New chapter

I'm bored honestly, first time I've been able to kinda take a break from the job... so much I want to do for myself, get things cleaned up, do another render of the movie, but I'm not into it right now...

Sick of the subway. Seeing homeless down in the gutter people on the daily, not a way to live one's life, just not. Avoid it, avoid them, you're better off. I don't even think of myself as better than anybody but hell, no way do I deserve to be blasted in the face by a bunch of crazy psycho homeless people every single day I go to work. I don't want to think, just go jump into a fire and leave this earth, but yeah the thought crosses...

tired as shit, damn, need to heal...

sorry not going go further and work on the film anymore till maybe a week from now. I pushed myself to my limit to get out the thing that exists, not into doing even a few sound fixes for it. It's done, like, the way it's edited is all done, not gonna change that anyway for now...

What I will do is kinda take a long vacation. I need to step back and re-evaluate what I'm doing and stuff, I mean I'm just not sure what the goal I have is or what I'm wanting to do with a steady job at the time being. I don't really know... lost..

And about Glass... boy did that movie bowl us unbreakable fans over and just really stirred up a of talk and leave people's heads spinning about it... I'm going to say I liked most of it. Some parts are still confusing and leave me uneasy about whether it actually works as the final film. Even M Night himself probably has mixed emotions about where he ulimately took it. My static film was conceived probably 90% different than what I ended up making. Nothing I really wanted to do with it worked out really. Editing the forest battle was too much of a mess etc.... changed that whole sequence from what it was story boarded as since it was too much to do... I don't know if glass might have been too big for M. Night to grasp fully and he stumbled with his attempt to squeeze all these things into one film... I guess it feels like it's disjointed. It's bloated for sure... things happen too fast. And we get more questions shoved at us about it all in the end that are never going to be answered... yeah that part of it I can't stand behind... pulling a Lost and just leaving stuff unanswered and unresolved. it's cheap... The biggest thing people were waiting for when the movie finished was a big twist that it was all a dream or something, even minority report leaves you wondering if it's just a dream at the end of the film.... I don't know if I like the way glass ended, but it was a well done continuation of unbreakable and split for the most part. Do I want to see it again? I could and do indeed want to, but thats a bitter ass ending, man. hard to want to see that again... just this blank question mark of an ending, and every review is saying Glasses plan wasn't that great, we don't live in a world where it's hard to capture people with super powers doing things. Everything is on camera 24/7 now and online in seconds, so relying on cams at the hospital was just unneeded. Would have been a more fun film if it was actually about hunting down glass and the beast instead of one flew over the damn coo coo's nest type of crap.... don't know man. Frustrating film... but that's how it ended,  there it is...