The R Kelly case

Never really thought much of it... If he was in the right place where what he did was legal, it'd be ok. I know, I'm a pedo sympathizer bla bla bla, but that's the reality isn't it... Anyway, of course he's going down and well, damn all I can think is that ya shouldn't have taped that stuff man. That's the awkward part... I'm not giving a piss about who he's screwing or whatever, but to tape it, knowing that what you're taping is going to be a big piece of undeniable evidence against you, oh damn son.... that's so beyond idiotic.

It's a messed up case... very much an issue of race as well. It took this long to give a crap about him going after high school girls because it wasn't like he was boning anything but dirty black apes from the jungle. who cares?

Let's be real... no one cared because he was messing with fugly looking black girls. Yes, I'm telling it like it is...

People still don't care. Yeah he's getting lynched publically but this is how it is, I'll give it to you raw. No one gives a crap who black people are screwing or what age, none of that... no one cares...

that's kinda why he thought no one would give a damn about him getting that high school buns, he's not wacking his dick around some white girl or nothing like that... he's a black guy pounding black booty. It's like, good for her, somebody wants to... pfft. Yeah oh my god did this dude just say that.

I grew up in black land, you'll never understand how complex black life is, black people are, black development is... it's different. It's no where close to white/hispanic/asian life and development it's a whole different universe...

And the funny thing is no one wants to understand it. The thing you get to realize all too clear one day being the black guy hanging out in this world is that, yeah, the rumors are true, this world doesn't give a damn if you get hit by a bus tomorrow.

and it never did...

This should be interesting to watch, as a bunch of people parade around feeling offended by something they honestly don't care about in the least bit, black sexual life.

Bottom line am I ok with what R kelly did? I honestly don't know right now... I don't believe he was intending to hurt any of the girls he was with and I've seen so many black girls plan day and night to cry rape against a guy they don't like, so I'm not going to feel strongly on their side myself, But I will say R Kelly's a damn idiot... that is undeniable. 

current events and future events

what future? Honestly don't think I got one... but hey not dead yet, that's one thing...

Not going to get into the politics stuff cuz it's stupid, what's even more stupid, what's been on my mind recently is this smollet, whatever his name is thing...

It's bad for black folk in this world already, we REALLY don't need this dumb shit from him if indeed it's true...

whatever, like his fanbase will support him no matter what, but to me, it's probably damn true he staged this shit. At first I thought he got killed... even billy dee commented on it, I was thinking, oh poor guy got killed by the kkk, but then a few days later he's alive and well. I knew something was up. Not one scar, not one cut, nothing. do you really think hardcore kkk fuckers would leave you clean after abducting you? Serious?

So here we go again, they got this to fuel their agenda. Next black person says anything about police brutality or whatever, immediate pull the smollet card. I hope he goes to jail or something, go think about what you did in there idiot. It's not just about you. All of us blacks are in this shit together, only people we got is each other. No white people going to stick their necks out for any one of our asses when shit hits the fan...

Just sayin. Dude went and made shit worse than it needed to be and despite people being smart enough to know there are real cases of this stuff that needs to be taken seriously, any time doubt can be cast they'll use this retard's actions to justify their arguments for it being false. That and the duke's lacrosse, how many bad behavior from blacks do the kkk have on record to use as a blatant mark against them.

I don't know what to think... I mean I would if I had it my way make it true. Yeah I'll admit that's my thoughts. People need to take black abuse and attacks seriously not just dismiss it. If it takes a fake one to get that to happen, then so be it. But no chance now... this fool made it infinitely harder for blacks to get their voices heard by the courts and media when it comes to any kind of stuff like this. Dude... why... you ruined more than just your crappy career...

As for me and where I'm going and what I'm going to be working on... I do have Static 2 planned and want to get working on it some point. God if I had it my way I'd make it so much more than the first movie, with actual real cast, not just me...

Still got to do the chun li edit, been neglecting that shit for too long...

Don't know, just want to learn how to goddamn play piano like i've always dreamed of doing really.

Back to it...

so much going on

I guess I better get my thoughts out... or just let them sit in my mind rotting away...

I mean I like to just sit here and watch naked white girls and enjoy my damn life... why are there people in this world who want to stick it to some poor smuck at the bottom of the ladder... why? What does it do for you?

Frankly yeah, I've been fined a whole ass 100 bucks for missing about 60 cents for a bus ride... I've been trying to make sense of this massive over-kill penalty all day even when I tell myself forget it and just move on with life... Something has got to change here systematically... some damn thing... I will from now on be hard dead set against taking public transport if I can find an alternative. It's become clear to me that it's a money making scheme, nothing else.

I friggin paid, then was searching my pockets for a few cents if the driver insisted I give the full fare, (sometimes they care sometimes they don't.) I actually freaken found the exact amount needed, but then the badass bus patrol squad jumped a guy over a few cents to meet their ticket writing quota for the day..... I feel terrible knowing I got raped by those people who are getting my tax dollars... I wouldn't mind it if they suddenly got shot or something...

I'm that freakin livid. If you want a war with me, I will find a way to kill you. But I'm holding myself back... I'm not going to be pushed to go crazy and end up making things worse. So damn tired of the jackass patrol out there in their tight ass uniforms... Go squeeze into those girl pants in the morning and parade around in front of someone who gives a damn... You're a disposable toy, mall security, nothing more... love to see them without the gun, would be a different scenario... I'd wreck them, I swear to God.

Any dumbass can point a gun around and pretend to be somebody, any...

any...

Well that's my release... As much as they tried to make me feel like I was in the wrong for missing out on a few cents for a bus trip. There have been days I've paid less because the driver wasn't an asshole and (knows there's no metro card machine at the bus stop.) I've NEVER not paid. I've had days I've put too much change in so I actually have already paid my fare and thensome... But sadly none of that matters. 100 bucks for 60cents... it's asinine. should be a warning, or a damn reduced fine, plea bargain sort of thing. 100 is egregious.

But keep it up. I hope they keep it up. People will get together and vote the wrong people out who are making these decisions and we'll get things stirred up to have these fines made more reasonable. I've done my research and there's wheels turning, maybe not fast enough, but they're being thought about. It's a tax funded transportation system and yet as a tax payer you have to pay... lots of thoughts on that, and technically, that bus I was going to take THAT DAY would have given me a free subway transfer, so ultimately what is most aggrivating is that that I ended up paying 100 for a bus ride that was basically going to be half price anyway considering my whole trip plans...

Oh well, you know what, they don't care. As long as we all keep drinking the kool aid and let the MTA rape us, nothing going to change...

As for how i'm coping with this. Tough nuggets pal. All I can say really. Been in pain over it... I have emotions, sad to say, but what can I do. I've had worse than this and lived. I'm well aware at this point, being black in NY is an insta-target for the slave-watch patrol or whatever... Oh I'm waking up to that shit now son...

My thoughts have been with that. What to do to make it in life as a black male... well, shit, can't say I got a clue...

Working on myself. I try. I mean I don't know if this will pan out the way I hope, but I am learning piano like I always dreamed and am not going crazy with it, just casually learning it... It's aggrivating but music is an essential part of the human spirit, it really is. And I connect with it... It's calming my head and it's healing... that's good, try to heal yourself through music...

Don't know what else to say. Life's a bunch of bitter spoiled milk in your mouth some days...

New chapter

I'm bored honestly, first time I've been able to kinda take a break from the job... so much I want to do for myself, get things cleaned up, do another render of the movie, but I'm not into it right now...

Sick of the subway. Seeing homeless down in the gutter people on the daily, not a way to live one's life, just not. Avoid it, avoid them, you're better off. I don't even think of myself as better than anybody but hell, no way do I deserve to be blasted in the face by a bunch of crazy psycho homeless people every single day I go to work. I don't want to think, just go jump into a fire and leave this earth, but yeah the thought crosses...

tired as shit, damn, need to heal...

sorry not going go further and work on the film anymore till maybe a week from now. I pushed myself to my limit to get out the thing that exists, not into doing even a few sound fixes for it. It's done, like, the way it's edited is all done, not gonna change that anyway for now...

What I will do is kinda take a long vacation. I need to step back and re-evaluate what I'm doing and stuff, I mean I'm just not sure what the goal I have is or what I'm wanting to do with a steady job at the time being. I don't really know... lost..

And about Glass... boy did that movie bowl us unbreakable fans over and just really stirred up a of talk and leave people's heads spinning about it... I'm going to say I liked most of it. Some parts are still confusing and leave me uneasy about whether it actually works as the final film. Even M Night himself probably has mixed emotions about where he ulimately took it. My static film was conceived probably 90% different than what I ended up making. Nothing I really wanted to do with it worked out really. Editing the forest battle was too much of a mess etc.... changed that whole sequence from what it was story boarded as since it was too much to do... I don't know if glass might have been too big for M. Night to grasp fully and he stumbled with his attempt to squeeze all these things into one film... I guess it feels like it's disjointed. It's bloated for sure... things happen too fast. And we get more questions shoved at us about it all in the end that are never going to be answered... yeah that part of it I can't stand behind... pulling a Lost and just leaving stuff unanswered and unresolved. it's cheap... The biggest thing people were waiting for when the movie finished was a big twist that it was all a dream or something, even minority report leaves you wondering if it's just a dream at the end of the film.... I don't know if I like the way glass ended, but it was a well done continuation of unbreakable and split for the most part. Do I want to see it again? I could and do indeed want to, but thats a bitter ass ending, man. hard to want to see that again... just this blank question mark of an ending, and every review is saying Glasses plan wasn't that great, we don't live in a world where it's hard to capture people with super powers doing things. Everything is on camera 24/7 now and online in seconds, so relying on cams at the hospital was just unneeded. Would have been a more fun film if it was actually about hunting down glass and the beast instead of one flew over the damn coo coo's nest type of crap.... don't know man. Frustrating film... but that's how it ended,  there it is...

Link now up

Here ya go....

https://mega.nz/#!e6AHBCAI!xbTapqD6sK179JnxTmi7W4FoABqIhE3yqFboLNZ4ggE

quality is ass, I'm no master of encoding long stuff, will need to redo it but it's watchable.

will now focus on glass... may review it etc... its time to get back to my unbreakable world i love...

Mostly done

Nothing but the polish and nitpicking part now...

yep, did the unthinkable and decided to skip out on work for the day to hammer away at this fart of a fan film. dumbass thing to do... money > personal passions or whatever. But I made a promise and felt it was right to keep it and I'm sick of making boxes all day... sick...

I'm going to render it now. I'm spent, nothing left in the tank. Is it finished, no. Needs sound work... boom's gun will lack all sound and stuff, but I'm just maxed out. Other things need fixiing etc but it's minor stuff. I'm not going to go crazy for this flick that no one will watch, sorry and I did bust my ass on all of it, broke my body did so much for most likely nothing...

so I'll give a link and you can laugh at me, don't care... I made it... I did what I wanted to do...

There will be additional even better releases that I plan but yet again I feel like who's gonna care????

But yeah this is the locked down final cut like a theatrical cut before the DC. You know how they release the rushed out theatrical then fix it later on in the dc, same thing. This is my theatrical cut. DC on the way but no time soon thats for sure... I'm tired of this project.

proud of myself

It's been a long day... essentially the film is still far from complete but I soldiered through a ton of it and pushed it very very close to where I want it to be for it to be done. Just really all that's left is plugging in fx and doing voice over work. Really fun to watch it with the intended fx. I did some good pre-visualization on all that stuff so it has my style to it if that means anything...

the tough questioin, will I make it to my deadline? Craaaaaaaaaaap hard to say. No train is fast enough to get me back here in time to finish it so probably still going to be off but I have to give myself credit, I did what I said I would do and spent all day working away at shots, just pushing myself to do it even when I was tired of it....

So I've made significant progress... I will have merely 2 or so hours to rush together a final cut tomorrow night after the job. Then that's that... it'll be out.

If you've seen it, you get what I'm trying to do... I've watched it with added fx and it's much more fun when its got some life to it and such.... goddamn I wish I had a massive budget and could have made this more than what it is, but yeah quite fun to watch for me. Going to be a bit different from the rough release as it just has to be chopped and changed to fit things..

gotta sleep and shit so I'll be back with whatever it ends up being on the magical day of glasses release which apparently they're releasing in pieces on youtube... ok, thanks for that. good grief wish I could have mo tiiiiiiiime