It really does. Here I stand, I have a job that's easy and I'm chilling and not worried about having income at this point.
Now comes the complicated stuff. Gotta get educated.
I mean practical education. I know the purpose of college. It's to teach you about verbal manipulation and politics. These things are what very smart people use to manipulate and control major industries around the world. That's great and all, but what's that got to do with me I'll never know. They're trying to get more blacks to graduate college and stuff, but I don't care about that. I want to slide my dick in some ass honestly.
It would be nice to have a cushy corporate job and walk around all uppity and have my polo shirt on as I look down on the little people beneath me, sure, but I'm black. That stuff doesn't apply to me. It's white people culture.
What I have to worry about is boning up on language and computer skills at this point...
I mean sure, I hang out on the train and generally in life and there's very sexy girls all over the place. I'm muscular and handsome so I walk by and they look at me with their mouth's agape salivating, thinking about sucking my dick.
I of course am thinking about grabbing their ass and generally feeling up all over their body...
Isn't that funny. You go along as a kid and you HATE having to deal with the fucking IDIOTS in class all day.
Then you end up a man, all you want to do is fuck every girl who's still got a nice pair of tits and juicy ass.
I think to myself GOOD. I don't want to think about the past anymore. Just get some titties, put my face in them and not give a damn about the shitty schools I've been to.
And I think I'm right about that.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
still in the past
kinda relevant isn't it that they're making this xmen movie about time travel when it itself gives me personally a great sense of nostalgia for the old days.
It's really deeply imbedded in my core the day I went to see the live action x-men at 14. That was a awesome day. I'm all for them continuing to make more x-movies, but goddamn is my life a mess now vs what it was back in 2000.
I mean, that's just life. It doesn't change that much when you get older. You think it does because oh, you're not in high school dealing with the hustle and bustle of that shit, but once you finally see how the world works, it's very different. Nothing changes. Everything is routine and circular schedules and people doing the same thing every single day. That's all life really is. All that school stuff was a lie. The world is like this big industrial machine that's building cars, it's just the same shit different day and on and on...
It's really deeply imbedded in my core the day I went to see the live action x-men at 14. That was a awesome day. I'm all for them continuing to make more x-movies, but goddamn is my life a mess now vs what it was back in 2000.
I mean, that's just life. It doesn't change that much when you get older. You think it does because oh, you're not in high school dealing with the hustle and bustle of that shit, but once you finally see how the world works, it's very different. Nothing changes. Everything is routine and circular schedules and people doing the same thing every single day. That's all life really is. All that school stuff was a lie. The world is like this big industrial machine that's building cars, it's just the same shit different day and on and on...
Inevitablity of sex
I watch porn every moment of the day. That's basically what I do. It's a hobby.
Little did I know at the time, but ultimately life is about porn. It's not about going to school and going through all that bullshit. It's about FUCKING SOME BITCH. Getting that O.
Which is why you see all porn all the time.
That's truly dissappointing. Even as a black kid, I visualized and thought that intelligence would mean something in the end.
It doesn't. I don't even think it matters WHAT EVER happens to people as kids. If indeed we're all just here to fuck and that's it.
Why do we pursue all these intellectual feats if all we're here to do is fuck.
But it's kinda sad really. To see xvideos and see people just completely demoralizing themselves in front of the world at large. Not that I personally give a shit and neither do they. Porn is a funhouse. It's not about having a serious supreme court case on anything. It's fun, it's a theme park....
Makes me wonder why the hell we're all taught to go crazy in school and get great grades. Some kid with an eidetic memory and super high level iq will go and become a rocket scientist and You with your average level of intelligence will go nowhere and do nothing.
Which is what you see typically all day on the internet. These are not people who went to MIT or Harvard. They are fucking normal regular people.
One funny thing that I like about being an adult now is that, there is a laid back sense to life now vs as a kid where life was gotta accomplish shit all day. All those horror stories about how life as an adult would be hell. No it's not. I'm not having much problems at all. I'm just getting little jobs here and there, doing my job well, and no one bothers me. Vs as a kid going to high school. You have to be dealing with morons starting shit with you left and right. If they DARE start shit with you at work, you can file a complaint and get them fired. It's fucking awesome the work world vs high school...
It's fucking awesome the fact that I can see a girl take dick in her ass any time I want nowadays. Gotta give it up to all the women from my generation. They're fucking awesome these days. Thank you GOD that girls are feeling no shame in eating ten dicks with their ass. That is the most beautiful thing I've ever witnessed in my little insignificant life. If that was my girlfriend, she'd be given the world, I swear to GOD...
Little did I know at the time, but ultimately life is about porn. It's not about going to school and going through all that bullshit. It's about FUCKING SOME BITCH. Getting that O.
Which is why you see all porn all the time.
That's truly dissappointing. Even as a black kid, I visualized and thought that intelligence would mean something in the end.
It doesn't. I don't even think it matters WHAT EVER happens to people as kids. If indeed we're all just here to fuck and that's it.
Why do we pursue all these intellectual feats if all we're here to do is fuck.
But it's kinda sad really. To see xvideos and see people just completely demoralizing themselves in front of the world at large. Not that I personally give a shit and neither do they. Porn is a funhouse. It's not about having a serious supreme court case on anything. It's fun, it's a theme park....
Makes me wonder why the hell we're all taught to go crazy in school and get great grades. Some kid with an eidetic memory and super high level iq will go and become a rocket scientist and You with your average level of intelligence will go nowhere and do nothing.
Which is what you see typically all day on the internet. These are not people who went to MIT or Harvard. They are fucking normal regular people.
One funny thing that I like about being an adult now is that, there is a laid back sense to life now vs as a kid where life was gotta accomplish shit all day. All those horror stories about how life as an adult would be hell. No it's not. I'm not having much problems at all. I'm just getting little jobs here and there, doing my job well, and no one bothers me. Vs as a kid going to high school. You have to be dealing with morons starting shit with you left and right. If they DARE start shit with you at work, you can file a complaint and get them fired. It's fucking awesome the work world vs high school...
It's fucking awesome the fact that I can see a girl take dick in her ass any time I want nowadays. Gotta give it up to all the women from my generation. They're fucking awesome these days. Thank you GOD that girls are feeling no shame in eating ten dicks with their ass. That is the most beautiful thing I've ever witnessed in my little insignificant life. If that was my girlfriend, she'd be given the world, I swear to GOD...
first day of work
I think I hit the jackpot. I go to work and sit and monitor security cameras and sign people in and out. Easy...
Every hour I log in the book what's going on, and that's it. 8 hours of that. And I go home.
Good. That's what I wanted. I thought, ok, low pay, but ultimately I'll be doing very little work. And then still make a somewhat decent amount of money.
Soon as I get my bike fixed I'll have much better way to get to work. Then other than that, we'll uh... see about getting this money saved up as much as possible and potentially start playing the stock market.
If THAT shit works out, having this shitty job won't be such a bad idea. We'll see. I know that if you buy the right stocks, you can benefit tremendously from it. Such is the system and hopefully I can get into that shit because it's probably going to be the only method I have left to earn a substantial amount of money in the end.
Every hour I log in the book what's going on, and that's it. 8 hours of that. And I go home.
Good. That's what I wanted. I thought, ok, low pay, but ultimately I'll be doing very little work. And then still make a somewhat decent amount of money.
Soon as I get my bike fixed I'll have much better way to get to work. Then other than that, we'll uh... see about getting this money saved up as much as possible and potentially start playing the stock market.
If THAT shit works out, having this shitty job won't be such a bad idea. We'll see. I know that if you buy the right stocks, you can benefit tremendously from it. Such is the system and hopefully I can get into that shit because it's probably going to be the only method I have left to earn a substantial amount of money in the end.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
so I got a job now
Shitty shit job, but whatever, man... I just am glad to be back in the work world again. Here we go... I'm going to start training tomorrow.
One good aspect of getting a job is feeling like you belong to society vs the shitty feeling of just being a parasite living off other people. Now I'm making some kind of bread. Not no fucking real money, but I tell myself, YEAH dumbass thing to abandon a 15.75 hour job like TSA when people would give their left arm to get that kind of job, yeah I'm an idiot, but at the same time, I'm not looking to be a dude earning shit tons of money. I just want to get a job that allows me to have security and moderate living. That's all...
Got my uniform and everything. Gonna look sharp at work. I mean fuck, I don't care. I just want to get some fucking pocket change at this point.
I am OVERQUALIFIED beyond measure for these kinds of jobs. I should be doing a fucking some kind of office job running paper work and answering phones. GOddamn, but apparently something as simplistic as that requires you to get your fucking bachelors. What can I say. My intentions at this point are rather limited in scope. I've been told that even IF I get some ass some day, my kids will fucking hate my guts or something.
So that whole thing that we're here to do that whole sex thing has been quite well enough ruined for me personally although I'm black and having black kids is always going to be a fucking can of worms no matter how you slice it. I've come to a shocking realization that there's a reason I grew up not knowing ANY white kids at all. White people live over THERE. Black people live OVER HERE. And that's the way this country works...
Although we're a really devil may care era right now where people are like, it's all good, fuck whoever you want as long as you're not a fag. That's not going to happen. It's simple math. Blacks fucking any race = black kids.
But whatever. I just want to get a decent little job. No muss no fuss no botha. Goddamn. I hope to get my bike fixed and also to get a new ps3 and then we can get into GTA V and see how good that shit is. Looks like the shit. I hope it is...
One good aspect of getting a job is feeling like you belong to society vs the shitty feeling of just being a parasite living off other people. Now I'm making some kind of bread. Not no fucking real money, but I tell myself, YEAH dumbass thing to abandon a 15.75 hour job like TSA when people would give their left arm to get that kind of job, yeah I'm an idiot, but at the same time, I'm not looking to be a dude earning shit tons of money. I just want to get a job that allows me to have security and moderate living. That's all...
Got my uniform and everything. Gonna look sharp at work. I mean fuck, I don't care. I just want to get some fucking pocket change at this point.
I am OVERQUALIFIED beyond measure for these kinds of jobs. I should be doing a fucking some kind of office job running paper work and answering phones. GOddamn, but apparently something as simplistic as that requires you to get your fucking bachelors. What can I say. My intentions at this point are rather limited in scope. I've been told that even IF I get some ass some day, my kids will fucking hate my guts or something.
So that whole thing that we're here to do that whole sex thing has been quite well enough ruined for me personally although I'm black and having black kids is always going to be a fucking can of worms no matter how you slice it. I've come to a shocking realization that there's a reason I grew up not knowing ANY white kids at all. White people live over THERE. Black people live OVER HERE. And that's the way this country works...
Although we're a really devil may care era right now where people are like, it's all good, fuck whoever you want as long as you're not a fag. That's not going to happen. It's simple math. Blacks fucking any race = black kids.
But whatever. I just want to get a decent little job. No muss no fuss no botha. Goddamn. I hope to get my bike fixed and also to get a new ps3 and then we can get into GTA V and see how good that shit is. Looks like the shit. I hope it is...
Monday, January 27, 2014
The best decisions
I think a lot about ass and titties, I mean who doesn't. Sad thing and tragic thing to discover in life but there's NOTHING else in life at all to do with your time as a human being but FUCK some girl.
Not that I have a problem with that, but I was taught about there being some kind of actual bigger more monumental things to do in this world besides that. How tricky the world is.
Not that I care personally. I always knew I'd live childless. I can't even imagine having a kid, doesn't even register in my mind.
What I'm going to do is live and dream. Dream big. Dream of finishing my art work. And ultimately die off at the end of it I suppose... But hey at least I did something I liked. A lot of people can't say that before the end...
Not that I have a problem with that, but I was taught about there being some kind of actual bigger more monumental things to do in this world besides that. How tricky the world is.
Not that I care personally. I always knew I'd live childless. I can't even imagine having a kid, doesn't even register in my mind.
What I'm going to do is live and dream. Dream big. Dream of finishing my art work. And ultimately die off at the end of it I suppose... But hey at least I did something I liked. A lot of people can't say that before the end...
David Yost and his Gayness
I mean what does it matter to me personally that he's gay? Nothing. Only thing about it that means a damn is that I grew up loving the power rangers and he was my favorite. So yeah it's kinda a blow to me personally to have grown up with him and now he's not who I thought he was.
Goddamn is the future a shitty place. If I had it my way, I'd go right the fuck back to the 90s, being a kid. I don't care how fucking much I get shitted on by other kids, you could NOT BEAT my childhood. It was fucking AWESOME with sauce on top and candy. OMG the shit I had back then, the life I had back then. It pains me to no end to wake up every day in this body and know that my childhood is GONE forever!!!
Oh fuck!
It just sucks. It's like sure I'm still young but I'm never going to get that sense of childlike glee from watching movies and cartoons that I had before. And in fact I've pissed off so many powerful white people that now they're fiddling around with me as if I'm some sort of osama bin laden.
No, I'm a dorky fucking virgin always wanting to fuck a girl and shit, that's prettymuch it. I don't understand why that means I have to be targeted by big time people. Yunno. I would think people who went and got a big big education and have huge monumental job wouldn't be concerned with what the fuck I'm doing all day.... but they're dumb enough to be I guess...I wouldn't be surprised if the guy up in the space shuttle was reading my blog or some bullshit. You tell me you went to MIT you got the job flying the space shuttle and then decided I'm going to care about what some virgin black guy is doing all day...
That truly is fucked up.
But goddamn so David Yost has come out of the closet to all his fans. It's kinda strange to feel any kind of way or even feel sympathy for him. There's people who are far worse off than him, yet he's acting like his issues are so monumental. I honestly don't understand anything about sexuality. I know you're supposed to enjoy sex SO MUCH that it makes you feel like your on a cloud and all that shit. It's not a bad thing. The only catch is if you end up a fag. Meaning that you can't enjoy sex unless it's with someone of the same sex.
But he doesn't get it. You as a white blue eyed blond male coming out of the closet in front of a bunch of black people just looks STUPID.
I'm black, I have VERY FEW options avialable to me sexually. You are WHITE you have ALL the options available to you yet you've decided to throw it away and announce to the world you're gay. You know how many girls of all races DREAM of getting with a blond blue eyed white male? And now you've RUINED it for yourself if indeed you wanted to have the opportunity to bone a girl any time you so desired.
If a black guy comes out of the closet, the world SHRUGS. Nobody cares who black people are fucking. NOBODY.
It's a joke being black. You are born into this world in a tragic situation that you have no control over in the end. Sure we have tons and tons of interracial porn night and day, but when that girl decides to get pregnant, she will NOT go after black dicks.
That's what is the biggest problem with being black. And ultimately why black people are like not giving a damn about gays or especially a white guy being gay. It's like, you can't even imagine having problems getting laid.
Goddamn is the future a shitty place. If I had it my way, I'd go right the fuck back to the 90s, being a kid. I don't care how fucking much I get shitted on by other kids, you could NOT BEAT my childhood. It was fucking AWESOME with sauce on top and candy. OMG the shit I had back then, the life I had back then. It pains me to no end to wake up every day in this body and know that my childhood is GONE forever!!!
Oh fuck!
It just sucks. It's like sure I'm still young but I'm never going to get that sense of childlike glee from watching movies and cartoons that I had before. And in fact I've pissed off so many powerful white people that now they're fiddling around with me as if I'm some sort of osama bin laden.
No, I'm a dorky fucking virgin always wanting to fuck a girl and shit, that's prettymuch it. I don't understand why that means I have to be targeted by big time people. Yunno. I would think people who went and got a big big education and have huge monumental job wouldn't be concerned with what the fuck I'm doing all day.... but they're dumb enough to be I guess...I wouldn't be surprised if the guy up in the space shuttle was reading my blog or some bullshit. You tell me you went to MIT you got the job flying the space shuttle and then decided I'm going to care about what some virgin black guy is doing all day...
That truly is fucked up.
But goddamn so David Yost has come out of the closet to all his fans. It's kinda strange to feel any kind of way or even feel sympathy for him. There's people who are far worse off than him, yet he's acting like his issues are so monumental. I honestly don't understand anything about sexuality. I know you're supposed to enjoy sex SO MUCH that it makes you feel like your on a cloud and all that shit. It's not a bad thing. The only catch is if you end up a fag. Meaning that you can't enjoy sex unless it's with someone of the same sex.
But he doesn't get it. You as a white blue eyed blond male coming out of the closet in front of a bunch of black people just looks STUPID.
I'm black, I have VERY FEW options avialable to me sexually. You are WHITE you have ALL the options available to you yet you've decided to throw it away and announce to the world you're gay. You know how many girls of all races DREAM of getting with a blond blue eyed white male? And now you've RUINED it for yourself if indeed you wanted to have the opportunity to bone a girl any time you so desired.
If a black guy comes out of the closet, the world SHRUGS. Nobody cares who black people are fucking. NOBODY.
It's a joke being black. You are born into this world in a tragic situation that you have no control over in the end. Sure we have tons and tons of interracial porn night and day, but when that girl decides to get pregnant, she will NOT go after black dicks.
That's what is the biggest problem with being black. And ultimately why black people are like not giving a damn about gays or especially a white guy being gay. It's like, you can't even imagine having problems getting laid.
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