proud of myself

It's been a long day... essentially the film is still far from complete but I soldiered through a ton of it and pushed it very very close to where I want it to be for it to be done. Just really all that's left is plugging in fx and doing voice over work. Really fun to watch it with the intended fx. I did some good pre-visualization on all that stuff so it has my style to it if that means anything...

the tough questioin, will I make it to my deadline? Craaaaaaaaaaap hard to say. No train is fast enough to get me back here in time to finish it so probably still going to be off but I have to give myself credit, I did what I said I would do and spent all day working away at shots, just pushing myself to do it even when I was tired of it....

So I've made significant progress... I will have merely 2 or so hours to rush together a final cut tomorrow night after the job. Then that's that... it'll be out.

If you've seen it, you get what I'm trying to do... I've watched it with added fx and it's much more fun when its got some life to it and such.... goddamn I wish I had a massive budget and could have made this more than what it is, but yeah quite fun to watch for me. Going to be a bit different from the rough release as it just has to be chopped and changed to fit things..

gotta sleep and shit so I'll be back with whatever it ends up being on the magical day of glasses release which apparently they're releasing in pieces on youtube... ok, thanks for that. good grief wish I could have mo tiiiiiiiime

Jumping into the fire

Bout to just do it.. just get er dun... will I finish today, hell no. But i want today to matter, just make it count and have it bite a big chunk out of the work load as possible...

Most of it will be plug in fx from my downloads I got or green screen stuff. Not gonna go all insane and do it all intricately or whatever....

Wish things were different, if the damn job didn't eat away at my time so severely would be looking backwards and saying oh it's all done, ha ha ha, now I can be free....

uuuuuuuuuuugh....

Alright, time to suffer.

progress report

ugh, that's it that's all I have to report...

I can't believe it but right before getting into the long battle of finishing my project, I get into it with the coppers. I'm sick of their nonsense. I do indeed realize it's a black thing. They love picking on black people more than anyone else on this planet.

I think about it. Yeah I'd like to be something the hell else so they'd leave me the hell alone and I can feel free to live my damn life, but I've never been anything else. I'm kinda used to being a black guy. It's what it is, I don't feel like I should hate myself for being me... it's what I am...

I don't need their nonsense disrupting my mojo, ya dig. I hope to resolve their quota meeting ticket fest they love to go on by email or something and not have to think about it...

As for my project, yeah, tougher than I thought but I knew it'd be damn near impossible to meet the glass deadline with all the job taking up all my time... I simply will not have sufficient time.

I will try my best to get it all done but be warned if I get lazy and just toss pre-rendered crap in there and it looks crappy, it's because there's no choice.

Back to it...

working on the final polish

Not easy that's for sure... had to tug at my self to get motivated to do it... I don't want to sit here looking at my very awkward attempt at a static movie all day... It's practically done, I'm getting around to organizing each and every scene that needs some kind of after fx work applied to it...

bought a laptop on ebay. My intention kinda is to use it to do some fx work and editing as well as the billions of things you can do with a computer... It's one of those convertable laptops... I'm so out of the loop on new tech that I had no idea those existed at all and became fascinated by the potential of the technology... indeed as much as people are kinda looking at it as overkill, it's something I always wanted myself, the ability to not mess around with a touch pad if I just want to click a darn icon.... plus as a craptastic artist that I am, yeah I'd love to do a few pieces on there see if creating art on a tablet actually is easier than doing it for real with all the costs involved.... plus I've got tons of comics saved to my computer that I can't hope to read on this thing, but that, built for it...

limitless potential with this thing, yes it is a good idea to marry tablets and laptops...

Gonna find out what the whoo haaawww is about this new fangled usb-c and lighted keyboards and all the crazy stuff they're doing with tech now. I mean I just bought the thing kinda blindly without trying to figure out what the hell everything does because I don't know... don't know if I need the fancier stuff.... simple truth... I know it's like a year old or something and of course all it takes is a year for tech to suddenly become ancient these days, which is awful, but what ya gonna doooooo....

back to this hellish thing and then I don't know, be back to kinda give some kinda update on where it's at once I begin the fx stuff.... It's fun, it'll be worth it. Watch it after ya go see Glass....

It's time to finish this

I don't know why I'm blogging honestly. I feel so far away from and divorced from this project or even my online dealings. I've been doing big money things with my life and I'm more content to be playing with money than sitting at a computer doing stupid nonsense, that's damn straight.... get out the house, make money, be around young gorgeous black girls for a change, kinda changes your mind about what to prioritize, indeed....

Can't get some the girls at work out of my head, got like model level bodies, some of these chicks. But that's a fact of life, you get a job that pays some decent bucks and you'll see kinda damn fine looking girls doing it since they're in need of that check as well....

I don't know what to do about it. I just stay to myself but the thought always occurs, what if I could hit that... what the hell if... probably make me into a person of actual maturity or some crap..

But on to the real reason I'm blogging... got my phone unlocked and wanted to brag about it like a asshole, but that's kinda what I like to do...

Yeah the LG G5... got it from a police auction, was google locked, and I struggled for hours today like a nerd bastard using tutorial after tutorial and finally found a way into the back door of the phone despite its security... definitely going to be picking a few of these up, unlocking them and selling them on ebay for extra money... I'm kinda an expert in unlocking these things after all the coding and adb command prompt crap and fastboot nonsense I've studied to do some stuff with them....

well to end this, it's going through, I'm going to start listing out all the scenes that need to be polished and given some fx, audio, all that, and I'm going to be vigorously working on the static project and hopefully have it out by the damn release of Glass... Watched some of it just a while ago, actually f'n quality editing and filmmaking, got me to actually be invested and want to see what was going on. Of course it's still very rough and I'm going to be polishing it and fixing what I can before it's all fully completed, but it's functional and fun to watch which is my style... I like when a movie doesn't take itself too seriously... levity is always good in films. Nothing wrong with it...

Certainly something I can potentially see myself doing, either serious film making or just like porno directing, either one is fine.

It has begun

Gotten the balls together enough to start gathering back up the footage for static...

It's gonna be a rough ride, boys and girls...

I still enjoy watching it and think others will too. So yeah, gonna finish the fx and release the more or less theatrical cut before diving in and hacking together the extended cut.

What's going on in my amazing life. Got things moving forward for me to some degree though I'm not gonna hope for much... just maybe scrap together some funds for a little bucket car or something.... like, it's all dreams and hopes and shit right now. I'm not gonna count on me in my ife time getting anywhere substantial in the job world. Frankly if the job world doesn't want me, f off I don't give a toss...

Sadly though, this worlds got males by the balls. Work or go die in the street. So I constantly struggle to go find a job every chance it comes about.

Urban action showcase happening again this year... Went to it 2 years in a row, and wouldn't mind going again, it's actually like going back to my old schools as a kid, does that make sense?? Just feels like it. It's hard to find a positive atmosphere full of black people, that's more or less why I like going but I have business to take care of so I can't this time.

Yeah, having issues with the damn keto diet. Lots of research on it... it does have a tendency to lead to insomnia... which is why I'm kinda going nuts and posting anything right now. I don't want to be f'n using the net a lot anymore. I've been using it heavily like a crack addict since 14. It's just something I think isn't worth it after all these years. It's like going around in a loop of stupid... same old crap every day though my binge watching tons of nasa related youtube stuff has been good to do....

Gonna be a long 2 months then I guess I'll put up a trailer for the full finished product and then boom release this upon the release of Glass... which is fitting really.... I lived and breathed unbreakable for so long... gave up on the sequel. To get it, it's gonna be something else...

Back in the Saddle

Extreme Ghostbusters Reference for ya....

Yes today's the day of days, I finally have my new 3tb hdd and have decided to migrate files off my ssd to be able to install battlefront and get back into the game.

Is it full of hackers? Is it kinda a shitty star wars battlefront? Absolutely, don't know why I'm so eager to get back into playing it... honestly gonna be a time waister huh... but that's who I am in my soul a star wars nut and I've been battlefronting from the first one waaaaay back so I'm not stopping.

I only want goddamn someone else to make the next one, Dice has failed twice, and that's sad to have happen especially with something that didn't need an overhaul. It just kinda needed better graphics, a few fixes to the game system and just do what the other battlefronts did but with newer game types etc... but no, dice had to try to be fancy and just screwed it up... Their battlefront is a polished turd, I mean graphically amazing, game play not so much.... awful halo-lite at best.

Been thinking about stuff lately that has been troubling and depressing... I wonder what to think to brighten things up, well it's tough... I mean typically I have a bad spell, then just wack off to porn and forget what I was mad about, but I can't really do that anymore. Not that I don't want to... but the body does lower the libido when it's going into survival mode....

I'm frankly on the Ketogenic diet and one of its benefits that I really like is that since it puts your body in survival mode, your libido drops heavily and you don't fixate on sex constantly...

It's tough to make the adjustment to not constantly concentrating on tits and ass. And Believe me I still do, it's just yeah I can indeed ignore it and not make it dominate my mind like it would all the time.

I've lost almost 10 pounds.. Gone just flushed it all out, see ya...

F'd up isn't it, Society doesn't teach people about ketosis because the food industry would see massive drops in purchases.... It's the dirty little diet secret they don't want getting out.

Simply put, you don't have to eat every day.

You need water, sure, get some pure clean water in your day, but you can skip breakfast and lunch if you so desire, or not eat at all for the day either...

I have not eaten breakfast and I still woke up walked around got things I needed done, feel alert, feel alive, ready and energized.

Why? Like I told myself, it's not about eating that plate of bacon and eggs. It's about eating the fat on my ass, or the fat around my stomach.

Ketogenics basically makes it so your body is your meal. Indeed. I don't feel an ounce hungry because I'm full. My body has consumed my own fat for its fuel...

So if I can blog post about this new discovery and get others to realize that it's possible to lose weight, it's not a lost cause, and there's a reason some people look so thin and healthy, I hope it helps someone.

This would have saved my life as a kid if I only knew about it. But I was born into an ignorant fat, lazy, typically black family.... which is what it is... I do indeed believe there might be wheels turning out there to keep black people in a shroud of ignorance about proper health and nutrition so they're the first to go down in life.... all kinds of crap out there keeping blacks down, not just that, but yeah... there it is. It's no secret, all over youtube, guides to keto..

It's something that's just a naturally occuring thing when you go in survival mode. If you were not able to get that burger and fries, and just had to go days without a meal, your body will eventually turn to your fat for fuel until you can get something to eat... it's that simlple... but yeah, it's like quitting drugs, you have to go through a massive carbohydrate withdrawl period... Once past that shit, you are gonna be fine and not even need to eat all day or and you'll be shedding weight without doing much...

It's been probably the best thing ever....

So yeah, gonna get back to work on the static project....  lot of bullshit to finish there, get back to playing battlefront, still want to finish bits of gta, but it's a mess to play gta online, lots of griefers and hackers with no lives making it dangerous to do.... what else?

Dunno really... struggling black guy as usual so how yall white people doing things? Got a new car or something? Yeah probably...