doubt. Mind you, Hideo Kojima is a genius and will always make an amazing game regardless but I dare contend that it's because he didn't have the freedom he had today that the ps1 metal gear was as good as it was...

Goddamn, life is about to get goddamn good for me, son. All I have to do is get started at my new job and I'll have plenty of bread. Then I'll get into going back to the gym, and maybe even get some ass, who knows. I'm like, tired of watching porn all day to be honest. I got to get some pussy for once in my life, that's all I honestly want. It's like, yeah there's no sympathy for me when you get down to it, no one has to give a shit if you ever get laid. But I have to say it's wrong in my mind to just bring crops of kids into this world and then give them a decent cool little childhood and then POOF shrug at their sexual development like this.... that's outrageous beyond words.

So I'm getting into Hitman Absolution. It's cool. Someone at Delta recommened the hitman games to me, I'm thinking, who gives a shit about those games. Wrong... this has to be one of the most fun games I've ever played. It's like, I've been playing games like this before. metal gear etc. But nothing as fun as this. And it's perfect for the Ps3, gotta say they did a good job with this game. It's great. Go buy it for your kid or whatever.

How to keep this job

Looks like I have a new job now. Like, I'm more or less hoping to buy new computers with the money I make. I'm a fucking gargantuan computer nut. I build them, fix them, whatever I got to do to make them work more or less I try my best. Going to hopefully transcend now to the elite level and actually understand the full spectrum of computer programming and engineering. Sadly not in a professional way, but I want to be one of those guys who's doing things off the grid, yunno.

Like fucking geohot. Son of a bitch is now working for the people he used to be against, isn't that something? But the money is there. Might as well make those goddamn millions.

Genius motherfucker.

Just the thing I'm trying to accomplish now is actually keeping my job and staying put in it for long term.

How will I accomplish this? Lord knows. If they want to play hard ball and MAKE me get laid off, I'm sure I'll have no power to stop them. Otherwise I'll be very almost devilishly determined to stay strong and stay put in this fucking job. I need some money and I'm getting infinitely tired of living at home. Sad to say but I don't think it's above and beyond me to actually go live off in some apartment like a regular person. My parents are becoming retarded as they get older for some reason. I can't make sense of why EVERY SINGLE DAY without fail they come into my room to harass me.

What the fuck? Here's a thought, just NOT go starting shit with your kid, how's that so hard to do? But no, I wake up in the morning, look at my watch and like clock work they come strolling in to start shitting in my face, it never fails.

It's like I wonder to myself why I deserve this much bullshit and drama? they're bored, got nothing to do all day, want to start a fight with someone to make their lives interesting, that's all it is. I just want to strip a girl naked and fuck some ass, that's what I'M THINKING ABOUT. Not giving a shit about their drama or the world's drama...

But anyway, I'm alright, hopefully. Going to finally have a fucking long lasting career up in this bitch and pulling down a decent pay check for all my struggles and trouble and dealing with this retarded white man's world we live in.

I wonder to myself what's this fucking thing life all about. What's the point of it? Is there a point? WHAT is the point of life? It drives me crazy to think about it honestly. maybe there is no point to all this shit, we're just here to live, fuck, and die. What a damn shame.

I ain't dying without having shit loads of money in my pocket at least...