I'm not a fan of school, I'm a fan of self-learning and improvement from here forward.
I've always taught myself everything since I was a kid. I taught myself how to type. I taught myself how to do math and struggled to learn how to read and write etc. Most everything I know I've had to learn through teaching myself, so I'm not a proponent of the idea of having to go through some big massive school system. I just don't.
The problem with school is that it's a blind massive complex system that doesn't care about the individual. It's militarized to such an extent that it loses the personal touch that actually works far better than the droning mechanical boring course work they dole out like we're all machines.
I curse myself for buying into the bullshit idea that I had to wake up at 5am and run to school and do work, only to end up getting jobs like baggage handler. If I only knew that I was beeing juggled like a ball by white people, I'd have never wasted my time on school, but they got my dumb ass. It's all a game, what can we have the brown people do next?
It's like really the only fucking reason I botherd with high school was because the girls there were flaming hot as shit.
Otherwise, I didn't care a shit about it. And I still don't. I want to learn a language and master an instrument, always have, but I never thought that other people would make it their business to put an obstacle in your path to self improvement. Apparently people think I'm fucking 40 and can't possibly gain any new skills and grow as an individual. That's the attitude I get all the time, it's like, oh you're 28 you're sooo fucking done developing.
Hardly. But I'm no longer thinking grown men and women are mature and all that. Like someone said this world after your childhood is just a much bigger playground than the one you came from.
Wtf, ok, fine. Does the shit that got to do with me? Why I gotta be having a mountain of crap on my plate, who the hell am I?
Yunno the thing about it is that I piss off a lot of people because I'm not straight out of fucking kenya black guy. That's the reason.
I never thought about it, that I'd be persecuted for being part white. I NEVER conceived of that being a possibility. I don't identify with my white genetics at all. I've always felt like a fucking black kid.
I could never hide it. I'd just accept that I was a black kid and a nerdy steve urkel black kid and that was it. I didn't think for a second I'd be given shit for being a mulatto.
Had no clue.
And I am a TRUE nerd. I love comics, movies, art, science, math, philosophy, reading, studying, education, and technology.
I've watched EVERYTHING they put on tech tv because that's who I am at my soul, a tech nut.
Still haven't gotten laid yet. Not a fan of going out into life and having people try to control my dick these days. Saddest thing I've ever seen or experienced but this world is beast mode if you're not a little school kid anymore. Somebody somewhere will attempt to tell you who you can or can't fuck, like that's their goddamn business.
Okay, go fuck yourself guy. I don't give a damn what you think about my potential offspring and shit? I'm just trying to get some ass for the first time in my life. What makes you think I care about pregnancy and all that shit?
You got to be smoking a ton of herbs or some shit. Anyway, back to hunting down pussy.
It's sad as fuck I gotta say. The way this world's just a free for all after your school years. Really sadly there's no concern for each other's welfare out there, just isn't.
Can't develope into a man and get laid and learn about sex? Good, fuck you...
I honestly didn't see that coming, have to say. I did everything this world asked of me, pushed myself to inhuman levels of endurance to get through fucking high school, just to get pissed on after all was said and done.
So, it was all a big "gottya"
Yeah...
Well played...
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