Things are looking good

fucking fuck balls I saw some gorgeous probably 16 year old girl on the train today. Legs were so soft and ass was ready baby for well, what else, baby making. She'll be pregnant by at least 20, a girl like her, total ditz too, either she'll be a porn star or get married and never work a day after that. I have no more whatever it's called, fuck, but you get it, I no longer think females are these wonderful great angels I used to think they were. Nothing they like better actually than fucking around with a guy and getting away with it because they're female. Too bad their one weakness is dick, just like kryptonite, all girls and young women are powerless against the penis' appeal to them, granted they're hetero.

You won't learn that shit at college. In fact I see young men all the time, clueless mother fuckers who don't know what to do with their lives. I feel sorry for them because they don't know what I know about surviving in this world yet. Part of me wants to help them, the other part remembers how much I was tortured by other males and doesn't give a fuck about them, but they are just stupid kids. I could have used someone, a father figure, taking me aside and simply displaying that he gave a rats behind whether I existed or not. But that's unfortunately very very rare. Boys need fathers, but most won't have them because boys are hard to deal with, they're ugly, they seek to challenge you every chance they get, hell no it's not easy to take care of boys. Girls ain't shit, just sit there being pretty, that's all they need to get paid and survive in this shit.

speaking of getting paid, I applied for a really good job at lga. Even though I still have swissport on the back burner, I HAVE TO get into laguardia. It's the airport I wanted to work at, but I stupidly kept applying to jfk. I estimate that it would take me at least an hour to get to lga and that's by public transport. 2 hours to get to jfk. There's no comparing the huge benefit to working at lga instead. 9.62 an hour pay as well. That's the highest salary I've ever had, excluding the military which was 11 an hour. Still with that kind of money i'll have a car in no time. Probably after working there a while I can think of going back to college to get that bullshit degree thing so I can work on getting paid shit loads more, and its all dependant on if I can skim off a hell of a lot of time by working closer to home. I pray I get this job because well, it's my last hope really of being able to, well, get fucked. I got a hard on every morning, and you know what, the only way that i can go to my grave without being stuck like this is to have money, since that's all women want, white, asian, black, blue, purple, don't matter. I have no misconceptions, there's the word, about them anymore. You got a good job, they practically come to you, they just won't directly do shit. Like just going to work on the train, white girl asked me directions with a fat ass grin on her face, little did i know they consider that flirting, then a black girl tells me to stop picking at my beard as if she knew me for years, another form of flirting.

I mean, come on, I grew up talking to girls as if they were just fucking normal people, now they have to be all cute and girly to get cocks in their booty hole? stupid. My woman won't be a pussy, that's for sure. She'll ask ME out. Then I'll die for her a thousand times, seriously, that's what'd perk me up. Can't stand the hypocracy.