thoughts on blackness again

Just thinking about being a black guy right now.

Little did I know as a kid, but yeah EVERYBODY hates black people in this world.

I think to myself what the hell am I going to do to make or break it in life, and honestly I can't give you a solid answer. I am not white. Being white is awesome beyond measure. You will not have one day of issues in this world. You will just fucking have to tolerate the annoying lower races around you but besides that, you'll get the job FIRST. You'll live in a cozy apartment, you'll have everyone basically kissing your ass in this world. So there ya go as far as being a white person. Nevermind actually going and accomplishing anything, just being white is going to give you a huge advantage over everybody else in life, without reservation.

But there is something to being black I can educate you about. BECAUSE you're being shafted in life, black people develop a sense of toughness to them as they go through and get beat down in life. You do what you can to survive and of course I can tell you that you develop some kind of thicker hide to deal with the rigors of life.

Like I said before my black school as a kid was a war zone. Every single day going to that school for psychotic black kids, I had to some how grit my teeth and take the hard labor of forging forward through that whole mess. Which is why I don't really give a shit about having my internet rep damaged. I some how scratched and clawed my way through my terrible childhood. How the hell can one day of internet bullshit even begin to compare to the hell I had the balls to make it through as a kid.

Doesn't phase me one iota. When you go to school as a kid and get shitted on by other kids constantly and then shitted on by teachers too, yunno, there's no real love for black kids in a school run by white faculty, not in the least. They're just in it for the money, creating a black school actually pays the bills for these white people, besides that, they didn't give a damn about us. And it gets worse when you become an adult. You're supposed to pound booty now. Time to grow up get some ass.

But surprise surprise, you're like a fucking vampire. Nobody wants to get infected by blackness. And in fact that's exactly how this world operates. It's a world where there's no love for blacks or interest in turning black at all. I'm surprised my life has had any upside to it all these years when the reality is that if some white people had it their way, they'd erase black people from the face of the earth.

I mean yeah that's what they do. I mean I've seen the military gifs. There's somebody dropping a bomb on some black fucking village right now, most likely. Sucks to grow up over in those countries I can certainly imagine.

Black president don't mean shit. Just trying to make the point that America is free and blacks should stop acting so niggerish. No better way to make that point than by throwing a fucking token black in the mix, but will this world ever truly embrace the black race of people with open ams? HELL NO...

Everybody knows what black people want most, NOT BEING BLACK. I mean if I had a blonde blue eyed massive tittied white girl in front of me, would I trade her for a jet black, straight out of africa girl instead? Would I prefer to have black kids as my offspring instead of some hispanic looking mulatto kids.  Yunno. One wonders what goes through white girl's fucking heads when they decide to give a black man a fucking HUGE social boost by having mulatto kids...

I can only assume that that chick couldn't find a white guy who wasn't a flaming faggot, that's the only explanation for all the white chicks this day going for black dick. Their own race of people is turning gay night and day... yunno.

Not saying I'm hoping that some white girl is desperate enough for dick that she goes after ME... I mean I'm still into black girls, always have been, don't even think for a minute that I have a chance in hell with the upper races honestly...

but like I said I really don't believe in having kids and indeed my life as a kid sucked ass, and now I'm waking up to the reality of having to be a black guy in a white man's world and truthfully I don't want to put anyone else through this hell that i've been shafted with in the end. White people have no issues with having kids because they know there's going to just basically skate through life, but for me it's a tough decision to want to make... yunno, ain't nobody really give a damn if blacks continue to spawn more of themselves in this world...

I ask myself now as I sit here at 28 years old, do white people reeeaally hate black people to the point of wanting all of us gone for good?

Honestly they could do it if they wanted to, get rid of all blacks, just toss them all in a furnace, hitler style... they damn well could.

Ultimately they won't ever do that, all things considered, Blacks are like walking talking piles of cash for old rich white men, now that I see how this world works. They won't be able to get tons of cheap easy dumb labor without the black race, just simply won't. We're extremely valuable now that I see it with my own eyes how whites exploit the black race in the modern age.

This world has truly gone to shit, I have to say as a man who grew up believing in some kind of message of there being good in all of us. This world is gone to shit in a pan, got to say... It's not what I thought it would be as a kid, no way...

I was taught that we were going to change things, make everybody have opportunity, not live under some ancient idiology about whites being the superiors of everyone, which doesn't make a shit of sense. They're another type of human being, nothing more nothing less. Why the hell are they struggling to grasp on to this eerie, ancient, concept of being these Gods in human flesh, I'll never know...

I mean I look at this photo on NBC health section of a black woman being shuffled around by two white scientist guys and it sickens me to no end.

Seriously we're in 2014 and we got photos like that being blasted on websites of black people being treated like cattle by two white guys in chemical gear? what the hell is that?

I wonder to myself if there's truly no goddamn out for black people. You really just got fucked the day you were born and that's all she wrote on that matter...

Maybe... I mean I have to admit, that's life, there's no getting around it. As much as I want to believe we can all get what we want, life is not fair. People get fucked from birth a lot whether it's dwarfism, autism, all kinds of diseases...