First apartment

Might have to try getting a room mate and all that shit. One of the guys I work with actually still lives at home. I'll ball park it, see if he wants to do it. We're cool with each other. We'll both be part time at the same spot. Makes sense to combine our pay checks and pay for the apartment together...  save money and shit, we'll see.

Otherwise I'll have to slum it alone 600 bucks a month which will be tough to make and keep and still have money left over to really do anything substantial. If we room mate this bitch, that won't be an issue. I'll pay half, he'll pay half, done.

As for the job. I mean, I know the routine of TSA. It's never a job that you're going to get right. Every day your boss will find something to whine about. I don't like being a wage slave at all. It's true slavery just under a different label. I can't just leave and then what.... no money, no survival. Kinda a dead end street. I just want the money. I'm not concerned with proving shit to anyone there and being a super tso. They put that out there that if you work better you'll get praise or somethng but I know it's bullshit. They'll kick you under the bus the moment you quit and pretend you don't exist. Been down that road before.

It's hard cold business to me... As much as I want to slap some ass and still have that urge to be an immature goofball, I have to just play it straight and pretend I give a fuck about this job.

which I don't. I don't like it... feeling like my whole life revolves around this shit.

I don't know what else to do though. What the fuck am I supposed to do now. I'm not getting a free meal ticket anymore as a high school fucker. I'm just another dude trying to make his rent money.

Stick it out I guess. I never planned at all for this stage in my life, don't have one. The thing I hoped as foolish as it was was that I'd get discovered online or something and they'd fast track me as Lando in the han solo movie and I'd be beyond wealthy and have all the money I ever would need.

Oooooooooooooops fuck. what now. I DON'T KNOW.

I mean. I'm kinda stumped here to be honest... Just try to keep the job. If it doesn't work out, get into some other job, what else can I do?