Anybody for some chess

Have been passing the time at tsa by playing chess on my phone. Difficulty setting 4 which is like makes the comp good but not ridiculous. I've been into chess since I played it as a child, then joined the chess club at school, where I met some of the worst self centered little smarty pants fuckers i'd had the displeasure to come across. Sadly didn't really do much in there but be overwhelmed by the dudes in there who were more experienced than me. Therein lies the problem with school. It's more about discouraging one from learning by bombarding you with endless amounts of complicated shit.

so after that experience I threw my chess set away in favor of my art hobby and videogames. But recently due to an influence from delta, where the dudes in transfers play chess all day, I decided to get back into it. I know this much... you have to suffer through failure before you get better at something, ya know just smooth down the rough edges before you become more experienced. I know now why I lost so many games in chess club. It's because I didn't know the little tricks and little tactics etc that can be employed to win against a total noob or whoever.

Theres a buttload that I've picked up on. Like castling with the bishop right in the middle between the pawns, works wonders, moving a pawn so that the queen can't just rush in and get an easy rook. Knowing that removign the knights from the board is high prioity since those mother fuckers are a painus in the anus. If you use those bitches right, you can fuck over a opponent with ease.

what else, it's essential to allow the rooks to move freely and not be trapped in their first positions fucking forever. Sorry I'm saying fuck a lot because I keep remembering being screamed at by this bitch that I pissed off when she was having a bad day, totally caught me off guard and saying fuck and fuck and fuck cuz she was so irate. I don't feel bad because I'm not playing nice with girls anymore. I don't hate them in fact quite the opposite, but I know nice is like kryptonite to them. sad really...

Back to the topic. It's awesome fun to seek out ways to win, although it's more about solving the puzzle of how to win than the winning in itself. Like, how can I improve my opening. Here's the fucking truth, the opening probably decides who wins and loses. I've done openings a certain way and yeilded utter failure. I mean some how that guy got a knight and queen close enough to where I coouldn't do shit, and had to play defense the whole time, all because I left a wide gap in the pawns. That's a real wrinkle in the surface at times. every move counts except those you don't want to count, like if you just want to have the oppenent move his pieces and shit so you can have room to breath on the board you just make useless back and forth moves to get hims to have no choice but to do shit.

Bought my niece and nephew a chess set since I've had so much fun learning the game's little intricacies. Doubt they'll really be as into it as I am, but whatever. I don't subscribe the the belief that 18 is some kind of magic age when you're done developing. I'm still fucking retarded about life and sigh, what can I do about it. It's out of my hands. I mean, not to bring her up too much because she's like no longer an issue, but yeah meeting garcia kind of... woke me up. She's not human, one of those people who'll focus all their power on destroying you for their own pleasure. No mercy. Or at least she puts out that appearance of ruthlessness. I don't know. I played nothing but bluffs around her whenever she'd go buck wild and start practically reciting the encyclopedia to me because she probably remembers every word of it. I'm just like wtf about that shit, don't come to this job acting like you working at fucking pentagon. But as a Man I new I had one ace in the hole no matter how smart she was, she ain't going to lift a finger to get her pussy filled with dick. Too bad I'm black tho. If I was white she wouldn't have been so quick to walk all over me. Her last kind of fuck you to me was to look down on me as if I was a lowly little animal, so she is racist I said to myself... knew it. I mean I know a lot of shit about the difference between who we pretend to be and who we really are after going through the basic training, thats what they do they bring your real self to the surface.

I just lack the discipline to use the what I know wisely but I'm not retarded about it. I do take measured steps with how I approach her and others. It's just very complicated trying to manipulate but not be obvious about it.

usually i just say fuck it and tell the truth or go to the extreme since I'm not in a subtle mood most of the time... ok thats it.