Who to fuck

Thinking about it today... shit. It's crazy being black. I don't recommend it. People don't let it be known, but deep down they think you're crap. Like that old test they did in some psychology thing to see whether people are going to react a certain way to people of a certain race. And although they claim to be free of prejudices, they of course were racist anyway.

Which is why as a black person you're automatically guilty before being proven more guilty in any situation, walking on eggshells... I hate having to think about how I'm coming off to some sexy ass white girl, whether she thinks I'm going to taint her sweet vanilla ass with my chocolate bar.

It just is what it is. Not many people look at a black male and give a shit about him, whereas they see a young white guy or even asian and think he's a hotshot superstar.

It comes down to genes mostly, I'm well aware of how shitty most black males are... but who do you want to become in the next generation? Bottom of the barrel black or sleak handsome white or asian etc.  And what goes through a white girl's head when she chooses to get with a black dude? I see it pretty often these days. It's weird. I don't understand these chicks. Must have daddy issues, typically a lot of white girls get back at their parents by having black babies.

They're doing themselves no favors since this world's from my perspective no where near as awesome as the white one. I mean, look at fucking TSA, do you see the racial slant there up in that shit. And the saddest part is how the military tried to make me out to be some representative to the blacks as if to say my shortcomings represents the whole black race if I don't measure up to their white recruits or some shit. Utterly absurd, I'm not even fully black. But more than proving their attitudes towards blacks as being poor.... ya know...

well anyway there's this girl who's hot at work, name's Ashley. She got some big titties and nice plump ass. She's a goddamn beautiful black girl. I get all aroused around her and shit and she seems stupid enough to actually give a guy like me a chance. She's a little like me, sorta crazy. But I'm having trouble making sense of what it would be like to actually have a life with this kind of girl. Me if I had it my way, I'd hit up a white girl, not to piss off the KKK, but to actually try something new. My god, it'd be fascinating.

Hell though, way things are these days even black girls think they're the best catch. It's awful how there's so many fat chicks out there, ANY girl with a decent body gets held up as this unattainable greek goddess... used to not be that way. Fucking women used to think they were lucky to land a decent man, now it's all crazy...

Oh well. I ain't going to make any fuss. Just going to watch this whole world collapse in on itself.