Shit

Went through all the head aches of trying to get the job and they just didn't give a shit about me in the end... wow...

damn

Best buy hasn't called in 3 days....

This means 2 things, either they've found someone else or they're just getting all their other interviews out of the way before making their final choices on who to call. I hope it's the latter, that's all... don't need no bullshit, now... really don't.

What else... I've discovered something. I haven't splooged to porn all day because I've been able to dampen the strange tension headache I get from porn withdrawal. it's still there, yes, but it's a lot less troublesome... nearly gone. Why? Calcium. Seems like I needed to get more of it, so I started taking supplements, and just like that, the pain isn't as severe. I almost feel normal again...

I figure a couple weeks on this calcium stuff and I won't ever need to masturbate ever again... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWESSSSSOMMMEEE!!!

Finished interview

I think I did ok. I was forceful. I showed that I'm ready to work.

Ya gotta look at jobs this way, I'll do ANYTHING for that money, nigga. Because especially being black, it's not like you have all this clout and can get any job you want so you can not put your full effort into the interview. No... I made myself look desperate. I spilled my guts and answered every question with full seriousness, no half assing. At least I hope they bought it. And I mentioned that I live close by which should look good to them.

It's a $9.00 an hour job. No where near the shit I was making at tsa but honestly that's fine. The benefits outweight the cost. It'll be a piece of cake to get to work and back home.

I'm just so excited. I'm not even worried about the attitudes I might come across. I just know I'll be a good fit for Best Buy. I'm not stupid about electronics. I know a lot about computers, more now after having installed a new  hard drive on this bitch...

It's hard though for me to realize that things are going to get better for me. I'm way too pessimistic. I did it. After applying and applying all these years I finally got this fucking job I wanted. Working on electronics something I've loved ever since I was a kid.

Life is good baby...

aaawww thank ya lawd

Best Buy just called my ass. Going to work there for sure now. And the great thing about it? I can ride my bike over there. Looking forward to this, since I don't even need to have a car.

I say work a job close to home and avoid car payments... simple.

Now the question is how am I going to ace the interview...

I'm going to exude class, 100%. Ya know... I always wanted to work at best buy because I feel at home around electronics. I'm just so excited. I may not make a lot of money but it'll be enough and I'll very likely get a discount on a new tv which I'm hoping to get.

This is God's will. Thank you so much... oh jesus thank you...

Quit TSA

Didn't want to, but my hand was forced. They really don't have much to do over there, so they try to find absolutely ANYTHING you do that might be a little suspect and blow it up to become more than it deserves to be to make themselves seem like a legitimate government agency with real power etc.

I just couldn't be bothered anymore with that kind of childishness. The staff is incompetent, the job itself is kindergarten level stupidness. The only good thing was the money which is why I'm thinking now maybe my black ass shouldn't have been so hasty to give the job the finger because who the fuck is hiring blacks out there... but I'm me and I think I'm someone of significance don't I...

Now what.... I've scrambled to apply to Delta again,, to Spirit, to Best Buy... however it's going to take months for them to get back to you. Luckily I'm not out on the street though I could be. Foolish thing to throw away a job like tsa especially if you're black, but who said I wasn't foolish.

If all else fails I'll have no choice but to join the Army or whatever other military branch I can still weasel my way into.... That'll be the last resort.

Black People

I have to say a few words on this since I've become more socialized lately after spending so long online, and in that light I've become more aware of where I fit in the social ladder in this society. I grew up with black kids, I went to a black school. I had mostly white female teachers, which is probably why I'm kinda into white girls so much... but anyway, I'm more experienced with the black race than any white person can ever hope to be... um....What did I learn from my life experience with black people? FUCK BLACK PEOPLE.

YEP. I'm not going to be PC about it. Like I said before, 90% of black males are garbage. Are there a few like myself who are decent people? Yes. My whole family is actually very religious and former military which I guess has helped civilize us more than the typical blacks though not that much...

 The way it is is that you can be sitting down having a sandwhich in a black neighborhood, some fucking douche bag black guy will come out of the woodwork and start shit with you. It never fails. Some shit inside of most black kid's heads says they have to start fucking with you for fun. It's like that holiday Inn commercial where the douche bag black guy is trying to make fun of a chubby white man, then the white guy completely owns him. That shit is the worst, when black people start acting like they're not fucking black and piss and shit on everybody around them and shit. You're still black you dumbass...

There's just nothing you can do to make black people look good. There I said it.... Al Roker's a very smart guy, excellent at his job, funny, but he looks awful in HD crystal clear resolution when I watch him on the morning news. That's why black people might as well give up on whatever "american dream" they're expected to chase really. Are we going to tell black children to give up? No.... but it's hard for me to say the future will be bright. Like chris rock said, might as well become damn good at basketball if you want to be rich.

Then of course we get to the ultimate reason why the world hates black people, potential genetic downgrading.  One drop of black semen in a white pussy and that bloodline's forever tainted. How do you live your life knowing that just by being black,  you're like some kind of living disease no one wants to catch? Why bring kids into that kind of bullshit? yes sure you want the kids, your body's desperate to make babies etc... but no one likes black people so you didn't do your kids any favors.

I was walking by the clinic down the block and overheared some guy asking his girlfriend if their baby was light skinded. My own mother told me to find a white girl to marry when I joined the airforce. That's how bad it is to be black. You don't have a chance in hell in this world, even your own people fucking hate you.

Now I'm not going to leave it at that. I'll concede mostly to understanding the overall reasons for racism as I've lived long enough with black people to see how full of shit they are. But let that not say that every single black as shit nigger is an asshole. It just doesn't help that goddamn 99% of them are unfortunately...

continued ruminations on time travel

This is where the fun begins, as goddamn han solo would say. NOT Anakin Skywalker. I ain't got nothing against you children for liking the new movies. I really don't. Childhood is a fantastic time really, you don't have the same preconceptions and biases as an adult and so shit like the prequels is just another cool movie. Whatever...

Anyway, ya know what's funny... all this whole thing about marriage and kids and shit. Why do people keep getting married these days? It's all a sham, not like you can't just get divorced. My sister's all like "some people get married just so they can have sex for the first time." WOW REALLY? good golly miss molly, what a reason to make that commitment.

I don't get it. I'm remembering now that day when I was at work and this douche bag who was fucking around with me for fun was saying I was doing the world a favor by deciding to live my life childless. I just kept thinking, first of all YOU are black. No one gives a fuck if you EVER have kids. What is up with black people tearing other black people down as if they're white and the world loves them? There will NEVER be a time to come when these big industries and corporations overwhelmingly hire black people, so what the fuck are you trying to say with you pretentious attitude? Second, I'm not stupid. I've known ever since I was a kid that most of the retards around me would end up juggling kids later in life and have NO TIME to chase their dreams.

You don't get it. We're all going to die. So if you want to make the most out of the time you have, you have to make a choice in life. Either you're going to dedicate a great amount of time to raising children which is probably a life long commitment, or like me say "fuck that shit" and be free to do whatever the hell you want to do with your life. Case in point, creating a time machine.

I just need money and I have to learn everything there is to learn about physics and mechanics and computer coding. I think it'll probably take me 10 full years of hard work and I'll be around 36 by the time I've developed my first prototype.

You'll see.