Ender Begins

I'm begining the planning stages for the final complete version of my ronda wigglesworth saga. The final opponent in the series will be a character I've invented named ENDER (Experimental Nano Device Evolving Rapidly) or something. her true origins are unknown at first, but we learn more about her later on as ronda battles the 7 galactic guardians in ss5 (or ss4U) mode after she fuses with jasmine, queen of kuntamba, who posseses great mystical powers. It is after all this that ender rises, first against eve who encounters her in one of her time quests, then ender returns through time to defeat the one person who could stand in her way of complete domination, ronda. they both travel through time, impacting the events that already happened, making it seem like it was all destined to be this way. Then we learn ender's origins. It seems that the combination of verona and Lena's blood not only got verona pregnant, but Lena as well, but Lena didn't give birth to a person but a strange entity which didn't seem human and buried it. Discovered by the Galactians thousands of years after they invaded earth she was rejuvinated. This entity then grew under the guidance of the Galactians into ender several years into the future and possessed unbelievable levels of power. Combining with her sister Jade, she becomes complete. And Ronda must summon everything she has to stop this bitch.

I'll try to get it done in like 3 or 4 months if i can.

TS-gay

I was driving from work and hearing on the radio about how the tsa's been going too far with their searches. I thought to myself, why the heck are you checking a pilot's dick for possible bombs? he's the fucking pilot. if he wants to slam that plane into the middle of a school full of kids, he can. stupid, boneheaded practices. They finally wised up and put pilots and flight attendants on a waiver, but to even begin searching those guys for shit in the first place just shows how inept the people in charge of the tsa actually are...

Further more, as a ramp agent, I don't get searched nor go through metal detectors, I can if I choose blow up any plane i feel like blowing up. So yeah, good job.

I don't know what to tell you passengers, try to avoid the pat down procedures if you can, even if it means having to go through those new scanners that leave nothing to the imagination. It means very little in the long run, but whatever...better than having some guy feeling up your penis.

Planes and pains

Unbelievable job, being a ramp agent. I'm at work right now bored since i'm done with my scheduled flights but i don't leave till 8 so i have time to kill and I have to say the way they run these planes like trains in and out non-stop, is crazy. if we dedicated the time and effort we put into shuffling tons of baggage here and there to something that actually matters like feeding starving people or curing diseases, we'd have all that shit solved today, at least that's what i tell myself. it's just ridiculous what lengths an airline is willing to go to to make the assloads of cash they make. It's a numbers game. spend x amount for y amount of profit and to hell with how many people might get run over on the way there...

like in india, they're even crazier. I'm complaining but those guys over there would cut off their right nut to be able to have my job i'm sure. they're insane over there, hell, everywhere. why not, right? why not get a bunch of bottom of the barrel scrubs to do work on a project that will net millions in profit for you. there's no downside to it. And such a practice continues to pay in the bucketfulls because there's ALWAYS somebody out there who's willing to work for next to nothing.

that's sad. if people were smarter they'd hold these companies by the balls and demand a fair wage. but nobody can organize people enough for that kind of shit. there's always some dumb fuck who'll try lifting a car with his bare hands for a measly dollar. It's our own fault really. There's nothing special about the people who own these huge corporations, got to stop thinking they're super humans, they're just people with lots of money. And when you have a lot of money, you can controll people's very lives, get them to work for pennies while you make the real money off their broken backs.

I do this not because I plan to do this till I'm in a grave, or desperate for money, I've always LOVED airplanes, to be in their pressence on a daily basis is a pleasure in itself. However, the way they're run like soulless pieces of tin foil with wings that carry crap from one place to another certainly de-mystifies them for me. It's such a money money money game, faster you shovel the shit from new york to moscow, the more money, stupid and unspectacular. I hope to pilot some day maybe, but hell it's starting to seem like even being a pilot isn't that special either. come on, it's like being a mini-astronaut for god's sake.

Welcome Holmes

Damn, I'm seriously dissapointed with myself, i accidently got a deep crease in my drawing of eden during her battle with android v-1 (viper First generation) at school. I drew it to test my skills as i begin getting back into finally doing all the story over again, and one of the things that was always hard to do was keep the hundreds of pages clean. One time i re-did a much better version of my ronda vs marlboroo comic and then i don't know what happened, it got burned a little by the radiator or whatever, and it was just a complete tragedy my friends. I had such good drawings that were totally messed up.

oh well, gotta keep on movin. so fuck yeah the new sherlock holmes show is great. because it's a man's show about men being men, reminds me of a lot of great tv from the 90s that were about clever men going toe to toe with other clever men. live action wise, i'd have to mention x-files, pretender, fresh prince of bell air, etc. it's endless. todays tv sucks sorry.

so it's csi but with sherlock holmes instead of some know it all science cop or lawyer like in law and order. Having read holmes all my life i of course had to see if they got it right and besides the main actor being kind of baby-face-ish, they nailed it. Holmes seems to solve the mystery before he even knew it existed, perfectly accurate. I can't wait to see him whoop moriarty's ass.

they should make this a real regular series instead of a miniseries event thing, but alas, whatever... good tv can't be taken for granted. a lot of people compare him to house, probably right, but i hate house, complete prick, and extremely unprofessional in a medical environment to be acting so childishly belligerent, and besides that he's got nothing going on, no friends, no humanity, he's mr. bad attitude and that's all she wrote. holmes in the new show admits he doesn't care about the victims in the crimes he solves he's in it for the challenge, but at the same time, he seems to actually sort of treasure having someone to talk to about his mysteries even if he's only usuing watson as an outside ear or possible second opinion. wow, actual character, he's not just some robot. and that's what i like about this new holmes.

that makes me kind of actually care about whether he's got the goods to take on someone on his level, when the character's just this invincible super freak with no flaws, he gets boring. Like they kind of made a big deal out of whether holmes would give a shit if moriarty killed watson. it's left ambiguous whether holmes did or didn't care. I like that. Even if they eventually make holmes out to truly be a ruthless super genius, at least they didn't make him seem completely inhuman.

so the series cliffjhanger comes to a stalemate as holmes threatens to kill himself and moriarty at the same time. got to say i like how the guy plays moriarty as kind of this sick bizarro version of sherlock, he's not BAD, or the devil, he's just sherlock if he was a criminal, simple, kind of like the natural consequence of sherlock even existing is that if he exists so does his opposite. Of course sherlock won't shoot the gun, and of course moriarty won't kill sherlock, they need each other. very interesting what the future will bring from this series.

lust for suffering

I've got 2 things i want to write about... first is my trying to understand some of the behavior I've witnessed in other people. Granted, we will never achieve peace, but to come across folks who upon first meeting you wish you death, is not only terribly confusing but also extremely annoying. I, believe it or not, don't want anybody fighting anybody for any reason, yet some people it would seem are war mongers to the core.

first time i caught wiff of these people, at least post pubescent (kids are cruel yadda yadda, no need to go there, fuck kids) I'm talking beyond that, and it was at a forum i frequented that's probably still around today, a star wars forum where i delved into the deepest levels of star wars discussion and followed my passion for the series as it started up again with the new movies... some jackass was going around harassing everyone and totally blew my 16 year old mind when he layed me out with a KO post that completely devastated me. i look back and regret not shrugging that guy off. That's what that freak wanted, to get to me, WHY is the question... i guess there's a cheap thrill from slamming someone.

I know i have it some times, we lust for other's pain at times. but geez i'm talkin this guy was nutz,digging into everybody every day, like it was his whole life.

and it doesn't end there. some fat woman when i was looking for a job, went ape crazy when she saw my resume wasn't full of work. And she made a frown face at me as if she was ready to beat me up. I told her I was going to school. What was i 21 when this happened, and it was the truth, but i realize now that she was a fucking psycho bitch and nothing more. i should have ignored her and gone about my business. She wanted me to feel ashamed for not having a full time job by my age, make me feel off, but most people don't have their shit together yet, and so I was a dumb fuck for taking her seriously.

so apparently some people are crazy by choice. i know goddamnit that there are people who don't have a choice, they're born crazy can't think straight at all, but then there are those who are deliberately annoying jerks because they get a kick out of it. Thank god, I'm male and I rule the world, at least as far as a black guy's concerned.

Oh what else was it i was going to add, oh, I'm a delta airlines ramp agent, didn't know delta was the largest airline in the world when i signed up for it, pretty neat, anyway you passengers are killing us with the baggage.

1. stop packing your whole house, just essentials please. and 2. why the hell are you arriving for the flight something like 20 minutes before departure, we have to load your heavy shit 1 by 1 in the aircraft, so it's going to be a bitch to have no time to get it done. Sorry just had to get that out there, this job is brutal, but can be made a little more manageable with some help from the passengers. I guess they don't know a human being will be lifting their shit at some point.

raven

I think about sabrina frato alot, and why wouldn't I, she was the first girl i ever touched in any sexual way. I was I guess sneak attacked by her tits that day. Needless to say, i've never felt happier than that moment. It matters not now though, 'nevermore' will i see her, and so be it, it'd be a strange relationship, me always wondering if she's just an undercover agent looking for trouble. Kind of makes me suspicious of any future girls i might meet. EVERY and i mean EVERY girl i met on my little military adventure was a spy sent to mess with me.

they're just doing a job so don't take it personally though, right, just a job, day in day out same shit.

sure did make me think what having a wife and kids would be like though. never really seriously thought about it because it was such an impossible far far away concept, why give it much thought. something tells me though that such is my fate, as was reiterated by one of my mti's in the airforce, that it is unavoidable for a person like me, that these things called children will be existing at some point. i live with this knowledge with both dread and joy at the thought.

That's what I'll name the girl btw.

to boldly go

Artistic drive is a nebulous thing, often inconsistent and unpredictable. One day you'll have a great idea you're passionate about, the next you'll not know where to begin. i reside between these two extremes as I begin navigating the tumultuous seas of drawing my mini opus, one of 3 pieces i want to finish before i fuck off this planet, and although seriously determined to get it done, i don't know if it'll be my best effort since I'm literally redoing most of it.

like I said long ago, I threw it away when i found a girl i was interested in, no need for a mountain of porn anymore... still I've grown so fond of creating the stories, and drawing them etc, that I really still don't want to let it go. what's more I don't even know if I'm still as good as i used to be. No matter, the wheels are in motion and this thing's going forward whether I personally am satisfied with the results or not.

One cool thing that came about due to the creation of my Ronda character was meeting the real thing. As some kind of cruel joke, the military had some gorgeous woman imitate my beloved character right in front of me, fucked me right up seeing her in the flesh. they got everything right, her height, eye color, hair color, and curves, I analyzed everything withing the small time we met, whoever she was, she's good... such a unique situation that i never saw coming, but oh so mammorable.