just hangin out...

im up in nevada today. working for an airline's pretty cool. im just an easily replacable number in a computer to them though so i don't really feel much loyalty to the company, but whatever, that's life no matter what job you get. i feel a sense that people consider me to be a scorn worthy individual because you just don't drop out of college and continue living. it's simple, either fucking dig your way towards a degree of some sort or die. that's the world for you.

but im not dead yet, which is surprising to me too, i have noting left i want to do besides fuck.

Neither does anyone else unbelievably... so im not alone. but im not going to do that. Im hesitant to join the military again and will only consider that a last resort if i get fired. i see army guys at jfk all the time and I don't know what to believe, did they even do one day of PT or did they have a buddy in teh mil who let them in and get all teh benefits. it's that bad, military is bad, man, they don't care about any of that patriotism bullshit in the advertisements, you better forget about that if you want to fuck with them. its very wealthy white men tossing money around to get things done, and that's it.

i've lost my train of thought. well im tired, thats what i wanted to say, been fucked up all day despite flying all teh way across teh united states. i've replaced skyscrapers with mountains, and as usual my body is in withdrawl mode from jackin off all day. not helping that im in a very sexual place as las vegas, half naked chicks everywhere making a man feel happy to be alive. so soft and suishy the tittays look.

one thign that bugs me is the old man who asked me if i wanted to be an aircraft engineer. interesting proposal. i wonder why he asked, not that if i had te cance i wouldn't take it, but i'm not sure why he'd even hint of giving a guy like me a good job plenty of white guys would certainly be suited for. I don't know if it's just a trick, make me work my ass off to get the job, and instead your real motive was to get it done for cheaper by a desperate black man. that's what's going on, all these shitty jobs white people don't want to do, they hire a dirt-poor desperate for anything black guy and he becomes very protective of the job etc. not caring if he's being manipulated or not. who's going to give a damn about him in this world, ya kiddin me...

ok let me stop here, be back when i get to ny, if i get there... lord knows it's no simple task to fly, jesus as soon as that plane hit teh runway a big cloud of smoke popped up from the wheels, that's a rough landing... anyway if i die, let me just say good luck to the human race.