Saturday, February 26, 2011

You're a dime a dozen

what some huge tittied beautiful blonde airforce tech Sargent or some shit told me...

Ummmm.... no I'm not. I'm a nerd, a black nerd. We don't come in abundance. I think my way through things, utilize knowledge before taking action, plan ahead etc...

As evinced by my recent run-in with some low-life idiots who wanted to steal my bike and threatened to kick my ass over it, good luck finding males who give a fuck about anything intelligent.

which brings me to geohot's point, that you may hate him and his hacking hobby, but yes, he's going to change the world or someone like him will, not the common everyday dummy.

That's no excuse for breaking laws and stuff, no, but he's right to feel a sense of being above certain levels of persecution because he's earned it. There REALLY are not that many people who can bust ass at coding computers like he can, and businesses are struggling to find them, no doubt. They're like musicians or any highly skilled people. Probably similarly trained since childhood to hone their craft until they became experts, and when the time comes, who ya gonna call to do the job? HIM. And he knows that...

Working at low level jobs at delta, swissport, etc... you see people on the last rung of the ladder before poverty, struggling to make ends meet. Tech ops guys etc, they're the rare ones you don't see much off, not as much as the bone-heads who lift luggage all day. Do the math, which ones are going to be easily replaceable?

As for his thoughts on the ps3 itself being created by former-hackers, again, he's right about that no doubt. I see kids all the time, who doesn't... but yeah, when I see a kid playing with his toys, you know what I really see? A video-game programmer, a movie director, a writer, a potential toy-maker, so many possibilities... because I did that, and i think it's so vital to explore one's imagination and dream as a child before deciding upon a career, which may very well be something you've always had a passion for anyway. However, the school system wishes to suppress these kinds of supposedly frivolous activities in exchange for droning repetitive school work since they're scared of the next generation being mentally weak. Yeah, as if having an imaginative mind isn't exercising your brain... Truth is, schools are just places to keep kids busy, while they go home and do what they really want to do, and I'd bet that a lot of very successful people were developing the skills they'd use to become successful while in their bedroom or in their backyard.

Like I said, "geniuses are people who are exceptionally gifted in some intellectual capabilities. Art, Music, poetry, math, whoever can do it better than the rest, rather easily, is considered genius." and I doubt joe janitor is going to be the one at the helm of our society.

Battling Corporations

You ever lose your focus or forget something that was once so clear before, just makes you feel so stupid... I know I'm not dumb as crap, but to forget so easily is frankly very offputting or whatever, degrades my confidence in my own knowledge, could very well be alzeimers. Am I getting old?

so where was I, currently Sony's on the offense against hackers who to my delight tore the ps3 apart and opened it up to all sorts of goodies, which is great because sony took that away when they disabled other os, which I was planning to use. Once I found out that hackers found a way to bring it back, I abandoned my plan of buying an xbox to play halo and shit. But now i could get back to doing it all on ps3 again.

Yay, or so I thought, sony's of course made that darn difficult unless you use a bypass method to access psn. I understand their position, they don't want hackers running backups, but they DID offer the other os before, so why don't they just do it again? Oh of course because that would make them look weak. They want to be this unstoppable juggernaut of a corporation that everyone should fear... recently though geohot and other hackers have claimed they'll fight for their rights no matter what the costs, even their lives. I don't know what to think, I don't like sony's methods or their decision to remove a feature people paid for, but i definitely understand that they'll lose a lot by letting the system be free to hack. There's a lot of wrong to toss around here on both sides... And come on, the justice system is corrupt as fuck, so how are some little hackers going to win, is the real question...

stay tuned for part 2 when I get into my thoughts on hackers being the true innovators and pioneers in this world.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

dwayne mcduffie is dead

whaat the fuck...

whaaat the fuck...

the old saying is true, you don't know what you have until it's gone... i'm speechless, and utterly baffled, why... why is he dead now when his movie is coming out. why him of all people.

honestly, i never was a huge fan of him, but never a detractor, he was to me a true comicbook geek in the guise of an affirmative action hire in the comics industry. that's how i felt about him. sure he was held up because of his race as this beacon of hope for black youth, but beyond that, he was actually talented, his scripts were comparable to good films, his character static shock, is one of the coolest superheros i've had the pleasure of witnessing, and once again although static was created to balance out the white/black ratio, he was an interesting character, flawed, cocky, but determined to help people with his gifts. i idolized him.

dwayne broke the race barrier by being himself in an industry that's not easy no doubt to remain passionate in. i think he got so much tv work because he was good, they'd be foolish not to have him on board. and now he's dead.... rip, so unfair really, and the criminal thing is that no one will really understand what he meant to the world of superheros because he's never outstandingly famous, just somewhere lurking in the background, so sad...

just hangin out...

im up in nevada today. working for an airline's pretty cool. im just an easily replacable number in a computer to them though so i don't really feel much loyalty to the company, but whatever, that's life no matter what job you get. i feel a sense that people consider me to be a scorn worthy individual because you just don't drop out of college and continue living. it's simple, either fucking dig your way towards a degree of some sort or die. that's the world for you.

but im not dead yet, which is surprising to me too, i have noting left i want to do besides fuck.

Neither does anyone else unbelievably... so im not alone. but im not going to do that. Im hesitant to join the military again and will only consider that a last resort if i get fired. i see army guys at jfk all the time and I don't know what to believe, did they even do one day of PT or did they have a buddy in teh mil who let them in and get all teh benefits. it's that bad, military is bad, man, they don't care about any of that patriotism bullshit in the advertisements, you better forget about that if you want to fuck with them. its very wealthy white men tossing money around to get things done, and that's it.

i've lost my train of thought. well im tired, thats what i wanted to say, been fucked up all day despite flying all teh way across teh united states. i've replaced skyscrapers with mountains, and as usual my body is in withdrawl mode from jackin off all day. not helping that im in a very sexual place as las vegas, half naked chicks everywhere making a man feel happy to be alive. so soft and suishy the tittays look.

one thign that bugs me is the old man who asked me if i wanted to be an aircraft engineer. interesting proposal. i wonder why he asked, not that if i had te cance i wouldn't take it, but i'm not sure why he'd even hint of giving a guy like me a good job plenty of white guys would certainly be suited for. I don't know if it's just a trick, make me work my ass off to get the job, and instead your real motive was to get it done for cheaper by a desperate black man. that's what's going on, all these shitty jobs white people don't want to do, they hire a dirt-poor desperate for anything black guy and he becomes very protective of the job etc. not caring if he's being manipulated or not. who's going to give a damn about him in this world, ya kiddin me...

ok let me stop here, be back when i get to ny, if i get there... lord knows it's no simple task to fly, jesus as soon as that plane hit teh runway a big cloud of smoke popped up from the wheels, that's a rough landing... anyway if i die, let me just say good luck to the human race.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Nostalgia Critic is Gay

I was so on his side for most of his reviews but his dungeons and dragons review has put me over the edge.

There's one tactic I've discovered that universally can destroy a person, labeling them gay in the public eye. And that's what I'm going to do. Guy with glasses is the Guy who loves men's asses.

I HATE HIM NOW.

Fucker, Dungeons and Dragons was my joint back in the day motherfucker. I watched that shit all night on video tape. That's right, I rewinded it, then watched it again. Patience motherfucker, patience.

I don't care what you want to think. It's a good flick, and to have the balls to kill a main character was just so awesome, I wish it got a sequel because it was so different and unique. What do we have now, a bunch of pussy footing kiddie crap harry potters and an eragon or two, but nothing like dungeons, not anymore. Tougher times when that movie was made, no dvds, not much internet to speak of, the movie had to do more than provide tits ass and cgi to captivate us, it had to have a heart, something beyond technical aspects to keep us interested and it did. I liked the characters and such, and it's a boy's movie. Not that I remember too much, but I remember liking it because it didn't have the main male as a bafoon, he was a cool dude. Like Link in legend of zelda...

Fuck you nostalgia critic. I wish you would read this so you know how much I want you dead right now.... goddam cracka with a big head.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Sex

Most interesting... Quite weary today, ya know, doing this job long enough it's kinda draining. I mean, it's rough but I have it better than the guys on the ramp stuffing planes, honestly. It's just that my back is killing me now, suppose its age. I don't understand how they expect someone to do this stuff long term, it's not healthy...

So I'm briefly going to discuss the current case of Geohot and the ps3 that's going on. I think he's technically free to fuck around with his console as much as he wants, but in reality, the place where recently a bunch of innocent protesters without weapons were gunned down in bahrain, uh... you better watch your ass, son. He claims he expected the trial to be dismissed, but now it's gotten serious. No shit. He really is a kid. 21, probably hasn't touched a girl, ever, thinks the world's easy. I've been amongst THE people with their fingers on the trigger to the atomic bomb, and i'm lucky I'm still breathing. If sony wants to, they'll get rid of him, one way or another without question. But it's too late for that, the console is completely hacked, so they're looking to financially bury him instead. He's a genius though... he knows what he's doing. LET ME REITERATE, sony can pay a dude to snipe you out while you're going to star bucks and he'll do it. Good luck, jr.

On to my main point with this blog post. My military days still haunt me. And it's weird. I thought high school was the worst time in my life that would forever scar me, nothing compares to that and honestly neither does bmt, but the thing that occupies my mind now is this sort of prediction shit that one of the MTI's made that I'd end up somehow skeeting some sauce into a female and end up having to deal with some stupid cute little kid.

I laugh at the notion for several reasons. 1. I've never even thought about that shit, having a girlfriend yes, children, no. 2. I can't get one anyway. 3. I REALLY can't get one now that I'm an old man. Gotta have money...

4. I guess that's it...

So I'm thinking, are they just that out of touch with reality? They asked me if I wanted to get married, which is something they fully support in there, but I could only half laugh/half look confused by the proposal. I've NEVER had a girlfriend. How the flying fuk am I supposed to just woopity doopity get married out of no where, hell maybe a bunch of people do just that once they join the mil, what do I know, but that's just so strange a concept to me, to marry a random person you don't even know... above all the other questionable shit I witnessed, that was the most weird one.

I'm puzzled too by the sudden show of sympathy, nay, too nice, but it was a moment of seeming concern for my life or whatever it was, as a veiled insult, but it's the kindest they were for my last days in bmt as they hinted that by some stroke of luck I'd find a girlfriend at some point and she'd swallow my dick and spit out babies for me. Good Lord, you really think so pal? i haven't just been dreaming all these years of such a thing, ya say it's gonna happen some day? YAY! But that's like saying, someday you'll be ya know... dead. Or well, at some point you know, you'll probably, most likely, eat something... hey I have a hunch that in the next few seconds, you'll breathe some oxygen. For christ... they can't be that stupid... I refuse to believe that.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Captain America First Assvirgin or whatever

I don't know much about the avengers except that they're a poor man's x-men. So fuck that shit.

I have to write about the new cap trailer and the current lukewarm reaction to it that's been flooding the net.

shiiiiiit, I love captain America first of all. My dad was in the military, cap's a soldier, couldn't be more my kind of guy. Having been in the military though??? eh...

It's like this... You sign that paper during recruitment, the military owns you, every last inch of you. There's nothing glamorous about it, freedom might be what you're fighting for, but you don't have it.

So how the fuck is captain america able to go about his business and not have the army up his ass... that'll be interesting to see. I think he just personifies American ideals, perhaps america itself, in that he's willing to be brave, honest, patriotic, and heroic when times get tough. Everything the military claims to be, but from my experience, isn't. They're very much a cult of self-centered jocks and strangely religious even though their job is to do the worst things imaginable.

Of course I know the movie will sugar-coat the mil and put them in the best light, as that was what cap was created for in the first place, to be a propaganda tool, but he's more than that to me. Like I said, he embodies the spirit of America, land of the free and home of the brave. He'd kick ass even without the super soldier serum. He's like marvel's super man, using his incredible powers for the right reasons. But even more than that he's not invincible, and still won't be deterred.

I like that he was a little scrawny soldier, of which I trained with in the airforce, they had a guy in there much like a shrimpy steve rogers for some reason, I guess to be the runt of the liter and make us feel tougher, but yeah, goddamnit Steve was still a proud american no matter what, willing to die for his rights etc. So he signed up for the cap program, and it's because he remembers how weak and helpless he was that he's willing to use his powers to help those who are just as unfortunate as he was. That's why I like that line in the trailer, says everything you need to know about who cap is.

Now how about the reality though. If indeed he's a soldier, he's not going to move an inch without say-so. The military WILL have a guy follow your every move. Why is cap allowed to be all free and shit. I guess he's got clout... I don't know. Maybe they respect him for being a key part of their success, though I know for sure you can move mountains for the mil, and they won't care...

But yeah, I mean, he's more of a legitimately respected member of the armed forces more than a vigilante. But he's nobody's bitch either. I guess he's like a colonel, I hope they put him as a higher ranker in the movie, make it because he's smart, just lacked the physical requirements, then it'll make sense why he's able to be more free than a typical soldier.

And I hope they make him a good guy, which is what they hint at in the trailer. The mil has its shitload of morons who want to kill and fuck and nothing more. Make Cap above that, please. It's like how I'm a ramp agent, I load bags and crap, Cap on the other hand is a pilot, nigga flies the plane from one end of the world to the other and people respect him... Yeah, you know what, he's like a pilot in the military. I talked to one, he was just chillin cuz he knew he'd not be the guy holding a gun in iraq, just drop a bomb and go home to his wife.

And jesus christ, this movie loses points for pussing out and dropping the America title in countries that don't like America. BOO HOO... What a brave and free country we are that cares more about money than showing the world we're not afraid of their prejudices. This is exactly what captain america DOESN'T represent, yet the studio's full of limp dicked girly-men no doubt.

oh well. Oh and lastly, the cast. Well, I'm neither for or against their choice of chris evans. He looks like the proper cap (brad pitt) stunt double to me. We'll see if he's got the right stuff for this american icon.

Put it in her butt

So some jackass made me late for work by stabbing some innocent motherfucker on the subway causing my train to not go all the way to 34th street and make me go to the c train instead, some ol' bullshit. I don't know what to think, maybe he's crazy, maybe not, just another guy who's been pissed on in life and blew up because of it... we live in bad times to be a young male. Instantaneously society despises you without question, you're either fodder for war, drone at some company, or prisoner #194.

I'm honestly terrified to tackle the injustices on the streets. People will look at your black ass and assume you're out to start trouble, simple as that. You can have a harvard education, be doing a good job, don't matter worth shit. If some white guy can't get a break, who can?

Anyway, about the title, boy do I find that line interesting. It's from a porn film. There's a fuck party going on and some girl's getting slammed right, and then this guy in the background cheerfully exclaims, "put it in her butt" and I think, ya know, that's all you need to know about life right there.

Put it in her butt... Nevermind what she thinks, nor the pointlessness of anal sex, slide it right on in the booty hole, such a convenient and easy alternative to the vagina. I mean, that's what everyone wants, to fuck, and why not in the butt, no kids coming out of there. And she'd love it. Damn right she would. Girls like it rough and hard and in the wrong hole, and involuntarily, surprise butt sex.

sadly, women don't want to be respected. Fuck that shit. Put it in her butt, it's ok. Break the law. It's ok. Cheat to get ahead, it's ok. Nothing is off limits.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

videogames today are for pussies

Ever work your ass off to get through level after level in a super mario game? Only to reach the final level and have your ass handed to you forcing you to start all over again from stage 1. I did.

Was thinking about it on the way to work, I haven't had it that hard in a videogame in a long time. Games I play now are too easy, give you a chance to start off at the checkpoint you last got to and there's no real penalty for losing.

I used to have to grit my teeth and deal with the reality of losing EVERYTHING after fighting my way through level after level. Not anymore. Uncharted while fun is a breeze to play, I find it too easy especially considering there's nothing at stake if you don't beat the big baddy. Red dead redemption, same thing. GTA 4, piece of crap.

I remember the feeling of triumph that I got after struggling all day to kick some level in supermario dx's asssssssssss. It was a level in which, if you made ONE tiny error you were bitch slapped by the game way back to to the beginning, no mercy. And this wasn't a special difficulty setting, this was the regular gameplay. These things were made to challenge the hell out of you.

I guess hindsight is 20/20, since at the time I didn't think things today would be so goddamn pussified, but they are. Nothing today compares to the oldschool gameboy and snes games where you were truly not going to get away with taking the easy road and had to actually develope skills to a point where you mastered the game.

I'm seriously pissed off about this. Not that I want games to be impossible. but there're too simple and easy. At least make me care if I fuck up. Having no conciquence makes the game basically like watching a movie unfold. I can't remember exactly but I think it was Gta 3 that truly balanced this out with a system that didn't let you progress unless you climbed through mountains of shit first, had to have enough ammo, enough life, enough money, good car, skills, Ah, satisfying. Maybe it's because of online play that there's less care taken in crafting a challenging single player experience. Since who the hell cares about playing by yourself anyway these days.

Im just bored by the system now. It's always the same. Pass this level and get to the next one. Not pass this level, get to the next one, and if you fuck up that next level, you have to do both of them over again, bitch, deal with it.

What happened?