What's it like to be black

I guess it's prudent to talk about it since it's typically a hot political topic. You see blacks sprinkled around in the world every so often. For me it's not particularly great but also not the end of the known universe. I just accepted being black decades ago. If I had a choice about that shit is be fucking Hispanic or Asian. Being white opens up too much shit IMO. Power over the entire world way too much shit to mess with. That's the good part of being black you have no power no authority. People don't look at you as a serious threat. U just some dumb black dude which cares. And it's been good shit. Nobody tries to pick your brain. Ya don't got one. Mind you your the first to be blamed for the cops are called but not like the world feels threatened by blacks. Sad to say we are too dumb to do most of the shit smarter races are doing. And to some extent you fly under the radar in life... Not that I would trade my life for abwhitebguys any given day but just enlightening anyone who's wondering about there being any kind of upside to blackness. Basically that's the only upside. The world isn't worried about you doing big time shit.

Tired and beaten

Yeah. It's I guess a result of being thrust into this unknown territory. My body aches. Head throbs. Just feel like shit cuz I'm way out of my comfort zone. Forced to figure out how to survive on barely 400 dollars. It sucks but it's the real world.. get rich or die trying. Feel like death would be a fine vacation from all this crap to be honest. Been running around doing work of some sort my whole life. It's those moments when you got nothing but your free time that seem so fucking weird and unreal. Never really had to decide for myself what to do today. It's hard to get used to that since I've never done it. Never done nothing. Shit no one prepares you for the utter mundanity of every day existence do they. I think it'd be helpful to get used to boredom. Probably have less people flipping out if they didn't think the world revolves around their butt. Oh well just trying to find a way to get by which at the moment does seem slim. Ya get older and all you get is more drama more weirdness to life when it honestly should be pretty uneventful. But that's not how we are raised. Every fart yo ass spouts is a hurricane.

Damn

It's gotten so bad these days. I feel bad about it. So far so good. As usual I've come across mister super tso that one guy who wants to be the asshole you meet at work. I ask myself if I should care about his attitude or just not. Ultimately no I don't work at this airport. To waste my time giving a fuck about him makes no sense I'll never see anyone here ever again. The only idiot here is me if I let this boner get me down.... so just survive this and get out... shits hitting the fan out there. Take care of each other.

First day

Busted a nut last night... not gonna lie. I see titties and ass it's on... my goals are as follows... work this shit make money of course but more importantly get wiser get stronger as an individual. Sad world this is we all know that. I'm not any kind of saint either but it depresses me when people demean me for taking this job. What should I do go lift bags at the airlines. The objective in life is to maximize income and minimize work or am I wrong... by all means join the club TSA is in hiring mode right now. The people they hire I can tell you are mostly college graduates looking for quick pocket money. None of them need this job at all. It's something to do more or less. Capitalize. No you won't get shot. Definitely not up here in boring Niagara and buffalo. If you scared of that work at a small slow airport. I plan to transfer to a new airport once a year. Get to broaden my experiences around the country. It's not gonna die either. Hell I damn hate trump but the dude being pres means TSA ain't gonna be removed any time soon. So alright cool no problem. Yeah man I don't think I personally should be doing this gig but I'm not a rich white kid. Im just a poor punk guy from the Bronx. Forgive me for seeing a fat paycheck and jumping on it. It's like a whit girl putting her ass in the air in front of your black ass and you say no... yup it's like that guys... anyway just bored and posting out my ass to whatever fool reads my blog... do yo thang guys...

I'm rich..

Sorta.... got paid... soon enough going to make a lot of money. I hope to get stuff live well. It's all good right now can't complain... just want to get my life on track. There has to be a glimmer of hope here for dunno a decent life. Training even for this short time tho has been a pain to do. I just want it to be over. Such a cock tease TSA is. They hire good looking girls stick you with them in a training place and basically force you to ignore your rock solid dick for weeks. Ggggod ddddammnnit...