thawtz on the future

I am both happy and scared shitless, like deep long shit kinda shit. But there's a glimmer of hope over the horizon for my ass. I've been a weird artsy dude since I can remember. Fell in love with art, animation, movies, looney tunes, all that stuff. I still marvel at them to this day, the craftmanship of cartoons, good ones.

Such a sad world to get older in. I always feel like there's going to be something bad going to happen to me in the next moment. Especially when you go to work, you got such an endless amount of assholes ready to bring you down for no good honest reason under the blue sky. It's because of what? They want to prove they are that guy at work who's the asshole at work, self fullfilling prophecy? Why be an asshole bully at fucking work? Didn't get enough of that shit in high school and school in general? Gotta bring all that back at work the place where you're supposed to have escaped the school world for good? Surprise surprise, they're still at it, no matter where the fuck you go....

If I get cast as Lando and NEVER have to work again for the rest of my fucking life, thank GOD.

I don't know. Some actor guy friended me on facebook. Funnily enough he was in spawn, a movie I fell in love with years ago, so we're connected through that.

Why did he friend me? Wants to hint that lucasfilm is eyeing me for the part of Lando and think it's a good bet, get a star wars fanboy to play a star wars character?

You will NOT be let down, if you cast me. I swear beyond GOD beyond HEAVEN, beyond all that is HOLY. I've done nothing but dedicate my self to star wars since I can remember. I'm here for you, I want the movie to be the best shit ever... EVER. Let's do it.

I think about the other side of the hill right now, I tell you. What happens if I get a message from Phil and chris saying, lets' go. What happens after I have a couple thousand dollars in my bank account, and I'm actually a rich dude. What happens after the movie premiers and million s of people see me playing Lando on the big fucking screen next to Alden. What the fuck am I going to be as a person after that shit goes down.

Fuck it...

I don't care. I've walked a couple of fucking miles my friend to deliver stupid ass mail to people. I've stacked HUNDREDS of bags at the airport in all kinds of weather. I'VE PAID THE PRICE. It's time for me to get what I DESERVE and become wealthy, get a hot wife like miley cyrus or somehting, and just live well, have what men dream. I don't feel ashamed about getting paid well for Lando. No, why? Cuz I've busted my ass, hurt, sweated, gone to war, I'm wounded by the jobs I've taken over the years, jobs I'm FAR over qualified for, but they've busted me up and taken their tole both physically and emotionally. I will tell you the shit tears away at your soul bad jobs that just mean nothing in life.

It's time to get paid for having gone through that garbage. I'm the nerdy kid who always looked forward to TGIF every friday back in the day. Why the hell does someone like that end up geting straight shitted on in life after the fact of being one of the nerdy black kids of hte 90s. I gotta say, that's truly sad if for all the nerdy qualities I possess, I can't make a buck after all that shit I've gone through. I watched fucking full house and liked that shit back in the day, that's how much of a dumb geek I was. Full house, yeah I liked it. I liked my olsen girl. I still like them, too bad they're so secretive, I know them. They're not like that. Oh well.

I hate that everything has changed. I can't talk to Raven Symone on facebook. We grew up together, she's like my twin fucking sister, I can't talk to her? You gotta be kidding. I can't get in touch with anyone I used to watch on tv. So sad... we shouldn't be so isolated from each other. Actually give a shit about your fans if you're going to run a facebook page or just piss off I say. I watched you grow up, we're closer than you think, hell, if I had it my way I'd take you out for a date or something, what's wrong with that? But no, despite the fact that we grew up together, we're fucking strangers I guess. Yeah, sure. I mean it's just stupid to me. I'm not an ISIS soldier or some terrorist. I'm Richard Mark Simms, I can gurantee you that. i'm just that kid from the 90s who grew up on power rangers and nickelodeon and just generally anything disney and fun. I'm not much more than that honestly. I still watch all those movies I used to watch right now today cuz I still like them and do want to revisit that childhood feeling.

It's just offputting as fuck I got to say, how damned I have become. Why? Cuz I bailed on the college shit? Forgive me for not knowing about nor caring about how much people worship hogwarts.

It means nothing to me. Yep, gonna be honest. If you want your kids to care about and persue college, give them a fucking real solid reason WHY... Don't just point a gun to their head and say DO IT OR ELSE. Guess what will happen.

Kinda pisses me off how people are trying to kill my good vibes all the time. What's that all about? What the hell is your problem that you want to make someone else feel bitter and depressed? Is it a black thing? Is that just how black people shit on each other every day and I just didn't get the memo?

I can imagine if I was white-er I'd get treated like a king. Nobody would try to bring me down from my high place, cuz they couldn't. You CAN'T make white people feel bad about being white. It's never gonna work.

So dudes target me for harrassment cuz they know I can't just walk away and smile.

I will smile, dammit, if I get damn cast as Lando. I'll finally feel like my life made sense in the end.

Rocketeer 2 happening....

About time!!!!!

I'm excited for that. I love the rocketeer, truly an underrated, classic. Far better than half the shit we get these days. Such a film of its time too. Could NEVER make that movie today. So much shit going on. A movie about america, the america as it's supposed to be. Wow!!! Damn fine film .

Supposedly it's going to feature a different rocketeer and shit. Black woman rocketeer. I don't much care for that. The original cast is still active and working, why not have them make an actual sequel. It's the trend these days to see long overdue sequels, so just do the same thing...

Very nice to hear they're working on a rocketeer anything at this point though. I mean, damn, just straight up gave up on a sequel to be honest...

Oh shit, Han Solo Trilogy?

You serious??? Oh shit... guess I don't got a chance in fuck now. I can take one film no problem. 3, it's gotta be a situation where I'm confident in what I'm doing with the character to stretch his story over 3 movies. I don't know, don't bite off more than you can chew here. Just see if the first movie works before taking sequels into account.

I'm with you guys whatever you want to do, but I'm not an actor. I'm a weird ass son of a bitch, that's what I am. I don't know, if the money's all good, ok whatever. Yeah when you think about it's like gonna rain money, what the hell am I saying. Awesome 3 movies!

thawts on becoming famous

Sort of  a scary thought. I'll have to research the complexities of fame and the whole psychology behind it.

I'm this 30 year old lost guy at home trying to find a job, all I am.

I look EXACTLY like Billy Dee Williams. I love the star wars series of films. I certainly intend to audition for Lando, and hope to get the opportunity to give back to the franchise in some way or form.

If this thing happens and I'm on a plane to hollywood to get started. I'm going to be rich and famous over night.

What do I think about it?

Wouldn't mind it. I don't got no money. To suddenly be swimming in it, NOT A PROBLEM!

It's the fame part that scares me. It's tough to be famous. Lotta actors always seem like they're half asleep during press tours and shit most likely because, every shit they take is being scrutinized. So they don't do anything at all or say anything all that could come back to bite them.

Unless you're will smith. He does whatever the fuck he wants today and nobody will fault him.

I won't be FAMOUS. I'll be that guy they found to play young Lando, and you won't hear much of me afterwards. Not like I"m gonna become an actual actor.

I want to support phil and chris' project. Not use it as a spring board to bigger things and bigger roles. Just be there for them, give them what they want, and go home.

I won't even think about fame at all. I'll just be me, a star wars fan with my goofy ass star wars goofiness that I embody.

I personally want to have fun, that's my mission statement. I love FUN films that really just are all about going wild and having a party on film. If we can accomplish that,, that's all I want to do with it.

Saw ghostbusters

Wow ass the movie indeed. I'm all for fun silly movies. Love them but that was a joke. Like watching a GB fan film. Good fuck. Do not want a sequel.

why is there no casting call for lando anyway?

Probably is one, duh, but I get the sneaking suspicion that we've heard NOTHING about who will play Lando because, I'm sitting here right now.... They know who's going to do it.

I hope so anyway. I got people who are pushing for me to take the part on twitter, actual industry people... Spare no expense, I'll give you whatever you need. Just scratch my back and let me have a slice of the high life, all I'm asking. What do I mean by that? Well, I've tasted desperate, and I don't like it. I've known nothing but school my whole life. Will I do it for free? Absolutely. Would I LIKE to get paid. Damn right.... It's not going to be easy so the money will motivate me. The thing is, that I know how tough it is to put your self out there in the public eye. It's one thing to be me, nobody. It's another to be a movie star getting the attention of millions of people. So, yeah, having a decent pile of bread would help to make that situation not seem too overwhelming for me personally.

Watched the interview with Alden. Seems like a normal freakin person... that's a relief. I'd have a much tougher time working with some kind of hollywood snob.

Thawts on han solo movie

I guess this thing is going to encompass my life for the next year. Nice to have a bit of a break to get in shape. I'm over weight and not knowledgeable about how to get in shape, so I got to figure all that out. Certainly would be nice to get a little clue from Phil and Chris about my involvement so I don't waste my time working out and getting beefed up.

Gonna get ripped to shreds, cuz that's what I think Billy Dee would want himself to look like back then... I've been trying to talk to him, but get nothing from the guy. Shit, wish I could have met him years ago, thankfully the internet has opened the gateway. I'm HIM, would be nice to gain his wisdom. Talking to Mark Hamill a bit, should ask the guy if he can arrange a meeting between me and Billy Dee so we can talk about Lando, get a grasp of the character going forward.

I know what you're thinking, OMG, shut up about this movie, some other guy is going to get cast as lando and you won't go near the thing.

Fuck you.

That's all I have to say about it. I'm going to be playing Lando, end of story. No body going to touch it but me.

It's my destiny and I know that.

What kind of movie is going to be. I'm thinking full on space balls. It'd be interesting to take it in that direction, make this one a real weird trippy chapter in the star wars story moreso than the others.

Comedy, it's got to be a comedy, not a dramatic story. It's got to be about jokes and jokes and jokes and lots of gags. That's what I want out of it. I want to make it like a weird fucking like episode of an old nickelodeon space show. Or that puppet shit I used to watch with the space ship and the puppets.

Like, that's what I was raised on, weird trippy fucked up puppet shows. I'd love for the movie to embrace all that weird puppet shit I used to watch. It'll be star wars, it'll have star wars shit, yeah, but it's got to have that TRIPPY ass weed smoking hokey as hell muppet feel to the whole deal or it won't be as good.

Death star Fighter Squadron should be free

I have to say. Make the Death Star trench run dlc free for everyone. Its only fair. People bought the base game expecting space combat like battlefront 2 and got NONE. Now we finally get space combat and it must be purchased.

Bad form.

People in the youtube comments are saying it's just silly and sad that the one space battle in a "star" wars game is only available to be purchased. It truly makes no sense. We will get gobs of space battles in Battlefront 2 no doubt. So just make this one a freebie since this game should have had space combat since launch, not later.

Will they? Probably not, but it's what I would do.

Plagarized speech, incredible.

No getting around it, there's clearly fraud and dishonesty at work within the trump campaign, DUH, but never thought they'd goof this huge.

Good luck getting votes now. Even the KKK's gonna call this shit foul. But who knows.

Weird to steal from an old speech, why? What the fuck, shit's old, so they thought no one would notice. It's a public speech, whether it's noticed now, or years down the line, somebody will figure it out. Just no, stop and go home trump. I know you want to look badass and shit, but you fucked up and it's not gonna happen. No soup for you.

New star wars stuff

At least I have star wars to look forward to. I'd prefer to have a fucking job so I know I'm going to be ok financially but apparently this society wants to push young black males towards becoming criminals instead of productive citizens. That shit is real. I don't know why, but there's efforts being made to keep black men out of decent well paying jobs out there. That way, you will have no choice but to commit a crime and then go into the prison system and wash rinse repeat. Is that what they want, me to go commit a crime and become a prisoner for food and shelter?


Is that what they want from me?

How pathetic.

You have no idea who you are FUCKING with. I'm ME. the kid who watched his star wars trilogy VHS set so hard core, the shit was on fire afterwards.

I'll get a job, don't know where, but I won't fall into that statistic of another black guy going to jail or joining the military or something like that.

It's going to be tough though. Didn't think there'd be an active effort out in this world to prevent me from keeping a job. Bad job too, not a job anyone wants. But it's going on. I can't just fucking do a bad assfart of a job out there, I have to deal with threats of getting fired left and right every single time.

What a joke. Going to sign up for unemployment and just let the money rain, cuz I'm not going to bother with the drama of finding a job like a desperate little dog, I got some kind of scant bits of dignity.

It's such a shame the way these assholes have set up things. They make you go through a mountain of school work and then surprise surprise, it doesn't fucking matter. You'll be lifting this shit and putting it over there all day for pennies. Oh wow, amazing.

Yep gonna get fired

I'm not even going to fight it. At least I'll have a little pocket change saved up and can pursue a CDL job instead of the post office. Would love to stay, take care of business. People are friendly and it's nice to get out and be sociable, but I keep forget this world is a terrible horrible world, and so I'm dealing with a complete moron of a supervisor who wants to open up a can of worms instead of being civilized.

Of course. I should expect nothing less. Being on the Black side of life is not fun, nobody looks at you as intelligent. Talk to you like you just started goddamn kindergarten. It is aggravating, but I know I have an immense amount of intelligence, so nothing really worries me, never has. It's just so annoying to deal with people who constantly try to insinuate that you're an ignorant little fool who can't put up a fight in any way.

Sad that some dude killed a bunch of innocent people in france. Sucks that after I open my phone during the day and read this news, I get back to the office and have my supervisor moron trying to huff and puff and start shit. I was having none of it and tore his ass apart. On a day where a bunch of innocent people got mowed down, you're going to try to act tough, so I was livid and tore his ass in two best I could when he tried to act like a big shot. I was ready to kill his ass. He should have been the one that got fucked over in france, NOT THEM. The dumbass..

I'm done with this job. They will fire me tomorrow, GOOD RIDDANCE.

Live action pokemon on the horizon

Abou t time. Should have done one years ago. Just to celebrate the phenomenon that it was, not merely to capitalize on the new phone game, which I'm not going to get into... I've done the pokemon thing. Spent how many goddamn hours watching the endless shitty cartoon and playing the game, which is a really good classic fun game. Too bad they didn't know when to quit with either the cartoon or game series. Pokemon is still on the air, still making new episodes. That's just really strange to me. I'm going to be 50, coming down the stairs one day and hearing POKEMON!! Gotta Catch them AAAALLLL, IN THE UNIVERSE!!!

Kill this shit already.

But yeah, so down for a live action movie. Just avoid everything DBE did like the plague please...

I got to say I wish this ghostbusters reboot was a police academy reboot instead.

Just an idea I had. I'd be more for a reboot of police academy than this thing. Ghosbusters can't be remade or even rebooted. It's a lot like trying to remake back to the future or even reboot the franchise and do the same premise but with new actors, and story. It's destined to fail. BTTF is a weird lightning in a bottle film that some how got made, thankfully got made, and really was a masterpiece of film making. To recapture that is damn near impossible.

But you can remake police academy all day and no one will complain or give a damn about it being done wrong... I got this weird vibe watching the clips, like I was just watching something that felt so offfffff as shit. I do indeed feel repelled by watching a bunch of women playing with shit that men have been and will continue to do, be engineers of big massive tech shit. It's just making no sense. 90% of the people who are in charge of massive engineering projects are very extremely smart men. How the hell does it make sense that not one man is doing anything to stop the influx of ghosts. It simply doesn't. You're telling me, very smart men with wives and kids, would NOT step up to bat if there was a threat to their family? Oh you got another thing coming...

The movie looks like it's not going to make a dent at the box office to me, sorry to say.

We're looking at another Planet of the apes, wonka chocolate factory, and robocop on our hands.

I declare today to be saddened by that, that that's how my ghostbusters will return to cinemas, a sad sputter, not a loud, amazing, triumphant return to form.

I mean, f'n independence day resurrgence bombed. Ninja turtles bombed. Movies that you'd think would at least easily get people in the theaters to check them out, how the fuck did they fail.

Now we have fembusters on our hands. Oh good lord, what a tragedy. Yeah, the movie's decent. But it NEEEEEEEDED to be great. To shut us fanboys with no lives up and make us all love ghostbusters again. Decent doesn't CUT IT.

Ghostbusters came out amongst a lot of comedies in its day about weird technology and crazy science. But it stood out primarily because it truly and masterfully created an iconic film franchise from the ground up all on its own and had just brilliant comedy veterans working on it. To just make a durpy limp reboot to capitalize on the original's hard won greatness is awful. Nobody calling these guys out on it, but it's not a good idea.

I feel so sick inside about this. Yeah it's pathetic, but I've been a ghosthead all my life, since the days of RGB. I've never thought I'd NOT want to see ghostbusters. Here I stand, just not interested, ME, not giving a toss about watching ghostbusters. My first movie that I EVER saw as a tiny tot at the movies. YEP. You think you're reading the words of some whiny little spoiled brat, NO. Ghostbusters 2 was my FIRST movie. My father's done a lot of dumb things in my childhood, but I'll always appreciate that day he brought me to see GB2, don't even know why he did it, but it's emblazoned in my skull the exprenice of seeing GB2 in cinemas as a toddler. I was there, I LIVED IT. And I'll never forget it... I of course watched the cartoon religiously. Everything about my personality mannerisms, hell, ME is linked to ghostbusters. I LOVE ghostbusters. So sick inside that they've taken it and twisted it in front of my face at my age now. Yeah, so sick...

Ghostboot, okay but not great...

Home Alone 3 is okay but not great.

So essentially they're giving us home alone 3, the franchise reboot disguised as a sequel.

When you look at its box office, Home Alone 3 did okay but not great.

If we go by this line of logic, the new GB will do okay but not great. Basically make its budget back and not much more....

That's it for ecto cooler I guess. I suggest we all buy and freeze the stuff by the millions, seriously. This movie's either going to tank hard or barely break even. No real reason for Hi-c to keep pumping Ecto Cooler out although just for good will, I'd hope they'd keep producing it for at least the next couple of years to ensure we have time to collect and preserve a lifetime supply.

Gonna have a ghostbusters pawty...

I've decided to do it. Gonna go see the movie all decked out in my ghostbusters crap, bring a big thing of ecto cooler with me to the movie to drink as I watch, and maybe a couple of RGB toys to play with as I watch the movie...

Yeah it's sad, but I'm gonna be seriously honest with you, I'M A TOTAL LOSER DORK GEEK 3000, it's what I do.


We're a goddamn crazy peoples geeks.

I will celebrate this movie despite not caring for it. It's just such a downer of a time right now. I'm gonna watch ghostbusters 1 and 2, then see the new film, and just have a party with it.

Join me, if you wanna get down with it too. Imagine that shit, you go to the ghostbusters movie, ya gotta a girl with you with nice titties too, and you just watch the movie and then motorboat at the same time.... nice.

Damn, not the way to do things...

Just saying.

So now people have killed cops in retaliation for the shootings of blacks. Ya know what that's going to lead to, MORE accidental slips of the trigger fingers from cops on blacks. Good job, gangstas from the hood.

I don't condone that. Nobody should. Those cops have wives, kids, you just stole their kids of a father for what... for what????

Good job. At least, it was a scenario as grim as it was, where blacks could stand together and unite and maybe, JUST for a second make a cop think twice before unloadting his gun. That one little second COULD have made all the difference in the life of just maybe a few innocent blacks at a traffic stop or something.... Just that one second of, maybe I'm dealing with a black guy who's got his degree and a good job, wife and kids.

That's all it would take, that one show of DIGNITY to make a cop think about whether to look beyond the skin...

Fucked it all up....

All that thrown int he trash. It's war now. It's an ugly, dirty war, between cops and the black community.

Kiss any and all hope for civility out the window, it's gone.

speeding up the job

Got thinking today as I walked a goddamn couple of light years to deliver mail. I'm able to handle it and thensome, but it still sucks the life out of you to do it every day. Just need to get in better shape and recover my muscles since honestly working at my previous jobs, I never walked a lot, lifted a lot yes, walked, no, so my leg muscles were never put through much work and didn't build up a resistance to the strain.

I mean, would I prefer working somewhere else, damn straight, but I DO like going at my own fucking pace. The horror stories you hear about CCA being pressured to get the mail delivered by a certain time, not so at this spot. They're just concerned with the shit getting shoveled apparently. That's good. I do my best at it, but if I need to rest, I rest, not going to go insane with this shit.

I'm hoping to improve it over time. Buy an electric moped, jack it up with tons of baskets to hold the mail and packages, then just breeze through the route in no time at all.

YEP.

Ya see, that's what we smart guys do. We take a job like this that's STUPID and we try to make it actually SMART.

If the postal force was intelligent, they'd not hand packages to the foot carrier. We have enough to worry about with the goddamn packs of letters. to struggle to get rid of bags and boxes as well is a pain in the ass and of course. It's fucking impossible to keep track of where the packages are supposed to go because when you put them in the cart, all the addresses are obscured so you have to have xray vision to figure out what goes where. And you can't. So you have to make a choice as you go and decide to take care of the letters first and worry about the packages later. Total time waster.

I'm going to use my hoverboard thing to help me get rid of the packages first since honestly they SHOULD be given off to the truck people unless they're letter sized. I should not have to carry any goddamn boxes with me to deliver them when the truck people can get it done faster than I can any day. But this job is DUMB.

I don't mind it though. I KNOW deep down that I can augment my position there and make the job fast easy cash.

One day I experimented with the idea of using the hoverboard to deliver the packages first. It worked. Once the packages were gone, the rest of the route was cake.

Today I didn't bring the board with me, so of course I had to juggle the packages and the letters at the same time, and it was a nightmare to do.

So yeah, I got to say, despite my life being in the gutter and having to shovel people's shit all day, I can improve this job and make it work out for me. What are my intentions? Don't really have one. Just want money, see how that whole thing works out for once. I've NEVER had money money money. So to finally be in a position to have it, is a welcome one indeed and I look forward to getting nice things with it, that's all really...

What do I think about white cops killing black dudes?

Toldya. It doesn't matter what kind of person you are as a black person, you were born into this world with a target on your forehead. It's a damning situation to end up in.

I don't think anything about it. It's the way it is. Just like all this terrorism will persist, so will this garbage.

I'd personally hope the cops get heavily punished for use of excessive force, but who knows. It's not a situation that will end well or even change anything.

What needs to be done is hire more black fucking cops in my opinion. If you have a black neighborhood, hire black cops in it to do the rounds, to take down thugs, to shaft it up.

Having a white cop tackle a black dude, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN after that? Of course he's going to struggle and try to survive the inevitable shot to the gut.

Just my idea. Put out a big ass call for black police officers. If you can avoid a racial situation, do so. That's all.

cross roads

Well got a decent job at the post office... IF you stick with it and don't mess around it will be a good place to stay and make a chunk of change...

If I get the pitiful little job over at GSI, I'll make less money, be putting my life on the line, and generally have a much tougher time getting to work every day and could end up late. Taking the mass transit system is a gamble. I could easily get to the baychester postal office every day, 10 minute trip. I've never been truly late to work. I'm just not feeling secure.

this is the story. You cannot fire a postal worker. That's why you see them enjoying their job despite it being a lot of rough stuff to do. Their union is solid as a rock. Unless YOU want to get fired, the post masters can't touch the postal force. Their union will fight tooth and nail to keep you in your job secure, safe, unharmed. Unless you do something ludicrous. The union is solid, REAL union.

IF I make regular at the post office, I'll be in a nice tight safe position without potential for firing and never have to worry about it. I can even apply for other positions too, much easier shit like shit where you work indoors. It's truly a secure job like no other job in this world. You can even transfer to other post offices anywhere in the country and live and work at other places if you want to.

Where's the downside to this job besides the work itself which is ass.

I don't intend to leave it. It's a gamble though. They've already made it clear, they can mess me up and fire me if they so choose. That's a bad sign. That's the joke, you get hired, you bust your ass, then they fire you cuz they can. They can't fire the regulars since they'll call the union and the union will put up a fight. There's nothing to save CCA's so we're just lambs to the slaughter is all...

Heh, is there any job out there that I could just do every day and not take shit from anyone. I like the postal shit though. I get the mail I got to deliver and that's it, I'm on my own tossing mail all fucking day. No supervisor harassing you, no one to deal with as a coworker. It's just me and the annoying people I deliver shit to. It's NOT what you think it is. It's a lot of walking walking walking walking up and down stairs, getting fucked with by wasps and bees, dogs, it's not a job you want as a long term career. This is kids work I think. If I was younger and more energetic, this would be nothing. I am 30 now. My body is telling me it wants to shut down and rest a hell of a lot more now than I've ever gotten that feeling before.

We'll see. I don't like jobs, any of them. And it's not going to be any better ta GSI. There will be a dick head supervisor over there too threatening to fire me for not tossing luggage properly or something stuuuuuupid.

thawtz on yesterday

My life today is better than it was back in the good ol days of xplay, and sessler, tech tv, call for help.

Can't help but think about where I was back then. Playing dream cast and playstation 2 any chance I could get. Watching hours of tech tv, and above all else, browsing star wars forums like a madman.

I'm still here, only keeping things simple and posting to this blog instead of being a forum brat.

Not going to even begin to try making sense of online world. It's a bee hive. Don't waste your time.

Hate how pissy and limp dick people are. Acting like, everything has to be over analyzed and quantified or the world is over tomorrow. SHUT THE FUCK UP and tell that shit to someone who cares!!! I do not.

Surprise surprise, I LIKE getting money in my pocket as opposed to going to some school full of retards acting like assholes all day. Shit, job world is awesome, man. Fuck school. This beautiful idea of just doing something that gets you what you want in life, whether it's money for rent, or toys, it's a damn cool thing. Why is anyone bothering with school instead of a job? What the hell?

I'm rich, bitch. Frankly they're over paying my ass. I'm a mountain of muscle. I laugh at the idea that I can't handle this bullshit. It means nothing to me.

I'll eat it up and run away with all the money they throw at me. Fools.

Mind you, I do miss it. I miss that innocent nature of life in the old days. Just of course jacking off to shit, yeah, but it felt more peaceful and normal back in those days. I felt at one with the tech world moreso because it was so new.

All of us together were discovering and in awe of the new frontiers in technology at the time. A new game came out that pushed the boundaries of graphics or something, it was so cool to come together as geeks and be like "damn this is amazing stuff" I miss that innocent childlike enthusiasm that was what we were all feeling back then since everything that was coming along was so damn new and different.

Nowadays... Nothing's new. Nothing's innovative or interesting. Everything's a rehash, remake, or sequel. We're in the age of nostalgia pretty-much. Mind you, things will improve, and tech still has a lot of newer more amazing potential hidden away we've yet to see them exploit yet, but it's for me not the same. I mean in terms of the value we applied to what we could do with our time back then. Like I find it difficult to remember the struggles I went through to get cartoons on dial up connections back in the day. Now it's all streaming and easy to get with no effort. I'm just floored. I worked at a single real ghost busters episode for 2 weeks straight through kazaa, now I can watch the whole series in a flash. I'm just... wow...

Shit's changed. I used to play super nintendo, dreamcast, playstation 2 all single player stuff. Just me, the game, and hours of struggling to complete missions with the occasianal gamefaqs guide. Now I'm throwing down in full online sessions in battlefront or battlefield or even gta online. Like it's just the same old thing, click and go. I never dreamed of this shit, boy. I played games by my fucking self. Now I can't go back to that shit. I can't go back to playing single player shit, when I can play against real flesh and blood people any given day of the week. I mean, it's just the reality... I do'n't want to feel that sense of isolation you get playing againt a cold computer. People are more fun. You get to talk shit, do unique team up shit, it's amazing gaming world we're in today.

Never thought I'd see it so soon. I knew it was coming, sure, but never thought, oh, here today I'd have a massive giant gaming session at my finger tips against everyone online reboot style. I'm like, just blown away, man... I can't even remember how I got through games without online multiplay. I try playing an old ps2 game in my emulator and immediately I feel like I'm staring into a wall the whole time. It's so inhuman.