Getting Static Shock finished...

I've been struggling to get in better shape in preparation for shooting the final bits of my static shock project.

Sadly this whole journey to get a job up here and earn some bread has yielded no fruit. I'll be in negative dollars at the end of it if this apartment doesn't quickly sell off. so if you're in niagara falls and looking for a cheap place, please do me a favor and take my apartment from kenmore development. Reasonable rate, nice comfy living space. You can have her, I'm going to go the nomad road and live life in a camper once I save up for it.

Such a joke. I have to struggle to find a job when I get down to a more black friendly area (this is a sad thing to have to do but I'm facing an uphill battle to get a job up here.) just to pay for an apartment I'm not occupying until they get rid of it. I'd rather take the second deal and cut the rent in half and finish the lease out. But I reason this place is cheap, it'll go fast to somebody... I hope it does.

You think I'm bsing about having a tough time getting a job up in a majority white town? I wish I was too. I'm not stupid. I know that if I apply, they'll choose a white or hispanic or asian over hiring me. Makes life easier for themselves, keeps their business looking more inviting to the public. Where the hell can I get a job? Some place where I won't be seen every day by hundreds of people. Most of the jobs up here are open and out front. I got to find something out of the way and unexposed. That's where they'd prefer to put me. I don't give a damn as long as I get a check, be racist all day, means nothing to me.

Do I want to go back home to my black neighborhood? Kinda... sorta??? That place is my home, I'll always love it, but it's full of its own problems. I don't want to deal with black people and their bullshit constantly, hell no. Getting out of there and hanging up here with white people who live lives like they're in heaven and have no worries, it's been refreshing I must say. Was looking forward to sticking around.

Now I have to go back home and dodge bullets. Deal with black angst and ignorance. Cops roaming the streets waiting to scoop up the daily negro.

No I don't want to go back to that...

I will be happy to finish my static shock project, that's about it. I wish this didn't go down like this. I wish I could get unemployment. Gotta see if there's an alternative, something. I have to qualify for some kind of aid after working and then being cut down so fast...

I can't believe unemployment has to have requirements like certain months of work. It's supposed to help you when you are fired, period. It's not about waiting until you get fired after a certain time... who decided this bullshit. Goddamn.... If I didn't have my parents house to go back to what would I do?

Apparently struggle for months in a homeless shelter while I search for a job somewhere.... so retarded.

4 years of bone crushing soul sucking high school for this? Really????????????????