Summer season

I'm tired from work. what a day... cardona's new to the ala position and as such doesn't know what teh hell she's doing. ala's don't have to whip anybody, they just watch and make sure stuff is getting done correctly, which is necessary because mistakes happen. so they put me in charge of the gate... sigh... first of all, I don't know jack about half the stuff the other guys do... of course they don't know that, so they put me on the spot there. I mean, jean's always aic because he knows how to run the gates... I'm getting there, but not to the point where I feel confident doing shit. Like I've only marshaled an aircraft twice and that wasn't even to the gate, just the outside. I want to jump in and do it, it's not tough obstacle and I know if a bunch of other guys can do it, I certainly can... It's just I lack experience. Same with fmc, which I know how to use, but haven't done it because I'm too good in the belly of the plane. It's a sad strange irony that I can't be instructed on the easier stuff because I'm better suited for the hard crap.

I don't mind it except for the fact that summer is upon us. we typically get like 2 or 3 flights back to back on our gates. If indeed they end up being full for the summer season, I'm fucked. It's going to get so bad soon, maybe even by tomorrow. It's the damn kids, now that these planes will be full of them it's going to get crazy...

what do I do... hit the gym. I'm trying to get bigger but it's just not happening, and I can't figure out wny... maybe I need to jerk off a little and that'll help... I'll think about that sexy bitch from work...