to boldly go

Artistic drive is a nebulous thing, often inconsistent and unpredictable. One day you'll have a great idea you're passionate about, the next you'll not know where to begin. i reside between these two extremes as I begin navigating the tumultuous seas of drawing my mini opus, one of 3 pieces i want to finish before i fuck off this planet, and although seriously determined to get it done, i don't know if it'll be my best effort since I'm literally redoing most of it.

like I said long ago, I threw it away when i found a girl i was interested in, no need for a mountain of porn anymore... still I've grown so fond of creating the stories, and drawing them etc, that I really still don't want to let it go. what's more I don't even know if I'm still as good as i used to be. No matter, the wheels are in motion and this thing's going forward whether I personally am satisfied with the results or not.

One cool thing that came about due to the creation of my Ronda character was meeting the real thing. As some kind of cruel joke, the military had some gorgeous woman imitate my beloved character right in front of me, fucked me right up seeing her in the flesh. they got everything right, her height, eye color, hair color, and curves, I analyzed everything withing the small time we met, whoever she was, she's good... such a unique situation that i never saw coming, but oh so mammorable.