What to do next...

Not really sure. Always had no clue what I was doing in life, certainly sure as hell don't have an idea now...

Whatever comes let it come. I mean I don't believe in knowing all like some people.

Gonna try to get out of this lease for this apartment. I can only guess that they waited for me to get an apartment with a lease to hit me with a firing so I'd be super boned and have to struggle with debt. There is a maliciousness, an evil to the act of firing me that seems planned and strategized. It does make me want to seek revenge. I won't lie. I'm only human. I KNOW where these people will be every day. I could show up, kill all of them, then spend the rest of my life in a comfortable jail cell getting free food and shelter.

But I'm not gonna do that. First of all, I'm not that kind of person no matter what the KKK wants to make black people out to be. I've always been a good person, sorry to disappoint you. I know...

Second, they're already in prison now that I think about it. None of those bastards can leave their shitty job and just live their lives. It's a sad pathetic fate to be landed. Yes they're getting paid, but the dollars are chains they can't break. They're stuck. One thing I noted was how sad some of them seemed working there, showing up for this boring dull job every single day out of desperation to survive. Not because they wanted to be there. Maybe I'm better off spared that fate.

I did like the pay check tho...

Kinda want to try living my life without a job, see how that would work. It'd be damn difficult, and people with shit jobs will hate your guts for going without, but I don't like jobs, can't say I'm a fan of that shit.

If a job isn't slavery, then why is it the exact same situation. Forced servitude. Shouldn't there be an alternative to working to differentiate it from slavery? Apparently not. The wage slave thing is truth.

There is no out. You will merely die off if you don't leech off a job.

I'll be finishing my static shock movie next, then get back into my comic art that I was planning to do while at work. I'd spend the time I had before we had to do a flight drawing and sketching ideas, then we'd get to work. But since I got all day, might as well dedicate my self to my comic art full force. Learn another language too while I'm at it.

So much can be accomplished when you don't have school or work getting in the way, such a shame society has yet to learn that.

Going home

I'm not messing with TSA anymore from here forward. Even if they start hiring again, I'm done with their drama, their patented lack of maturity. I want to outright hate tsa, but they have tons of quality good solid people working there who come to work and get the crap shoveled and don't start drama. But then the drama comes from the managers and supervisors who need something to do to prove their existence matters.

Am I perfect? Not by any means, but they don't care. They ask for perfection like a lot of jobs do then when you don't deliver the impossible they blow it up to be the end of the known universe.

I sit here not really feeling bad about losing the job. Jobs always will be around, who gives a shit. It's that I LIKED the guys I was working with. Now I'm divorced from them, that life style I'd gotten used to over night. It's gut wrenching and just obscene shit to have your life you know stripped in five seconds away from you like that.

I didn't bother anybody. And I could have but I showed the utmost restraint and didn't ass around like I tend to do. They have no idea what kind of pest I COULD have been if I didn't mature over the years as a worker ant in the grinding gears of the work world.

I'm spinning around not knowing where to turn for comfort or who to trust anymore right now. It's such a scary position to be in. Can I ever get a job and keep it? Or am I just going to be kicked and booted from every job I get from here forward after a few months.

Well, holy shit, didn't see that coming. Might as well rob a store and be done with it. Honestly that's what I think is what society wants from my black ass. Go rob some place for money, then go become inmate number xxx in some prison.

So stupid. I mean, what would society prefer, black people contributing productively or loafing around in the subway for warmth and shelter... Give blacks jobs, even shit like tsa, and call it a day. Why is that a big deal?

Why make a statement about race and politics by firing a young black male from a decent paying job to prove you don't care about black people or something. Why do you have to prove that with ME? Who the hell am I?

It doesn't make sense. If I did something outrageous, like punch somebody, then ok, let's go, fire me. The reason they gave for firing me from my fucking JOB was that I wasn't all super duper quality like they wanted. THAT'S IT. Not that I fucked up horribly. Not that I hurt a child, which I had millions of chances to do by bumping into half of them or just being a douche bag and insulting some kid, or hurt the elderly people we deal with which luckily I never did but came close a million times as well cuz they have us bending down and maneuvering around someone who's 90 and frail as a twig. No I'm fired from my JOB, the thing that sustains my life, cuz I don't gots da awesomeness they want.

No they don't say, do things better and we won't fire you. They just straight MURDER my ass, over not being upbeat enough or some pussy little complaint they came out their ass with. NOT gonna try getting back in at TSA, sorry to say. I liked that job, felt like home. Why I even bothered re-applying. I liked it...

So I'm done with jobs for a while. Going to go home, take months off and just re-think my objectives.

Fuck work. Fuck it so hard.

Thawtz on Bangarang

Gotta talk about this. Dante Basco... what is there to say about him. Unbelievable career first of all. It's just getting your foot in the door in hollywood is tough. Getting roles after is tough. But to not only be in hook, go on to become zuko, multple other voice roles. Still gets work as an actor. Didn't see it coming. All the other lost boys, no offense, went on to modest careers. Not him.

Now he's spear heading the Rufio movie, Bangarang.

I'm down with that. You don't get it, I lived and breathed Hook almost as much as I did Star Wars. That movie is a part of my soul as weird as that sounds. You think I'm just talking out my butt hole. I freakin bought the hook game for game boy goddamit. I played that shit all day... snes joint too. It was a terrible game, but it was HOOK. I loved it. I'm so looking forward to it. I hope Spielberg puts his hand in although he'll likely not want to touch Hook ever again, from what I read about it, he wants to wash his hands of the film forever. Too bad, it's a mini masterpiece that will stand the test of time.

We need films like it in today's bleak hopeless world we're in now, show it to your kids, let them have a great childhood like I honestly did.

I mean I just love what Hook meant as a film, it meant, anybody can be the pan. You gotta understand what that film was saying!!!! It transcended the meager trappings we hold on to and proposed that Peter Pan was just the spirit of youth, not bound by flesh.

I liked that message.

So many layers to Hook that we don't appreciate...

Be interesting if everybody living from Hook made cameos. I'd die. I'd literally die if that shit happened.

If you've been following the youtube page of thomas tulok or whatever his name is. The guy who played too small. He says he made decent money on hook then his parents screwed him out of it and spent it all for themselves, so he actually didn't get to see the money  he earned. And he had a damn big role in the film, you can imagine he got paaaaaaaid.

anyway, this is big news. Dante etc, it just doing it for fun, but he has to know how much Hook meant to us 90s brats.

It was our lives man. This is long overdue. Goddamn, I'm looking forward to this stuff. Yeah, one wonders. Where the flying hell did Rufio come from... That is a good question...

hope for a better future

Probably not gonna blog for a while, just kinda not feeling like doing it...

Age is what it is, life is what it is... I wish I was still younger only with the same knowledge I have now. I wish girls were'nt so lame and would let a guy get experience with sex. I wish a lot of things.

I wish I didn't have bills, I wish that for damn sure.

I wish this political situation wasn't so damning and just plain stupid shit that it is to think about.

I wish we could just shut the fuck up, watch the new star wars movies and live and let live, how's that shit sound?

I've got some interesting new stuff I'm going to attempt to do. Get a big screen tv, miracast my desktop comp to it from my bedroom, see if that works so I can rock games on it if necessary. I don't know. Either that or stream it to this little tv I've been using.

Bought a bible for whatever reason from the store. I've not had much occasion or interest to read it, but why not. I figure, go for it.

I think that's what's missing these days, so pathetic to say. We're all so far up our own asses, we have no respect for God anymore. You HAVE TO humble yourself before the greater power, guys. Stop it. Just stop thinking Man is > God. What's wrong with you...

Keep the faith yall. Be back whenever I get around to it...

Getting back into Dragonball

I honestly don't want to, I'm 30 now but Dragonball was a huge part of my life. I modeled myself after goku, trained very hard to get strong like him. Have a huge interest in anime because of dragonball, the monkey king legend all that shit.

It's been fucking 8 years since Dragonball Evolution came and nose dived into the abyss of forgotten pop culture shit.

I could have directed that movie WITH that same script and you'd have a vastly superior film, that's what hurts. You don't have to get it right with the first one. That's not always necessary. Just don't make it boring, don't make it an insult to the fans like that one did. Make it a farce. Just a circus of pop references to the comic/cartoon etc. All it needed to be. Make it even self aware. Oh the wasted opportunity with that film. Wasted. I don't regret them making it honestly though since like the super mario bros movie, it will live on in legend as a failed but interesting take on the property.

I've been pushing back all my projects, the chun li edit is still on the horizon. Finishing the static shock movie is a priority as well. Need to just get settled in this job, this new apartment, get better weather up here for starters.

I'm so going to transfer to a new spot at TSA or even try to get into ICE or whatever in the future...

This is ass, groveling like a dog for table scraps from tsa wtf... You can only wait and hope half the people they hire quit, find better jobs, or a million different things. Most of the dudes I work with are not dedicated to this job, it's just pocket change while they look for real careers as cops or whatever...

We'll see about trading stocks if that works out or not...

Apartment life has its merits. Good nice safe no frills spot I got. Just wish I could figure out a way to get heat that won't break the bank cuz haven't a clue in that regard. Thinking about going for one of those garage heaters that just floods the place with it...

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In addition... I've decided not to get a projector. the tech just isn't advanced enough yet and was hoping 4k projectors wouldn't be so expensive. It'll likely take a while before they're affordable.

If I have to be stuck in this rut in life, I'd much prefer to have a badass gaming computer with top of the line hardware and 4k capability... If I have that, I'm good. I mean I don't care what happens at work as long I have my games, my porn, my internet, my cartoons, movies, and general fun shit.

United states of Russia according to Trump

Oh shit, really. Gotta be joking... hilarious to see even fox news dumbshits trying to spin this one. Trump has equated without question the actions of our military to russia's forces.

So point blank he's saying we're just as bad when it comes to war as what russia does. Is he insane?

We've fucking apologized for killing the wrong people in air strikes to our allies. That's America at its heart and soul. We do not and should not descend to the level of lesser civilized nations. It is the very foundation upon which we stand and hope to lead other nations towards one day.

Sadly if indeed russia helped trump he's playing into their hands beautifulyly. The failed yemen raid all this putin ass kissing, this is going to be gold for isis etc. when they make recruitment videos.

Does trump care? No he doesn't. He's a businessman. He is used to sitting in a comfy chair and watching everyone else work bleed and sweat around him. He could care less. You wanted this, you got it.

Unbreakable 2 coming

Finally. Asshole bitch pussy faggot mnight. Dumb fuck.

Waiting to get my scooter

I am frustrated lately is all. Don't ever bother with fed ex. They bring your package in the morning even though the delivery page says "end of day" then they re-deliver the package and somehow miss the signed door tag and decide to take it back all the way across the damn state to their warehouse to redeliver it again.

So yeah, that's my experience with them. Don't waste your time, go through a better service.

I was on the phone for hours trying to figure out how I could pick up my goddamn scooter. They got to go through a whole lot of bullshit before they can arrange a pick up. Just tell me where it will be tonight and I'll go to the goddamn truck and get the fucking thing you idiot. I love it...

I mean it's a pain in THEIR ass isn't it... They will now have to ship it AGAIN from waaaaaaaaaaaaay across the state. Geniuses running fed ex. I don't give a damn how it's just policy this policy that. I have to have my shit go back and forth on a truck 3 times to get it? When it's been literally here at this addresss twice already. Oh my GOD.

I try, I really try all my life to be THAT guy who's doing the right thing and lives his life by the examples set by superman, spiderman, jesus, all the great heros throughout history but I'll be damned if there aren't a lot of strange little weird things in life that don't try to swerve you off the right way to live and behave.

I'll be damned...

As for recent events. Glad to hear common sense won out in the government. That's related to this little rant post I'm on. I mean, there has to be common sense in life, you can't say "oh it's just policy" all the time. If the fuckers running fed ex had common sense they wouldn't bring packages when you're probably at work! They would probably put more effort into figuring out if you left the tag or not instead of just hanging a new one and not even looking through the window at your apartment door. (How the blue hell did the first delivery guy get into my building in the first place if they don't have a key?) They wouldn't take packages back miles and miles away and instead leave it with a neighbor or something or call, email, whatever the person who they're trying to get at. But no, they go with hard cold policy and paper work and fuck people over. Jesus...

New apartment thawtz

Not bad, gotta say. Having a little bucket to live in and feel somewhat secure in... not bad. I like it.

It's a big space, nice roomy one. Only hope the electric bill isn't murder. Jeeez, a brutha gotta get a hot shower baby... that's all I need in life...

Gonna fill it with light furniture or whatever. There is no plan here for long term. I just want to get past my probation period at tsa then transfer to florida, that's all.

Yeah I'm living the seinfeld life. Shoulda gotten into that eons ago. Waiting until now don't make lick all sense. But nothing in this world does. NOTHING...

Gonna get a projector off ebay. See I have this thing called a brain, It's so annoying. Well what I plan to do is NOT buy a big screen tv like people tend to do. I will be projecting since the walls in this bucket are all white, it's perfect for projection. Hopefully find something nice and reasonable on ebay.

Sure enough the greatest benefit to finally being an apartment owner is feeling American. Sadly it's tough to be proud of this country this day and age. Just outright silly what Trump is doing. He will indeed go down as the worst president in history after all is said and done. His attempt to build a legacy that will be highly regarded will not happen.

I'm having thoughts of running for pres honestly. I just, damn. I can't stand watching MY country go down the shitter. I CAN'T STAND IT.

I AM AMERICA.