It's becoming a natural occurrence in my life, just something going stupid.... So I play battlefront typically, thats what I do all day, play star wars, edit the static shock movie... browse for porn. I know, sad, but I don't care... Never had a goal in life much for scrap anyway.
Was debating with myself whether to even discuss this, who cares....
but it's important to kinda generate some thought on it...
About life, death, whether the things we do in it matter. I marvel at the great arts in this world, the craftsmanship, there's just a lot of great stuff that I don't understand the inner workings of that people have made. Videogames and computer coding being one personally intriguing subject. Amazing game battlefront. spared no expense on graphics, game design and balance however, eh...
But today sucked the life out of me. Just like I felt my soul die a smidge from it. It kinda broke my spirit to even do anything even jack off or something...
So I'm in a match and I whip out my canon, I'm playing heavy class to get it to kinda level up more, whatever... Then this dude jumps out from the corner. It was like wtf... then I shot at the target to at least get some points before this dude kills me, turns out the universe aligned in that one second and just as I squeezed the trigger he goes pop and disintegrates....
I immediately jump to the 0 button and smash it to save the replay buffer and capture the moment for all time, such a moment that will never ever happen again and i know it. Been gaming for years, I know when random lucky stuff happens and glitches or whatever that are unrepeatable....
guess what happened. I was not recording...
It stung and I'm not some freaking robot, the sudden loss of it killed me. My soul was crushed fuck.... I just fell apart having dealt with this so many times. I've done epic shit in games and not known if I was recording only to find out it was not caught.... but this was the truly one time I will never repeat it.
Trust me. I've been playing for the last few hours like a mad man hoping it happens again, who am I kidding, it will not.
I mean to a regular person with money, a wife, kids, the works, this stupid shit doesn't matter. But then I was upstairs making something to eat and thought, then what does? We have to cling to something we LOVE in life, something we're have a PASSION for. It's the only damn thing we got left in this crap rock of a planet.
That's it. Yeah I do pain for the loss of the clip. And yunno, yeah I'm human, it hurt and I still hurt as I type this. I'll move on, not the end of the f'n world. But that's just it. It was the end of MY world... my passion for my gaming habit, my belief in my self as someone who's special maybe I don't know... kinda sucks and blows to be proven all that shit I do in a game is just a meaningless memory I have.... I mean I remember so many of these moments that come and do indeed go because my memory just dropped it and I can't get it back, my OCD tendencies go nuts for a while then I move on but yeah it sucks away at your core being because I think that pain is a reminder to us that that's what we live for, feeling that sense of completeness and confidence in what you believe in and are passionate about. Without that might as well be dead.
I was thinking, erase it. Just delete battlefront, not going to be played years from now anyway and become a ghost game.
Heh, but that's why we play it now us nerdy idiots.... if we didn't love the battle, the star wars, we wouldn't be in it thrashing it out level after level of insanity. It's our passion for the moment that makes us feel alive... and that same passion that makes it suck to lose the sweet kills when they happen. My rambling point being that some day the game will be a dead brick no one plays, but even knowing that, we want to create epic moments and experience it in its peak period when it is getting heated tough battles going between full teams of players etc.... If it was just any old shooter, not many would play but the love of star wars makes it worth the crap from EA... we need that passion in our lives.
Need it, yes, need it, for what the hell else is there in life if you don't have something you love at all. And yunno....
I don't know why I bother anymore. I mean I know that no one cares about me. No one cares about my dumbass movie. No one cares about me whining about losing a f'n sweet kill clip. I KNOW THAT...
but it's all I f'n got, isn't that awful? It's my stinking passion and that's why it hurts to fail at it..... but yunno that's the point I guess. Life ain't lived without hard times and such....ugh... I don't know. I just wish things went different here..... sad thing to have to live with and struggle to move on from...
Saturday, March 31, 2018
Wednesday, March 28, 2018
Today was interesting
I must confess. I've been trying to avoid editing the project. I want it done so badly, absolutely. It needs to just be gone so I can feel free to move on to other stuff I have planned to do, damn right...
It's so boring, editing. You fail so hard at it before it gets good and starts to groove... hate going through that.... What I personally hate less is fx work. I do somewhat like crafting and manipulating stuff in after fx.
Just finished 2 fx shots that some how came out exactly as I envisioned them in my head. Mind you the usual thing that happens is I hope it's gonna be good, then it comes out terrible and I just live with it since I'm a noob at this stuff, but no, I guess I'm getting good somewhat. I wanted to have shadow of the chair appear beneath it as it floated, I decided to attempt duplicating the chair, darkening it, then fading it out to look like a shadow, and then just have it positioned directly beneath the floating chair, little bit of warping effect, and it looks 100% real as if I some how shot it on the spot. I was floored. I guess I can use the same technique for the other shot where I float stuff and there's no shadow since it's tough to implement a shadow under floating stuff, but when it's there it sells the shot perfectly... so happy and yeah it motivates you to finish when the fx look as good as they do. You want to experience them in context with the rest of the film.
Yeah stuff came together today. I have to bum rush through this stuff yanno, plan the whole film in sections and then tackle them one by one.
As it is, I've edited stuff together, sections where I excersis test the powers etc, but nothing is planned as to where they go in the damn thing. It's like, I don't really care about it. It's just a technicality until I reach the final battle so I don't give it everything I have... just want to get this crap so done, it's murder to keep having it sitting there waiting to be done.
I'll do rough drafts of redcape's scenes and shadow man's scenes if I can get up the nerve to do it tomorrow, if I don't feel it I don't feel it. what can I say....
It's so boring, editing. You fail so hard at it before it gets good and starts to groove... hate going through that.... What I personally hate less is fx work. I do somewhat like crafting and manipulating stuff in after fx.
Just finished 2 fx shots that some how came out exactly as I envisioned them in my head. Mind you the usual thing that happens is I hope it's gonna be good, then it comes out terrible and I just live with it since I'm a noob at this stuff, but no, I guess I'm getting good somewhat. I wanted to have shadow of the chair appear beneath it as it floated, I decided to attempt duplicating the chair, darkening it, then fading it out to look like a shadow, and then just have it positioned directly beneath the floating chair, little bit of warping effect, and it looks 100% real as if I some how shot it on the spot. I was floored. I guess I can use the same technique for the other shot where I float stuff and there's no shadow since it's tough to implement a shadow under floating stuff, but when it's there it sells the shot perfectly... so happy and yeah it motivates you to finish when the fx look as good as they do. You want to experience them in context with the rest of the film.
Yeah stuff came together today. I have to bum rush through this stuff yanno, plan the whole film in sections and then tackle them one by one.
As it is, I've edited stuff together, sections where I excersis test the powers etc, but nothing is planned as to where they go in the damn thing. It's like, I don't really care about it. It's just a technicality until I reach the final battle so I don't give it everything I have... just want to get this crap so done, it's murder to keep having it sitting there waiting to be done.
I'll do rough drafts of redcape's scenes and shadow man's scenes if I can get up the nerve to do it tomorrow, if I don't feel it I don't feel it. what can I say....
Tuesday, March 27, 2018
facebook exodus
Apparently whatever the f is going on in rich white people land involves them wanting to abandon facebook now and turn their backs on it.
What... really? You don't say... the internet isn't a safe happy place and there is corruption and devious shady people doing some evil shit on there? Oh my God, I'm shocked!
I don't know the full details but wow, it's like have none of these people ever used the web at all? It's always been terrible. ALWAYS. Putting up your daily shit on youtube doesn't change anything... its still going to have psychopaths running amok on it.
I guess their gentrification plans didn't pan out. I mean yeah you can star bucks a city but good luck corporatizing the net. In my opinion it's simply not possible.
Nothing surprises me about the net anymore. Used to, but no. I've had my fill of super nerdy loser insane assholes I've come across on here to even begin thinking otherwise. And you know what's hilarious, the youtube video boom has made this thing far worse than I imagined. Used to be, yeah you met a douche bag online, so what. You meet a douche all the time who cares, you move on, never see that asshole again. Oh not anymore.... not anymore... now that douche bag has an address and a little hobbit hole he inhabits on some corner of the web so he can still get attention. Wtf...
Will it last? Will any of the stuff about the internet last? No. I can say that for sure... I've seen it with my own eyes. Hot bubbly lively websites top tier, big, popular, goliaths, then today they're shadows in the dark... no one knows they even existed. So yeah that's the future of all this crap....
I guess it's comparable to the porn we all watch.... it's big stuff when it's fresh, then you never see that porn star again and that whole show is over... same deal.
Shit happens, people move on... it's life.
In further news. Yeah, gameshakers is canceled. Saw that coming a billion miles off but damn apparently the guy who ran the show and was a long time producer of great nick comedies has been fired and there's a scandal about his behavior on sets.... WTF I don't know.... you hang out with anybody long enough you'll end up getting into it. Hell I learned first hand that some people just like to stir crap up without even getting to know you at all... interesting lesson on how this world functions. No such thing as reason and justification to some people's actions. They're just jerks.
Sad, this was what I kinda was thinking would happen. It's not a classic nick show, the kids had to have backup plans or other projects to pursue or they'd end up kinda in that forgotten crappy kids show zone. Alas that's where they ended up... who knows their future. Actually yeah the one kid on that show who's career went anywhere was the black kid ironically... he's got voice roles and a movie under his belt already.... damn, I can see him still getting work. I was saying the two girls were gonna have a tough time if they made this show their whole career and don't know if they planned to do much beyond the show or not.... don't know, but if they planned to make the show their own little cash cow for the next few years or whatever, then that ship has sailed. And if history is any sign, they won't have it easy finding roles now due to them being popular on one series already... Kel can tell them. He exploded on Nick and because of that and his connection to Kenan, his career kinda sputtered to nothing because all people saw him as was his nick characters...
Now he's double out of work, how the hell... He was so into the show and it was to some extent the revival of old school nick with this idea of old nick actors kinda mentoring the next gen of nick actors.... it was a neat thing, could have lead to a new All That, all kinds of stuff.
Wow, I don't know. I'll follow Kel's facebook and twitter and see what he plans to do now that he's out of his only job it seems. He should probably do wild 'n out with Nick Canon for a bit just to get the bills paid, why not...
Sad, feel for ya bro. He's not deserving all this crap, but his choice to return to Nick bit him in the ass big time now.... not a smart career move at all. Well see.
What... really? You don't say... the internet isn't a safe happy place and there is corruption and devious shady people doing some evil shit on there? Oh my God, I'm shocked!
I don't know the full details but wow, it's like have none of these people ever used the web at all? It's always been terrible. ALWAYS. Putting up your daily shit on youtube doesn't change anything... its still going to have psychopaths running amok on it.
I guess their gentrification plans didn't pan out. I mean yeah you can star bucks a city but good luck corporatizing the net. In my opinion it's simply not possible.
Nothing surprises me about the net anymore. Used to, but no. I've had my fill of super nerdy loser insane assholes I've come across on here to even begin thinking otherwise. And you know what's hilarious, the youtube video boom has made this thing far worse than I imagined. Used to be, yeah you met a douche bag online, so what. You meet a douche all the time who cares, you move on, never see that asshole again. Oh not anymore.... not anymore... now that douche bag has an address and a little hobbit hole he inhabits on some corner of the web so he can still get attention. Wtf...
Will it last? Will any of the stuff about the internet last? No. I can say that for sure... I've seen it with my own eyes. Hot bubbly lively websites top tier, big, popular, goliaths, then today they're shadows in the dark... no one knows they even existed. So yeah that's the future of all this crap....
I guess it's comparable to the porn we all watch.... it's big stuff when it's fresh, then you never see that porn star again and that whole show is over... same deal.
Shit happens, people move on... it's life.
In further news. Yeah, gameshakers is canceled. Saw that coming a billion miles off but damn apparently the guy who ran the show and was a long time producer of great nick comedies has been fired and there's a scandal about his behavior on sets.... WTF I don't know.... you hang out with anybody long enough you'll end up getting into it. Hell I learned first hand that some people just like to stir crap up without even getting to know you at all... interesting lesson on how this world functions. No such thing as reason and justification to some people's actions. They're just jerks.
Sad, this was what I kinda was thinking would happen. It's not a classic nick show, the kids had to have backup plans or other projects to pursue or they'd end up kinda in that forgotten crappy kids show zone. Alas that's where they ended up... who knows their future. Actually yeah the one kid on that show who's career went anywhere was the black kid ironically... he's got voice roles and a movie under his belt already.... damn, I can see him still getting work. I was saying the two girls were gonna have a tough time if they made this show their whole career and don't know if they planned to do much beyond the show or not.... don't know, but if they planned to make the show their own little cash cow for the next few years or whatever, then that ship has sailed. And if history is any sign, they won't have it easy finding roles now due to them being popular on one series already... Kel can tell them. He exploded on Nick and because of that and his connection to Kenan, his career kinda sputtered to nothing because all people saw him as was his nick characters...
Now he's double out of work, how the hell... He was so into the show and it was to some extent the revival of old school nick with this idea of old nick actors kinda mentoring the next gen of nick actors.... it was a neat thing, could have lead to a new All That, all kinds of stuff.
Wow, I don't know. I'll follow Kel's facebook and twitter and see what he plans to do now that he's out of his only job it seems. He should probably do wild 'n out with Nick Canon for a bit just to get the bills paid, why not...
Sad, feel for ya bro. He's not deserving all this crap, but his choice to return to Nick bit him in the ass big time now.... not a smart career move at all. Well see.
Monday, March 26, 2018
Fighting the good fight
Still struggling to edit this mess...
You reach a point where you want to chuck it in the trash that's certain.
I got 2 months, so it should get done some point...
Happy to report that the most for me tricky shot to compose in after effects is finished and looks excellent. This was just a chore and had to render it a bunch of times to finally master how to do it. After effects is a delicate instrument to learn and master but if you keep plugging away at it, you'll figure out the short cuts.
So tired after suffering to get through the fine tuning of the shot to get it right but surprisingly all of it came together and blew me away with how good it looked... just wow.
Problem is that yeah this training sequence is highly laborious to trudge through and get it to some how work... It fights me. It refuses to just flow and function.... so it's ass to get it done....
Today I must at least get this crap done, these two sequences, that's all I hope to achieve.
You reach a point where you want to chuck it in the trash that's certain.
I got 2 months, so it should get done some point...
Happy to report that the most for me tricky shot to compose in after effects is finished and looks excellent. This was just a chore and had to render it a bunch of times to finally master how to do it. After effects is a delicate instrument to learn and master but if you keep plugging away at it, you'll figure out the short cuts.
So tired after suffering to get through the fine tuning of the shot to get it right but surprisingly all of it came together and blew me away with how good it looked... just wow.
Problem is that yeah this training sequence is highly laborious to trudge through and get it to some how work... It fights me. It refuses to just flow and function.... so it's ass to get it done....
Today I must at least get this crap done, these two sequences, that's all I hope to achieve.
Saturday, March 24, 2018
Thawtz on today's march
Good luck...
I don't know if it's gonna matter. The people in charge of the system nowadays are the worst to expect to give a crap about anything.
Does the high powered gun need to be controlled better, hell yeah. I mean if my black ass wanted to go buy that gun at a place and I'm 31 so I could if I wanted to, there'd be questions raised about it that's for sure. One has to look at the racial difference here. If it's something that impacts whites and whoever, there's not going to be much change. If blacks were interested in purchasing the big guns and having rights to own it, yep there'd be some racially motivated barriers to getting it...
Fun world isn't it. I think about it sometimes... what the hell does society want from black people at all. Does the world give a crap about black freedom, black rights, etc... or is that all a technicality that came with the forging of the country in the first place after the founding fathers made a big whoop about freedom this freedom that...
I liked a tweet that I found hilarious on twitter. One of the stoneman douglas kids said that the only reason politicians are even listening at all to them is because they're mostly white kids. I guarantee if this was a majority black school or university they'd not give a fart about it... hell, when I think about it sad to say, probably 10 times worse than the stoneman high shooting takes place in black countries where war is common and schools are targeted. The world always ignores when that stuff happens, but when it happens to white schools, gotta do something.
I mean should black people care about protecting white schools from often white or whatever shooters?
It's like, well, if this shooter was black and rocked a few guns and blew away a bunch of black kids in a black school would the world give a shit?
It's not a march for black kid's lives when you get down to the truth, but I'm not gonna go there.... it's too complex a subject.
I hope EVERYBODY can go to school and enjoy it if they can. I rarely did though you survive school through the people who you can meet of like minds, that's about it.Other than that, I don't really care about school and if I have kids they won't be going. Nope. But I don't think I'll ever have them anyway so whatever.
I don't know if it's gonna matter. The people in charge of the system nowadays are the worst to expect to give a crap about anything.
Does the high powered gun need to be controlled better, hell yeah. I mean if my black ass wanted to go buy that gun at a place and I'm 31 so I could if I wanted to, there'd be questions raised about it that's for sure. One has to look at the racial difference here. If it's something that impacts whites and whoever, there's not going to be much change. If blacks were interested in purchasing the big guns and having rights to own it, yep there'd be some racially motivated barriers to getting it...
Fun world isn't it. I think about it sometimes... what the hell does society want from black people at all. Does the world give a crap about black freedom, black rights, etc... or is that all a technicality that came with the forging of the country in the first place after the founding fathers made a big whoop about freedom this freedom that...
I liked a tweet that I found hilarious on twitter. One of the stoneman douglas kids said that the only reason politicians are even listening at all to them is because they're mostly white kids. I guarantee if this was a majority black school or university they'd not give a fart about it... hell, when I think about it sad to say, probably 10 times worse than the stoneman high shooting takes place in black countries where war is common and schools are targeted. The world always ignores when that stuff happens, but when it happens to white schools, gotta do something.
I mean should black people care about protecting white schools from often white or whatever shooters?
It's like, well, if this shooter was black and rocked a few guns and blew away a bunch of black kids in a black school would the world give a shit?
It's not a march for black kid's lives when you get down to the truth, but I'm not gonna go there.... it's too complex a subject.
I hope EVERYBODY can go to school and enjoy it if they can. I rarely did though you survive school through the people who you can meet of like minds, that's about it.Other than that, I don't really care about school and if I have kids they won't be going. Nope. But I don't think I'll ever have them anyway so whatever.
Thursday, March 22, 2018
Changed things a bit
You may notice the few changes I made to the blog. F'n blog. I mean still trying to figure out if I care about doing this blog thing. It's helpful to some degree. It gives me a place to feel like I can get my shit out and express it rather than bottle it up. That's good... I can definitely see why people love doing Vlogs and blogs. It's a cathartic release of tension that helps you feel better about things to some extent.
It's not going to go on forever, I'm sure. I'm just dunno, confused I guess...
When I do these projects they mean something to ME, not much to anyone else and that's the way this thing's going to end up, so why bust my ass on it. I don't know...
Hell some guy with real money is making a serious static shock fan movie. Basically everything I'm doing and he's got real legit film making stuff, cameras, audio equipment, all of it. I've got budget poor bottom barrel scraps, and after effects...
Some insane stuff going on as usual. Will this spooty ridiculous circus of a presidency just end already? It's just sad, didn't expect the other side of life to be this dumb. I mean as a kid I thought, well life can't get worse than this, it's already terrible.
Well I was wrong, very freakin wrong...
I have this gif of miley cyrus dancing in michael jordan clothes and I think she's fun, so I put it up. I love gomer and put him up of course. I mean, I don't know, could put a few other funny gifs I have up too if I wanted. Got a lot of batman stuff. Considering my blog is a play on batman begins, might have been appropriate,, but whatever...
Thinking about it, does Miley even have an appreciation for Jordan or is she just aware of his fame and prestige, therefore capitalized off it for the music video. I never understood that. She was not around for Jordan in his prime as he murdered everyone who dared try to test him on the court. No she came into this world at least when Jordan was in his downward sputtle period when he was starting to kinda tarnish his legacy with the wizards.
It's kinda, anyway she's awkward little chick. I don't think she knows a damn thing about Jordan worth a bag of doritos. I was there. I watched epic games and even the mediocre lame ones, I watched TONS of Jordan. TONS. I mean, Jesus, to be alive to witness him do his thing, probably the best years of my life. To see people trying to pose as though they're real serious jordan fans wtf.... Is it real or are those people playing? Do you even know what that man did for the sport? For us blacks in this country and around the world? Don't know, but he's a lot more than tight booty shorts, girl...
As for the blue Raven symbol. That's my symbol, it's been with me since 8th grade. I designed it back then and it's never changed. It's of course based on batman's symbol and Sonic the hedgehog's head. My first drawing I ever did was a turtle. But the first time I really started to do drawing seriously was with sonic the hedgehog, I drew him all day back in the good ol 90s. So of course I decided to try and make a bird version of sonic then I realized hey this looks like an R. So now I do all my signiature like that. A bit of sonic to it... I for the life of me can't figure out why I never digitally created it until now. I thought I did. In fact, I did, it's here deep in the drive somewhere but f that I'm not going to go scrounging around for it. Took a bit of time but I got the curves down. It's something only I know how to do the proper proportions and style to the R symbol... Because it has to look alive... If it looks like a dead letter, it's not right. So I always add a bit of emotion to it. Plus the curves have to look like the bat symbol... that's where all that stuff comes from.
Alright, that's all.. time to dance like gomer and miley.
It's not going to go on forever, I'm sure. I'm just dunno, confused I guess...
When I do these projects they mean something to ME, not much to anyone else and that's the way this thing's going to end up, so why bust my ass on it. I don't know...
Hell some guy with real money is making a serious static shock fan movie. Basically everything I'm doing and he's got real legit film making stuff, cameras, audio equipment, all of it. I've got budget poor bottom barrel scraps, and after effects...
Some insane stuff going on as usual. Will this spooty ridiculous circus of a presidency just end already? It's just sad, didn't expect the other side of life to be this dumb. I mean as a kid I thought, well life can't get worse than this, it's already terrible.
Well I was wrong, very freakin wrong...
I have this gif of miley cyrus dancing in michael jordan clothes and I think she's fun, so I put it up. I love gomer and put him up of course. I mean, I don't know, could put a few other funny gifs I have up too if I wanted. Got a lot of batman stuff. Considering my blog is a play on batman begins, might have been appropriate,, but whatever...
Thinking about it, does Miley even have an appreciation for Jordan or is she just aware of his fame and prestige, therefore capitalized off it for the music video. I never understood that. She was not around for Jordan in his prime as he murdered everyone who dared try to test him on the court. No she came into this world at least when Jordan was in his downward sputtle period when he was starting to kinda tarnish his legacy with the wizards.
It's kinda, anyway she's awkward little chick. I don't think she knows a damn thing about Jordan worth a bag of doritos. I was there. I watched epic games and even the mediocre lame ones, I watched TONS of Jordan. TONS. I mean, Jesus, to be alive to witness him do his thing, probably the best years of my life. To see people trying to pose as though they're real serious jordan fans wtf.... Is it real or are those people playing? Do you even know what that man did for the sport? For us blacks in this country and around the world? Don't know, but he's a lot more than tight booty shorts, girl...
As for the blue Raven symbol. That's my symbol, it's been with me since 8th grade. I designed it back then and it's never changed. It's of course based on batman's symbol and Sonic the hedgehog's head. My first drawing I ever did was a turtle. But the first time I really started to do drawing seriously was with sonic the hedgehog, I drew him all day back in the good ol 90s. So of course I decided to try and make a bird version of sonic then I realized hey this looks like an R. So now I do all my signiature like that. A bit of sonic to it... I for the life of me can't figure out why I never digitally created it until now. I thought I did. In fact, I did, it's here deep in the drive somewhere but f that I'm not going to go scrounging around for it. Took a bit of time but I got the curves down. It's something only I know how to do the proper proportions and style to the R symbol... Because it has to look alive... If it looks like a dead letter, it's not right. So I always add a bit of emotion to it. Plus the curves have to look like the bat symbol... that's where all that stuff comes from.
Alright, that's all.. time to dance like gomer and miley.
Wednesday, March 21, 2018
Status report
Must not be getting adequate oxygen. No windows open, I can start to tell when I'm not getting good air, yunno. I start going insane... that's a clear sign.
What about the project. I think it's wise to set it aside for a day or two while I relax and just gather my thoughts on it.
I got it down to a point where I know what I want it to be and how I want to compose it using all the separate sections.
Only time will tell how this all fully materializes.
Did pretty good in battlefront today. I'm getting actually good at it and figuring it out though somethings buggy about my aiming. I can't aim straight as the damn thing just swings my view away for no reason I can figure out when I shoot a dude.
Just a big clusterfuck of a game sad to admit. It's not the best battlefront and we are still having to wait for that to come along, hopefully it does. It can't get any worse than what EA has done to it. Just can't.
Yeah. I mean, I'm truly spent. I guess I pushed myself too hard to edit and get things going, but I'm excited about where I'm going with the project. It could be good if all my footage actually works well after all is said and done,
could....
What about the project. I think it's wise to set it aside for a day or two while I relax and just gather my thoughts on it.
I got it down to a point where I know what I want it to be and how I want to compose it using all the separate sections.
Only time will tell how this all fully materializes.
Did pretty good in battlefront today. I'm getting actually good at it and figuring it out though somethings buggy about my aiming. I can't aim straight as the damn thing just swings my view away for no reason I can figure out when I shoot a dude.
Just a big clusterfuck of a game sad to admit. It's not the best battlefront and we are still having to wait for that to come along, hopefully it does. It can't get any worse than what EA has done to it. Just can't.
Yeah. I mean, I'm truly spent. I guess I pushed myself too hard to edit and get things going, but I'm excited about where I'm going with the project. It could be good if all my footage actually works well after all is said and done,
could....
Sunday, March 18, 2018
Working out the kinks
I'm forcing myself to edit the middle bits of the movie as I'm feeling like not bothering myself to do it, but I must and I know what it needs to be, so I have to really...
Got 2 shots completed that I thought I couldn't fix. I've been of course teaching myself the finer points of after effects. I've gotten more skilled at it so I wanted to redo a few of my older blue screen shots.
Let me tell you a little bout my ass, I'm an idiot. I know that better than most. So when I go searching for the original blue screen files, I can't find them, boom, they're gone to outer space, I'm stuck with my original stuff....
I then give up and figure I'll just use what I got.
So I on a whim just decide to look for all my old footage in my backup drive using the 1980 date. Yep my phone was accidentally set to 1980 so all my footage is dated that. Shocked and amazed, I found it, I f'n found it. Must have been transfered over when I backed up my files from my old laptop.
I was through the moon to find it. I think I've found all my old footage, only bits and pieces are still lost that I'm not gonna bother trying to find, the key stuff is still here, still got that.
But yeah, I was blown off my ass to have found it.
So what now, gotta redo the shot I originally did so poorly due to being so naive about After fx. There's shit you can do in after fx that is truly out of this world stuff, top level techniques I'll not be attempting but yeah I knew with my current level of knowledge I could improve the keying... I mean in thet original shot I lost my fingers as the program had a tough time keeping them in the shot. So using more advanced techniques, got my fingers back, such a stupid thing to be happy about, but I'm a dumb ass.
Well moreso I added some bits to kinda make it look less lame and now it actually kinda works and functions. I'm sure I can redo the whole thing and get it to be perfect but I'm not, f that.
I just struggled to redo another shot completely from scratch instead of focusing on one part of the video and it was a horror show. Been rendering that again and again and ultimately just said screw it and am going to just go with the last render as is, not going to dedicate my life to this stuff.
What a sad twisted bastard I am to be f'n struggling to get this project finished. I mean I just want it to be over so bad...
It's good though. I mean, I know my shit when it comes to making movies, it's got style, coolness, the works. It'll be worth the trouble.
Got 2 shots completed that I thought I couldn't fix. I've been of course teaching myself the finer points of after effects. I've gotten more skilled at it so I wanted to redo a few of my older blue screen shots.
Let me tell you a little bout my ass, I'm an idiot. I know that better than most. So when I go searching for the original blue screen files, I can't find them, boom, they're gone to outer space, I'm stuck with my original stuff....
I then give up and figure I'll just use what I got.
So I on a whim just decide to look for all my old footage in my backup drive using the 1980 date. Yep my phone was accidentally set to 1980 so all my footage is dated that. Shocked and amazed, I found it, I f'n found it. Must have been transfered over when I backed up my files from my old laptop.
I was through the moon to find it. I think I've found all my old footage, only bits and pieces are still lost that I'm not gonna bother trying to find, the key stuff is still here, still got that.
But yeah, I was blown off my ass to have found it.
So what now, gotta redo the shot I originally did so poorly due to being so naive about After fx. There's shit you can do in after fx that is truly out of this world stuff, top level techniques I'll not be attempting but yeah I knew with my current level of knowledge I could improve the keying... I mean in thet original shot I lost my fingers as the program had a tough time keeping them in the shot. So using more advanced techniques, got my fingers back, such a stupid thing to be happy about, but I'm a dumb ass.
Well moreso I added some bits to kinda make it look less lame and now it actually kinda works and functions. I'm sure I can redo the whole thing and get it to be perfect but I'm not, f that.
I just struggled to redo another shot completely from scratch instead of focusing on one part of the video and it was a horror show. Been rendering that again and again and ultimately just said screw it and am going to just go with the last render as is, not going to dedicate my life to this stuff.
What a sad twisted bastard I am to be f'n struggling to get this project finished. I mean I just want it to be over so bad...
It's good though. I mean, I know my shit when it comes to making movies, it's got style, coolness, the works. It'll be worth the trouble.
Saturday, March 17, 2018
Finally watched XXX3
Just didn't feel like watching it to be honest... I knew what it was going to be... and it didn't surpass my expectations in the least. It was prettymuch the same as the first though the first of course actually felt fresh and fun. I was there, I was a bored guy back then decided to see this movie named after porn whatever the f this is, and had a blast...
Thought it was a great little twist on the james bond stuff, having a criminal take on criminals...
The funny thing is that when xxx came out it wasn't marketed or even thought of as more than a mindless silly action flick Diesel did besides his main movies....
It was kinda hard to stomach him in XXX3 he's not xander anymore. He's Vin Diesel pretending to be Xander, but in the first movie he's full Xander 100% Literally watch the movie, there's moments when Vin is not acting. He's playing himself... he just doesn't give a crap about the movie. He's done with xxx and rightfully decided to move beyond it...
It's like Jackie Chan coming back to do a sequel late as hell to rumble in the bronx. It'd be like, well... damn, you're getting kinda old to do this anymore.
Xxx3 wasn't made because it had to be made and we needed it, it was made cuz Vin's getting older and there's not going to be much chance to make it...
I don't know.... the ending is what made me feel off about the movie. I don't mind Gibbons (spoilers ) faking his own death and then walking in to watch his own funeral.. but is he just going to let the people who miss and love him just think he's dead? It just made no sense...
Maybe I'm missing something, but then again xxx was never a film that you gave much thought to or wanted to watch again really. It was a light popcorn munching stupid fun film.
This one was awkward. They toss so much stuff into the movie, none of the characters have an ounce of depth, it's just a bunch of actors having a party and literally one of the characters is a dj and just dj's the party that the actors attend. Jesus, at least give us a good story or yunno what continue the story from the first movie, catch up with that girl xxx got with in the end. She's gone, we learn nothing about her. It's like they didn't bother watching the first before making this late nothing sequel. Literally no body from that movie comes back besides sam and vin. That sucks cuz the side characters were pretty good in xxx.... ugh such a frustrating sequel.
Ruby Rose is excellent in it. Truly steals every single scene she's in. I was hoping she'd take over the movie and make it her own, but she wasn't allowed. Goddamn she's a freaking fairy from heaven or something, so otherworldly, one of those girls if you know what I mean.
Nothing special. I mean a million action movies all did what this movie did and better. Con Air this is not... Don't hope for that... more like heh, I guess xx2 though I never actually saw that one. But yeah one would hope by now Vin is above DTV type of action movies, guess he doesn't give a damn as long as it gets his son't tuition paid. I mean that's something to think about. Who did he make this movie for? The first xxx was made for me, my gen going through high school, they pumped out hot sexy action movies like clockwork back then. xxx made sense. who's xxx3 for? Can't be for the fans of the first. It's too damn late for that... I think Vin wanted to answer a question he himself had that nagged him, what happens next for xander? Now we know, not much.... he's back where he started at the end of the film and nothing that happened in the movie mattered.
We learn xander's a pretty boring guy decades after the first movie, he's older, slower, hasn't grown or gotten a family, nothing, still living in the x-games era all by himself... and that's kinda a let down...
Thought it was a great little twist on the james bond stuff, having a criminal take on criminals...
The funny thing is that when xxx came out it wasn't marketed or even thought of as more than a mindless silly action flick Diesel did besides his main movies....
It was kinda hard to stomach him in XXX3 he's not xander anymore. He's Vin Diesel pretending to be Xander, but in the first movie he's full Xander 100% Literally watch the movie, there's moments when Vin is not acting. He's playing himself... he just doesn't give a crap about the movie. He's done with xxx and rightfully decided to move beyond it...
It's like Jackie Chan coming back to do a sequel late as hell to rumble in the bronx. It'd be like, well... damn, you're getting kinda old to do this anymore.
Xxx3 wasn't made because it had to be made and we needed it, it was made cuz Vin's getting older and there's not going to be much chance to make it...
I don't know.... the ending is what made me feel off about the movie. I don't mind Gibbons (spoilers ) faking his own death and then walking in to watch his own funeral.. but is he just going to let the people who miss and love him just think he's dead? It just made no sense...
Maybe I'm missing something, but then again xxx was never a film that you gave much thought to or wanted to watch again really. It was a light popcorn munching stupid fun film.
This one was awkward. They toss so much stuff into the movie, none of the characters have an ounce of depth, it's just a bunch of actors having a party and literally one of the characters is a dj and just dj's the party that the actors attend. Jesus, at least give us a good story or yunno what continue the story from the first movie, catch up with that girl xxx got with in the end. She's gone, we learn nothing about her. It's like they didn't bother watching the first before making this late nothing sequel. Literally no body from that movie comes back besides sam and vin. That sucks cuz the side characters were pretty good in xxx.... ugh such a frustrating sequel.
Ruby Rose is excellent in it. Truly steals every single scene she's in. I was hoping she'd take over the movie and make it her own, but she wasn't allowed. Goddamn she's a freaking fairy from heaven or something, so otherworldly, one of those girls if you know what I mean.
Nothing special. I mean a million action movies all did what this movie did and better. Con Air this is not... Don't hope for that... more like heh, I guess xx2 though I never actually saw that one. But yeah one would hope by now Vin is above DTV type of action movies, guess he doesn't give a damn as long as it gets his son't tuition paid. I mean that's something to think about. Who did he make this movie for? The first xxx was made for me, my gen going through high school, they pumped out hot sexy action movies like clockwork back then. xxx made sense. who's xxx3 for? Can't be for the fans of the first. It's too damn late for that... I think Vin wanted to answer a question he himself had that nagged him, what happens next for xander? Now we know, not much.... he's back where he started at the end of the film and nothing that happened in the movie mattered.
We learn xander's a pretty boring guy decades after the first movie, he's older, slower, hasn't grown or gotten a family, nothing, still living in the x-games era all by himself... and that's kinda a let down...
Friday, March 16, 2018
Editing
Like ripping off a bandaid it is...
Let me tell ya. Was struggling to edit and yunno it's not that this scene is hard. Nailing the flow and feel of the forest battle was a mountain to climb but I knew how it was supposed to work and that guided me as I struggled to fit the pieces to the puzzle. Came out pretty good. Needs to be tightened up but whatever.
Now I'm battling with a new beast and that's the bit before we get to the good stuff of static getting his bearings and developing his super hero stuff and damn... didn't see how tough it would be. I'm driven to get it done, sure, but it's not as simple as I hoped it was gonna be. Like I want to add things and I don't know if I shot the stuff or not for it, sadly my idiotic idea to just not organize my files has lead to this lack of knowing what I got...
And I cut my hair so even if I wanted to reshoot the scene I couldn't, heh...
But this is my job now I guess. I mean this is all I do, all I have and I'm struggling with it as if it were a crappy job like so many out there...
If I had to do something with my time I'd rather it be this film and editing, yeah. When I think about it, nothing better in the world than crafting a decent movie.
Just such a pain. Yeesh. I'm losing my mind right now worrying about whether this is going to work since I've never editing something this big before...
It'll be ok. Just keep plugging away at it.. that'll be enough.
When it's all over then what... not a damn clue.... just lost on that one.... kinda have nothing left but my movie don't I...
Let me tell ya. Was struggling to edit and yunno it's not that this scene is hard. Nailing the flow and feel of the forest battle was a mountain to climb but I knew how it was supposed to work and that guided me as I struggled to fit the pieces to the puzzle. Came out pretty good. Needs to be tightened up but whatever.
Now I'm battling with a new beast and that's the bit before we get to the good stuff of static getting his bearings and developing his super hero stuff and damn... didn't see how tough it would be. I'm driven to get it done, sure, but it's not as simple as I hoped it was gonna be. Like I want to add things and I don't know if I shot the stuff or not for it, sadly my idiotic idea to just not organize my files has lead to this lack of knowing what I got...
And I cut my hair so even if I wanted to reshoot the scene I couldn't, heh...
But this is my job now I guess. I mean this is all I do, all I have and I'm struggling with it as if it were a crappy job like so many out there...
If I had to do something with my time I'd rather it be this film and editing, yeah. When I think about it, nothing better in the world than crafting a decent movie.
Just such a pain. Yeesh. I'm losing my mind right now worrying about whether this is going to work since I've never editing something this big before...
It'll be ok. Just keep plugging away at it.. that'll be enough.
When it's all over then what... not a damn clue.... just lost on that one.... kinda have nothing left but my movie don't I...
Bout to play Battlefront
Why announce it? Don't know, just feel like it right now. I mean back when I played battlefront on my ps2 back in the old days, has it been that long, am I really pushing 32? Well I was playing tons of matches and played religiously. Here I sit and I have this new one and yeah I feel like I'm home again. Truth about me is that I can live in star wars all day, I really can. I love it that much. I read the books, played all the games, of course was seeing the films. It's about going to a better place than here for me, always has been, yeah...
I'm getting better at it anyway... Yunno what would be neat, if I could live out the rest of my life being a lando cosplayer down in star wars Land. That'd be the perfect destiny for me... It'd make everything I've done in my whole life make sense.... it would be the final perfect note to a song that was my long tumultuous existence.
Well also wanted to talk about the work I've been doing. I've been roto scoping pain stakingly my head for the last how many hours since I got up and had breakfast. So word to the wise, never ever green screen half assed. Full green screen or you'll end up in my position. It was so ugh bone crushing to get through it all, but the shot's not bad... it'll fit my ideas to put in a reason as to why static starts to fall from the sky....
Yeah buddy, this is an epic project. I think I'll get a decent amount of views once it comes out on Solo's release.
Will I make release? Ha ha ha ha, I hope so... I've just about jumped the toughest fx work hurdle right now. That scene was difficult since it demanded me to have so much happening and of course the footage I used was tough to make sync since it kept moving awkwardly.... and of course yunno what was toughest about it, keeping my head roto'd properly in frame decent enough, jesus.
I'm tired beyond belief right now. Don't even want to look at the project and just play some BF and die a thousand times while getting no where with the game, that's all I want right now..
I'm getting better at it anyway... Yunno what would be neat, if I could live out the rest of my life being a lando cosplayer down in star wars Land. That'd be the perfect destiny for me... It'd make everything I've done in my whole life make sense.... it would be the final perfect note to a song that was my long tumultuous existence.
Well also wanted to talk about the work I've been doing. I've been roto scoping pain stakingly my head for the last how many hours since I got up and had breakfast. So word to the wise, never ever green screen half assed. Full green screen or you'll end up in my position. It was so ugh bone crushing to get through it all, but the shot's not bad... it'll fit my ideas to put in a reason as to why static starts to fall from the sky....
Yeah buddy, this is an epic project. I think I'll get a decent amount of views once it comes out on Solo's release.
Will I make release? Ha ha ha ha, I hope so... I've just about jumped the toughest fx work hurdle right now. That scene was difficult since it demanded me to have so much happening and of course the footage I used was tough to make sync since it kept moving awkwardly.... and of course yunno what was toughest about it, keeping my head roto'd properly in frame decent enough, jesus.
I'm tired beyond belief right now. Don't even want to look at the project and just play some BF and die a thousand times while getting no where with the game, that's all I want right now..
Wednesday, March 14, 2018
Star Wars in my blood
I don't know what it is, looking exactly like Billy Dee, just my love for the films, dunno but I'm innately connected to star wars and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I'm glad the series is continuing but it's not been without bumps and awkward decisions no least to mention constant behind the scenes drama.
Say whatever you want about the prequels but one thing was clear, there was no one else's hand in the mix, it was one man's stern straight forward vision and not the star wars of today a mixed bag of trail mix.
Above all, star wars needs vision, it's what makes it work otherwise it's just like every other scifi space fighter movie.
Been playing the new battlefront. It's at times amazing, other times just a spawn and die fest since there's no balance to the game. You at rank 3 or whatever will be matched against vets who've been playing since launch and have the best layout. So you don't get to live very long.
I became sick of that so despite my interest in getting deeper in the game I ended up quitting, it's just going to be more of the same from the other battlefronts and it's still inferior to the old ps2 battlefronts which got it right, it's about warfare on epic scale, not rpg elements, or tokens, or gaining weapons through a menu credit system that's unrealistically expensive. If you find a tank, you got a tank. Jesus what this game would have been had they actually done what disney wanted and made Battlefield into star wars. Jesus.
Instead they tried to be clever about it...
So it came out like this weird concoction of ideas and scraps of stuff. No time to accumulate the credits needed and even if you do, no time to play as a top tier character... well done?
They tried to re-invent the wheel and instead designed a warped version of it that sucks.
But it's my life, this star wars stuff, have no choice but to play it and hope the next one isn't awful and actually gets things right. Strange also, there's no capture the flag mode or cargo like in the other one, wtf happened? They really just wanted the money. I mean people can defend EA/Dice all night, but they did try to make the game pay to win. They did release yet another unbalanced glitchy mess that was needing further patches and updates to make it better, and seemingly haven't even fully finished the single player campaign yet, which I don't know if i want to play but since Billy Dee is Lando in it, I'm obligated really...
As for my project. It's coming together, just did some extensive fx work to remove a fishing line, and did what I could to make this scene where ugh my shirt doesn't line up with the next shot properly so it took me at least a few hours to figure out how to make it look near seamless by fading it subtly while cuting and pasting in elements from the later part of the vid to make it not so jarring a jump cut. I know about morphing a shot, studied it for a good long while, but never figured out how to do it, so this was my best bet and it came out perfect... No more odd jump cut...
I mean that's just how I roll, my goal is to make this look a real and good as I can. It will be hard, but my vision is driving this project forward and it'll be great if it all works upon completion.
I'm glad the series is continuing but it's not been without bumps and awkward decisions no least to mention constant behind the scenes drama.
Say whatever you want about the prequels but one thing was clear, there was no one else's hand in the mix, it was one man's stern straight forward vision and not the star wars of today a mixed bag of trail mix.
Above all, star wars needs vision, it's what makes it work otherwise it's just like every other scifi space fighter movie.
Been playing the new battlefront. It's at times amazing, other times just a spawn and die fest since there's no balance to the game. You at rank 3 or whatever will be matched against vets who've been playing since launch and have the best layout. So you don't get to live very long.
I became sick of that so despite my interest in getting deeper in the game I ended up quitting, it's just going to be more of the same from the other battlefronts and it's still inferior to the old ps2 battlefronts which got it right, it's about warfare on epic scale, not rpg elements, or tokens, or gaining weapons through a menu credit system that's unrealistically expensive. If you find a tank, you got a tank. Jesus what this game would have been had they actually done what disney wanted and made Battlefield into star wars. Jesus.
Instead they tried to be clever about it...
So it came out like this weird concoction of ideas and scraps of stuff. No time to accumulate the credits needed and even if you do, no time to play as a top tier character... well done?
They tried to re-invent the wheel and instead designed a warped version of it that sucks.
But it's my life, this star wars stuff, have no choice but to play it and hope the next one isn't awful and actually gets things right. Strange also, there's no capture the flag mode or cargo like in the other one, wtf happened? They really just wanted the money. I mean people can defend EA/Dice all night, but they did try to make the game pay to win. They did release yet another unbalanced glitchy mess that was needing further patches and updates to make it better, and seemingly haven't even fully finished the single player campaign yet, which I don't know if i want to play but since Billy Dee is Lando in it, I'm obligated really...
As for my project. It's coming together, just did some extensive fx work to remove a fishing line, and did what I could to make this scene where ugh my shirt doesn't line up with the next shot properly so it took me at least a few hours to figure out how to make it look near seamless by fading it subtly while cuting and pasting in elements from the later part of the vid to make it not so jarring a jump cut. I know about morphing a shot, studied it for a good long while, but never figured out how to do it, so this was my best bet and it came out perfect... No more odd jump cut...
I mean that's just how I roll, my goal is to make this look a real and good as I can. It will be hard, but my vision is driving this project forward and it'll be great if it all works upon completion.
Sunday, March 11, 2018
Continuing mission
Sigh, here I stand looking out at the great unknown...
Hate this aspect of the creative process, I think all of us artistically gifted people do. That moment of uncertainty... it's always difficult to push through that point and indeed it is for all of us, that fear of the unknown is just the worst...
But fuck it. That's all I'm going to say on it. I mean, that's life, get going or don't, who cares. Fuck it...
Going to make this movie and finish the fx work and release it and if it gets no one's interest and means nothing, I don't give a shit, I'll have done what I set out to do.
kinda related to star trek isn't it. That's all star trek is, venturing into the unknown again and again, and kinda leaning towards that side of crazy that allows someone to walk into a dark room not knowing what's in it...
These are the voyages...
Hate this aspect of the creative process, I think all of us artistically gifted people do. That moment of uncertainty... it's always difficult to push through that point and indeed it is for all of us, that fear of the unknown is just the worst...
But fuck it. That's all I'm going to say on it. I mean, that's life, get going or don't, who cares. Fuck it...
Going to make this movie and finish the fx work and release it and if it gets no one's interest and means nothing, I don't give a shit, I'll have done what I set out to do.
kinda related to star trek isn't it. That's all star trek is, venturing into the unknown again and again, and kinda leaning towards that side of crazy that allows someone to walk into a dark room not knowing what's in it...
These are the voyages...
Friday, March 9, 2018
Saw Black Panther
How refreshing... felt like a movie that was made on planet earth where yunno, there's quite a few black people knocking around on it..
Besides breaking open that barrier that's still a prominent issue, it was actually damn good. I mean reviews for it online don't really do the movie justice. It's f'n actually seat gripping fun fantastic film, better than all those little other marvel films that have come and gone. I actually was grooving to this movie. Needed more actually. You can tell they cut tons of stuff for time so the movie just bull dozes through its story, but what we have isn't just a rushed crappy typical super hero movie and that's really what's remarkable. For such a massive film it keeps a stern focus on the core story and doesn't waver, doesn't go into bs we don't need, just stays focused and keeps us going till we get to its end which is not a happy ending for either hero or villain... nice start to the black panther series, here's hoping for more.
Does this mean we'll get actual focus on pushing black characters into cinemas now instead of the billionth white guy with problems movie? Tough to say...
Black Panther's a movie that I've seen before, it didn't feel like oh so damn new and different to me, I've seen City of God, seen He got Game, Boys N the Hood, hell... Friday, I mean I've watched black movies all my childhood, I suppose people are finally discovering black movies are kinda actually an interesting little genre of films because they're not about the typical cookie cut out copy paste white kid hero journey harry potter story. They're about black people and our bizarre ass view of the world instead... and that actually lends itself to the fantasy genre very well. Black life is like a damn fantasy or so most of us wish it was anyway...
Very big ass damn question mark right now about whether this movie changed the game or just kinda made a small insignificant dent in it. I can see people wanting to see more sexy black girls on the big screen now though, that was some good stuff.
Anyway, whatever happens next happens. But good job, wonderful and powerful film that made me want to go to Africa for once and actually BE a black person not just this mulatto hispanic looking black guy. That's truly something I never got from black films much, it's there but it's not in your face really... just kinda on the edges..., that sense of black heritage. It's kinda been recaptured with this movie to some degree and that's something noteworthy.
Besides breaking open that barrier that's still a prominent issue, it was actually damn good. I mean reviews for it online don't really do the movie justice. It's f'n actually seat gripping fun fantastic film, better than all those little other marvel films that have come and gone. I actually was grooving to this movie. Needed more actually. You can tell they cut tons of stuff for time so the movie just bull dozes through its story, but what we have isn't just a rushed crappy typical super hero movie and that's really what's remarkable. For such a massive film it keeps a stern focus on the core story and doesn't waver, doesn't go into bs we don't need, just stays focused and keeps us going till we get to its end which is not a happy ending for either hero or villain... nice start to the black panther series, here's hoping for more.
Does this mean we'll get actual focus on pushing black characters into cinemas now instead of the billionth white guy with problems movie? Tough to say...
Black Panther's a movie that I've seen before, it didn't feel like oh so damn new and different to me, I've seen City of God, seen He got Game, Boys N the Hood, hell... Friday, I mean I've watched black movies all my childhood, I suppose people are finally discovering black movies are kinda actually an interesting little genre of films because they're not about the typical cookie cut out copy paste white kid hero journey harry potter story. They're about black people and our bizarre ass view of the world instead... and that actually lends itself to the fantasy genre very well. Black life is like a damn fantasy or so most of us wish it was anyway...
Very big ass damn question mark right now about whether this movie changed the game or just kinda made a small insignificant dent in it. I can see people wanting to see more sexy black girls on the big screen now though, that was some good stuff.
Anyway, whatever happens next happens. But good job, wonderful and powerful film that made me want to go to Africa for once and actually BE a black person not just this mulatto hispanic looking black guy. That's truly something I never got from black films much, it's there but it's not in your face really... just kinda on the edges..., that sense of black heritage. It's kinda been recaptured with this movie to some degree and that's something noteworthy.
Thursday, March 8, 2018
Decided to share it...
I guess it gives away the joke of the scene... but honestly who cares. I worked hard on it and I want to show it off now.
It's a bit of a sore spot for me though because I initially did a cut of it to the whole space jam music and it synced up and was nice to watch. Then I edited it to smooth it out and get it to fit my newer ideas for it and wanted to preserve my first version of it, then I in a quick thoughtless move hit save and for all eternity I'll never see the first ever version of this scene... just like that. That's the drama of editing or any kind of computer stuff. Unreliable and wonky and just everything is final with computers, there's no reverse some times, practically all times. It just is a cold brutal thing when a computer freezes or cuts out after you busted your ass on something. The pain I've gone through losing projects, just unbearable... soul gutting stuff.
well here's how this scene will go...
https://youtu.be/c7VGGrfOsRA
It's a bit of a sore spot for me though because I initially did a cut of it to the whole space jam music and it synced up and was nice to watch. Then I edited it to smooth it out and get it to fit my newer ideas for it and wanted to preserve my first version of it, then I in a quick thoughtless move hit save and for all eternity I'll never see the first ever version of this scene... just like that. That's the drama of editing or any kind of computer stuff. Unreliable and wonky and just everything is final with computers, there's no reverse some times, practically all times. It just is a cold brutal thing when a computer freezes or cuts out after you busted your ass on something. The pain I've gone through losing projects, just unbearable... soul gutting stuff.
well here's how this scene will go...
https://youtu.be/c7VGGrfOsRA
Jon Favreau will helm the star wars tv show
Why not Frank Oz or Hamill even. Too old? I guess, Jon's cool decent choice. He's not going to really bring anything amazing or mind blowing to the table, that's my only issue.
Well, still here if you need Lando, though I can kinda see where they're going with this. Since he's worked with Glover on Lion King and has pocketed a lot of bread for disney over the years, they'll likely be happy to have Glover reprise his Lando for cameos or regular appearances on the show... whatever..
that all hinges on the reception of Solo, if it kills it or falls flat. We'll see. I'm just going to say I'm here, I'll do it, sign me up if you want a lando who's actually a match for Billy Dee.
Well, still here if you need Lando, though I can kinda see where they're going with this. Since he's worked with Glover on Lion King and has pocketed a lot of bread for disney over the years, they'll likely be happy to have Glover reprise his Lando for cameos or regular appearances on the show... whatever..
that all hinges on the reception of Solo, if it kills it or falls flat. We'll see. I'm just going to say I'm here, I'll do it, sign me up if you want a lando who's actually a match for Billy Dee.
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
Bout to get interesting
Buckle up. Not only have I now downloaded battlefront and will be fully getting deep into the game and becoming an elite player, but I'm ready to finish this damn movie that's been delayed forever.
As an artist, I guess I'm a little crazy. It's driving me personally somewhat mad to keep dreaming of finishing this project, but that's me, OCD bastard. Indeed that's my condition, to not complete it wouldn't make sense to me at least right now.
Gonna get deep with it, bull dose through a giant rough cut of the stuff I need, then go see black panther on friday.
I want to support black panther because it's just the way things are. If blacks had equal footing in the cinematic world, I probably would just bootleg it and not give a toss about it. I didn't give two spits about Spidey homecoming, but yeah... there aren't any black supey movies. And I don't see why not. There's a wealth of opportunity to use black art, black life, whatever to create great movies and characters. It's gone too long not recognizing black people as potentially worthy of inclusion in the world of high cinema.
Look at me... struggling to knock out this static shock movie. I'm 31 years old. All things considered I should have a budget, the means, and all the necessary tools to make a big classy nice live action static shock, but yeah see what I'm saying. Things like Black Panther are opening that door. Studios will likely now take a static movie into consideration. People will see a super hero movie with a black lead... it's possible. And I know about Hancock, but that wasn't about a super hero, it was more a parody or whatever the f that movie was. I mean an established character...
Snowing like hell right now, glad I stayed in today. Gonna not do a damn thing, f going out in this weather.
Alright, time to begrudgingly do this mountain of work I'm looking at right now...
As an artist, I guess I'm a little crazy. It's driving me personally somewhat mad to keep dreaming of finishing this project, but that's me, OCD bastard. Indeed that's my condition, to not complete it wouldn't make sense to me at least right now.
Gonna get deep with it, bull dose through a giant rough cut of the stuff I need, then go see black panther on friday.
I want to support black panther because it's just the way things are. If blacks had equal footing in the cinematic world, I probably would just bootleg it and not give a toss about it. I didn't give two spits about Spidey homecoming, but yeah... there aren't any black supey movies. And I don't see why not. There's a wealth of opportunity to use black art, black life, whatever to create great movies and characters. It's gone too long not recognizing black people as potentially worthy of inclusion in the world of high cinema.
Look at me... struggling to knock out this static shock movie. I'm 31 years old. All things considered I should have a budget, the means, and all the necessary tools to make a big classy nice live action static shock, but yeah see what I'm saying. Things like Black Panther are opening that door. Studios will likely now take a static movie into consideration. People will see a super hero movie with a black lead... it's possible. And I know about Hancock, but that wasn't about a super hero, it was more a parody or whatever the f that movie was. I mean an established character...
Snowing like hell right now, glad I stayed in today. Gonna not do a damn thing, f going out in this weather.
Alright, time to begrudgingly do this mountain of work I'm looking at right now...
Tuesday, March 6, 2018
well that's that
What was that, like 2 days of straight work on this one scene... good grief...
I'm out, gonna try to make sense of this and rough cut it today then fine tune it tomorrow...
That's 1 down 5 to go before this is over, but this scene was particularly difficult because it was such a pain to figure out how to get the shots to look right and what I dreaded happening actually did, I did not fully green screen myself due to the lack of equipment to keep the green screen set up high above me. So of course the result was me having to painstakingly rotoscope my head to fit the scenes as all was there was a big chunk of the sky behind me which I stupidly thought I would just let blend in with the sky as it is... no, didn't work out that way. Frame by frame, had to move the mask points to keep things somewhat decent and it still came out crap...
I'm just done with the heavy lifting. The little touch ups and fine tuning is all that's needed and maybe I can edit it cleverly enough to not even use most of the awfully green screened footage. I strive for realism with these things and when they don't work, yeah sucks...
But it was like just endless and I hated doing this shit. It will be a good gag in the final film so I'm hoping for it to work, what do I know...
Now comes the rest of the editing... I got 5 more sequences to do... They are not going to be as intense as this, that's the only good part about it. I will still be doing some flying stuff as of course static will be flying through all kinds of stuff and I hope my green screens I've captured will not look too shitty. But yunno, at least it's just a cut and paste and light it scenario. No adding other crap or attemtping to craft a shot I have no business trying to do, it's just going to be what I know is not impossible for me...
damn
I'm out, gonna try to make sense of this and rough cut it today then fine tune it tomorrow...
That's 1 down 5 to go before this is over, but this scene was particularly difficult because it was such a pain to figure out how to get the shots to look right and what I dreaded happening actually did, I did not fully green screen myself due to the lack of equipment to keep the green screen set up high above me. So of course the result was me having to painstakingly rotoscope my head to fit the scenes as all was there was a big chunk of the sky behind me which I stupidly thought I would just let blend in with the sky as it is... no, didn't work out that way. Frame by frame, had to move the mask points to keep things somewhat decent and it still came out crap...
I'm just done with the heavy lifting. The little touch ups and fine tuning is all that's needed and maybe I can edit it cleverly enough to not even use most of the awfully green screened footage. I strive for realism with these things and when they don't work, yeah sucks...
But it was like just endless and I hated doing this shit. It will be a good gag in the final film so I'm hoping for it to work, what do I know...
Now comes the rest of the editing... I got 5 more sequences to do... They are not going to be as intense as this, that's the only good part about it. I will still be doing some flying stuff as of course static will be flying through all kinds of stuff and I hope my green screens I've captured will not look too shitty. But yunno, at least it's just a cut and paste and light it scenario. No adding other crap or attemtping to craft a shot I have no business trying to do, it's just going to be what I know is not impossible for me...
damn
Hardly working
My preferred way to operate honestly...
Internet is just a busy world isn't, always stuff going on. I can see why people take vacations from it. It's just too much info, too fast, too crazy. It's like being in a mental hospital, which I've been to once back in the good ol days.... interesting time. Well, when you do go to a mental ward, every day is a mystery and you never know when the hell it's all going to go to shit and you get surprised by something new or bad or whatever. It's like being back in that situation, the web. I mean, every single day there's a new doomsday end of the world hyperbolic thing to bitch about to the world online...
Just chill. It's bad in the world, I know, but don't blast that news every day.... every... day...
You ain't going to change nuthin.
Which is why I like watching Jim Lee's art streams and stuff. Just a pro peacefully working on a page or something while giving advice to other artists. It's actually what the internet could be, a mini-pocket university where pros work and collaborate on projects and give tips... what a concept.
Not this whirlwind of BS horrible news about what's happening in the dark parts of the world as is the norm.
I'm not saying I want to live in a bubble or safe space, but I don't want to live in hell either constantly. Balance, that's the key.
Working on my own project and it's a goddamn beast to figure out how to do something I thought would be easy as pie, but it's tougher than I hoped it'd be. Falling through the sky with cloud rushing by. It's very very tough to get it right, but I'm not going to give up on it... just stressed out by the constant failures to get the shot to look ok...
Internet is just a busy world isn't, always stuff going on. I can see why people take vacations from it. It's just too much info, too fast, too crazy. It's like being in a mental hospital, which I've been to once back in the good ol days.... interesting time. Well, when you do go to a mental ward, every day is a mystery and you never know when the hell it's all going to go to shit and you get surprised by something new or bad or whatever. It's like being back in that situation, the web. I mean, every single day there's a new doomsday end of the world hyperbolic thing to bitch about to the world online...
Just chill. It's bad in the world, I know, but don't blast that news every day.... every... day...
You ain't going to change nuthin.
Which is why I like watching Jim Lee's art streams and stuff. Just a pro peacefully working on a page or something while giving advice to other artists. It's actually what the internet could be, a mini-pocket university where pros work and collaborate on projects and give tips... what a concept.
Not this whirlwind of BS horrible news about what's happening in the dark parts of the world as is the norm.
I'm not saying I want to live in a bubble or safe space, but I don't want to live in hell either constantly. Balance, that's the key.
Working on my own project and it's a goddamn beast to figure out how to do something I thought would be easy as pie, but it's tougher than I hoped it'd be. Falling through the sky with cloud rushing by. It's very very tough to get it right, but I'm not going to give up on it... just stressed out by the constant failures to get the shot to look ok...
Sunday, March 4, 2018
About the Solo plagiarism
As much as some online quasi-lawyers are trying desperately to spin it as being a major coincidence, NO IT'S NOT. Disney is plagiarizing an artist's work for the han solo movie posters:
This one dude on facebook is defending the solo posters with a passion as if he's got personal stake in them. It's like someone trying to argue the world is flat and being totally serious about it. Gotta love internet keyboard spinners. Eating a pack of cheetos and kicking ass online as is the damn norm.
What do I think. I'm done with this movie. This tears it. I was struggling with wether to see it. With whether it was going to surprise me and be more than a cash grab. It is.
It's just going to be a bland, ron howard on cruise control movie...
He doesn't care about it. But he sure knows the business and money comes first, always has, always will. Why should I see this movie then? What's in it for me as a fan?
If they don't give a toss about the fans, then don't pander to us and hope we show up, only to try to weasel money out of us like this.
You jackasses got caught... that's too bad. I was hoping this would be a fun time at the movies.
Saturday, March 3, 2018
The pain is real
I may be lazy but never say I don't at least try sometimes.
It's been interesting working on this scene. Haven't even gotten to the hard part yet. I can chroma key myself into shots, that's not hard, creating an illusion of falling through the scene, oh boy...
Gonna seriously tackle it tomorrow. I have to learn patience and do this stuff slow and carefully not blow my brain out struggling with it like I've been taught to do in school.
Isn't that the bullshit? you get it drilled into your head as a kid that life is over if you don't rush through stuff, but of course rushing is the primary reason things aren't done well and suck. This society's too afraid of patience and possibility of delays. so dumb.
Yep. It's gonna take a while to kinda figure out how to approach this shot but if I do it right it'll be fun fantastic stuff. This is basically what happens when you don't have money and try to make a movie. It takes forever to do....
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