Getting old

Sad to say. I mean, the thing I never thought about is taking shape I guess. I'm gonna get old.

Whatever right, Just like to me. I never appreciated youth. Always in too much pain and constant school drama.

I'm a don't give a fuck kinda guy till I die. When you go through nothing but drama as a kid, you don't want more for the rest of your fucking life, that's the damn truth.

I don't even have it in me to give a shit about shit. I've struggled and fought so hard as a kid, I got nothing left, I'm so done with drama.

Gonna put my body in a state of deep ketosis to slim down before auditioning for Lando. The reason I'm doing this is simple. I want to give Phil and Chris a quality goddamn actor, plain and simple. I just want them to not have to go crazy looking for someone who's standing right the fuck in front of them. They couldn't have gotten an easier movie to make for the love of God. Casting han will be no big deal. They can shoot me an email any day of the week for the lando gig, pay my ass a shit ton of money or whatever they want. Then just make the movie they make, and watch the money rain, it couldn't be easier.

That message from MH gave me hope. Maybe it's a fool's hope, but nonetheless. All it took was a quick little tweet to Mark FUCKING Hamill and he in the midst of shooting a star wars movie took the time to message me, I think he's well aware I worship his ass.

Really that blew my mind and I'm thinking if that could happen, MAYBE it's not far fetched to get Phil and Chris to take a look at my facebook and see what they potentially could have.

Problem is, I'm not an actor. I'm like if a porn star wanted a hit movie role. Like really? It's tough for porn stars to shake their roots as porn stars, it really is. Despite the fact that if you have eyes you watch porn, people still like to act like porn is the end of the world and forever shame a person for it.

But yeah, just saying. I was like always standing around when they were making the prequels hoping lucasfilm knew I was around somehow and would come to me and say can you play Lando for us as we are looking for a young Lando. LITERALLY I was thinking about that as I stood waiting for the bus outside of AotC. Boy was I just insane to be thinking that, but apparently not. The reality is actually very much different than I forsaw. I was gonna do it too. Didn't care what anybody thought. I'd have packed up jumped on a plane to lucasfilm and rocked out a young Lando in Revenge of the Sith if they needed it. Didn't fucking happen!!!!

But here we stand. This time they WILL be casting Lando. There's no getting around it. I am Lando, there's no getting around it. So yeah this is it, man... this is it, DO OR DIE.