Tired and beaten

Yeah. It's I guess a result of being thrust into this unknown territory. My body aches. Head throbs. Just feel like shit cuz I'm way out of my comfort zone. Forced to figure out how to survive on barely 400 dollars. It sucks but it's the real world.. get rich or die trying. Feel like death would be a fine vacation from all this crap to be honest. Been running around doing work of some sort my whole life. It's those moments when you got nothing but your free time that seem so fucking weird and unreal. Never really had to decide for myself what to do today. It's hard to get used to that since I've never done it. Never done nothing. Shit no one prepares you for the utter mundanity of every day existence do they. I think it'd be helpful to get used to boredom. Probably have less people flipping out if they didn't think the world revolves around their butt. Oh well just trying to find a way to get by which at the moment does seem slim. Ya get older and all you get is more drama more weirdness to life when it honestly should be pretty uneventful. But that's not how we are raised. Every fart yo ass spouts is a hurricane.