Don't know man... the drive to procreate is probably impossible to overcome when you really think about it. Can you stop from ejaculating? No... it's just something that's gotta be done....
It's just so crazy to think about it to me, what'd it be like to be a father... not something I ever thought about. I figured I'd just go to my cubicle job and shit like everybody else. Now I meet little kids at work and I make them laugh and it's not a bad feeling being a parental figure to them.. but shit if I have any idea how to take on that role.
I did help raise my niece and truthfully I still am her crazy uncle and stuff so I guess I've been there done that. She was an extremely cute baby.... I remember we cleaned her ass and all that, fed her. That was a good experience for me, more valuable than going to shitty school. I'm not scared of taking care of a baby because I've already done it, ya dig...
It's just that I myself am still so clueless about life, I don't feel confident passing on knowledge to any kids or strong enough mentally to handle their incessant bullshit. but as I said, it's almost prophetic how my blog is named the same as I intend to name my daughter. Bishop, being the name of a super hero I created, but wouldn't be a bad name for a boy when you get down to it...
Just blowing smoke though. I ain't never going to have kids. EVER.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Upgrade time
Exciting times, internet buddies. I just bought a new CPU for my computer. First of all I KNOW I'm a neophite when it comes to computers so don't get all anal about some layman acting like he knows anything. I recall when I was at an old forum, I said how much I liked fireworks as a graphic design program, then some jackass came out of no where and blasted me for thinking that was the best. Hate internet nazis...
It's an AMD FX 4100 with 3.6ghz of power. I think that'll be enough to play my games I bought on steam when they had that summer sale. I got gta 4 and need for speed so we'll see... gonna install it and overclock it and hopefully it'll solve the freezing problem I've been having every time I play one of these graphically intense games. I got the money now, so why not finally build a good computer and shit like I want... problem is the goddamn technical details of computers blows my head off. And I was planning to major in it in college. Good ass money in becoming a computer nerd though. Yo ass gonna be RICH BITCH. If you know how to fucking run these shits...
just sayin.... hmm, not that I'd want to, but it does interest me to get into programming etc possible in a school program as learning it on your own is fucking hard.
And thats also why I kinda laugh at the douche bag I used to work with in delta who was gleefully trying his darndest to patronize me from his lofty perch as a baggage chucker, ya seriously think any of the guys who have the knowledge about how to pull a plane apart and put it back together envy YOU in the least? HA HA HAHA... I can't believe people like him exist. But they do... they do...
Monday, August 6, 2012
Friendly security
Alot to say as I relax from work. My job at tsa is now in jeopardy because of my failing of the PSE test they give even though I've been working there under a year. Some new rules and shit have put me in a position to take the test. I did very well to my surprise on the last stuff that included a complicated process to pat down a person with disabilities, then I supposedly missed a spot on the much easier bag check shit. So now a bunch of shit is going on and I have to wait from word from the FSD to see if I get to keep my job. Most likely I'll keep it because I passed the portion of the test that deals with my actual position there as a CTX baggage scanner. So I may lose my checkpoint certification only and it'll be like losing a chance to get raped in the ass... so whatever...
I hate to wait, but it's the government so it'll probably take a goddamn month to get any word back. They fired 2 people recently though so I'm hoping they're not looking to so quickly lose people so soon... I don't know... to my surprise lga's been pretty low on personnel and shit, so they've been hiring out the ass and I know many who are working in shitty little airport jobs who want in on tsa's hiring spree. Jump on that shit, it's so easy, this job, and the pay's good and the benefits are good, lotta niggas licking up that big gov money, so jump on it I say. If you see a big bucket of money out in the middle of the street, what are ya gonna do, not snag it just cuz people will look down on you for not working hard for it? No, fuck them. they don't care about you. Take that shit.
That's why I'm not totally disappointed by losing all that money I spent on my bike. There'll be more to come especially once I finish building this new one. Gonna have to call those guys on maybe wednesday to see if I can get that shit, or just ya know whatever... I think I can afford the parts right now but I'll see if I can get the price reduced first. Does it hurt to lose 2000 dollars? yes, Have I spent that and then some in owning and maintaing a car for years? Yes. I've lost more than that by paying car expenses anyway, so why the fuck am I completely crushed by this one problem. Stupid...
Anyway, I hope they don't fire me. I'm damn good at my job, because of my personality. I'm a friendly person to everyone and I'm not that kind of tso you've probably come across who acts like they're a cop and bossses you around, no... I only do that if I have no choice, otherwise I just talk normally. People get tiresome sometimes though. It's funny how similar people are, saying the same exact words every day, I never knew how limited our collective vocabularies were until now. I've seen thousands of people come and go through the ctx doorway and yet every single one of them, of all races and ages, uses the same words. Only a select few obviously more intelligent people try to say it differently, but most people speak rather ordinarily. I like to liven things up with a clever quip and shit, and that's how I like it, and that's also how tsa operates. They're like the airforce in a lot of ways, funny, friendly, but serious nonetheless. I'm perfect for that... as I was for the airforce but let's not go back to that... hell, maybe during basic I wasn't willing to kill people, but I sure am now after coming across so many kinds in lga... ya wonder to yourself sometimes which people are worth keeping around and which are better off dead.
yup
I hate to wait, but it's the government so it'll probably take a goddamn month to get any word back. They fired 2 people recently though so I'm hoping they're not looking to so quickly lose people so soon... I don't know... to my surprise lga's been pretty low on personnel and shit, so they've been hiring out the ass and I know many who are working in shitty little airport jobs who want in on tsa's hiring spree. Jump on that shit, it's so easy, this job, and the pay's good and the benefits are good, lotta niggas licking up that big gov money, so jump on it I say. If you see a big bucket of money out in the middle of the street, what are ya gonna do, not snag it just cuz people will look down on you for not working hard for it? No, fuck them. they don't care about you. Take that shit.
That's why I'm not totally disappointed by losing all that money I spent on my bike. There'll be more to come especially once I finish building this new one. Gonna have to call those guys on maybe wednesday to see if I can get that shit, or just ya know whatever... I think I can afford the parts right now but I'll see if I can get the price reduced first. Does it hurt to lose 2000 dollars? yes, Have I spent that and then some in owning and maintaing a car for years? Yes. I've lost more than that by paying car expenses anyway, so why the fuck am I completely crushed by this one problem. Stupid...
Anyway, I hope they don't fire me. I'm damn good at my job, because of my personality. I'm a friendly person to everyone and I'm not that kind of tso you've probably come across who acts like they're a cop and bossses you around, no... I only do that if I have no choice, otherwise I just talk normally. People get tiresome sometimes though. It's funny how similar people are, saying the same exact words every day, I never knew how limited our collective vocabularies were until now. I've seen thousands of people come and go through the ctx doorway and yet every single one of them, of all races and ages, uses the same words. Only a select few obviously more intelligent people try to say it differently, but most people speak rather ordinarily. I like to liven things up with a clever quip and shit, and that's how I like it, and that's also how tsa operates. They're like the airforce in a lot of ways, funny, friendly, but serious nonetheless. I'm perfect for that... as I was for the airforce but let's not go back to that... hell, maybe during basic I wasn't willing to kill people, but I sure am now after coming across so many kinds in lga... ya wonder to yourself sometimes which people are worth keeping around and which are better off dead.
yup
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Bike stolen
Again.
I'm shocked to my core by the second theft of my electric bike. I'm just enraged, I want to find the shithead who stole it and kill him. No judge, no jury, no mercy. You done, son. I wish I put a tracking device in it so I could find this asshole and I'm contemplating putting one in my regular bike, and using it as bait to see if they'll steal it so I can find them.
I hate black people and this is why. I can't be mad at the KKK when even black people fuck with black people so they deserve to get what they get in the end. Can't be mad... ya gotta be kidding me to steal from other black people and be acting like it's the world that's keeping black people down. Fuck black people... I'm so tired of their bullshit.
So the thief basically watched me riding my bike, saw where I lived, then one day when I went to the store and forgot my lock back home went to take a peak at the combo, then the next day knew exactly what to switch the dial to to unlock it and bounced with my bike.
2000 dollars flushed down the toilet.
I'm in contact now with the company that built it and hopefully they'll send me a kit to build a new bike or something, they seem cool and actually showed sympathy for my problem...
On top of that I don't feel safe living here anymore. I mean I've always had my bike stolen here in this neighborhood, but fuck if it isn't getting retarded to still be having to deal with it in my 20s, I'm closing in on 30 for goodness sakes.
It's a predominantly black neighborhood with a few white people sprinkled here and there and it's just barely above the projects in terms of environment and types of people living around here. This isn't a white neighborhood where if they see black people walking around, they'll follow you and shit. No... You can tell when you're in a white neighborhood around here, like goddamn disney world it's so clean and shiny. You feel safe and happy to be alive.
Enough joking around though. I lost a lot of money and honestly don't know what to make of this. I still have a good job that overpays me and I need to keep it, that's for sure... I hope to get another bike in the future since that's still a great way to travel and not pay for all the expenses of a car... so I don't know... maybe I can live without the money, but I'm still feeling like I've suffered a huge setback in the end...
I'm shocked to my core by the second theft of my electric bike. I'm just enraged, I want to find the shithead who stole it and kill him. No judge, no jury, no mercy. You done, son. I wish I put a tracking device in it so I could find this asshole and I'm contemplating putting one in my regular bike, and using it as bait to see if they'll steal it so I can find them.
I hate black people and this is why. I can't be mad at the KKK when even black people fuck with black people so they deserve to get what they get in the end. Can't be mad... ya gotta be kidding me to steal from other black people and be acting like it's the world that's keeping black people down. Fuck black people... I'm so tired of their bullshit.
So the thief basically watched me riding my bike, saw where I lived, then one day when I went to the store and forgot my lock back home went to take a peak at the combo, then the next day knew exactly what to switch the dial to to unlock it and bounced with my bike.
2000 dollars flushed down the toilet.
I'm in contact now with the company that built it and hopefully they'll send me a kit to build a new bike or something, they seem cool and actually showed sympathy for my problem...
On top of that I don't feel safe living here anymore. I mean I've always had my bike stolen here in this neighborhood, but fuck if it isn't getting retarded to still be having to deal with it in my 20s, I'm closing in on 30 for goodness sakes.
It's a predominantly black neighborhood with a few white people sprinkled here and there and it's just barely above the projects in terms of environment and types of people living around here. This isn't a white neighborhood where if they see black people walking around, they'll follow you and shit. No... You can tell when you're in a white neighborhood around here, like goddamn disney world it's so clean and shiny. You feel safe and happy to be alive.
Enough joking around though. I lost a lot of money and honestly don't know what to make of this. I still have a good job that overpays me and I need to keep it, that's for sure... I hope to get another bike in the future since that's still a great way to travel and not pay for all the expenses of a car... so I don't know... maybe I can live without the money, but I'm still feeling like I've suffered a huge setback in the end...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
