raven

I think about sabrina frato alot, and why wouldn't I, she was the first girl i ever touched in any sexual way. I was I guess sneak attacked by her tits that day. Needless to say, i've never felt happier than that moment. It matters not now though, 'nevermore' will i see her, and so be it, it'd be a strange relationship, me always wondering if she's just an undercover agent looking for trouble. Kind of makes me suspicious of any future girls i might meet. EVERY and i mean EVERY girl i met on my little military adventure was a spy sent to mess with me.

they're just doing a job so don't take it personally though, right, just a job, day in day out same shit.

sure did make me think what having a wife and kids would be like though. never really seriously thought about it because it was such an impossible far far away concept, why give it much thought. something tells me though that such is my fate, as was reiterated by one of my mti's in the airforce, that it is unavoidable for a person like me, that these things called children will be existing at some point. i live with this knowledge with both dread and joy at the thought.

That's what I'll name the girl btw.