Curiosity

Just skeeted again. Such an endless cycle of crap. One look at a big ass titty and I can't control it anymore I'm jackin away like a construction worker.

Gets me thinking that maybe it's inevitable. I'll end up having kids and all that. But when does the endless stream of semen stop? I'm tired of it. I want to just take a pill and end the pain.

Will I be a bad father as the military has implied. No. They can say whatever they want, but I've already taken care of a baby before, and it was cool. I had fun. I guess they don't know me that well.

I really hate that. Twice some douche bag guys have tried to attack me based on my potential parentage. What a low blow. As low as you can get. I would think that we would all set aside our petty differences and put the kids first, always first. Make them happy as long as they're still cute and not crazy yet. That kind of thing.

I never wanted kids though, I'll tell you that. I always saw it as a bad option in life and even an unattainable one too. I'm me, there's not much chance I'll get pussy. Why is there this whole big thing about oh you'll get pussy at some point I guess, and uh your kids are going to be all like "you suck" and shit. Thanks...  Anyway, back to watching tons of porn.

If anything, I think my wife would do all the work anyway now that I think about it. Why do I have to worry about how some kids think of me, when I can be the good guy and the woman can be the bitch. That could work...