Thinking about life

Faith, peace, is the answer says Corey Feldman. He says that the world's problems can only be solved through faith, peace, and love... Indeed old friend....

Need more attitudes like that this day and age. Dark times we're in...

This world is terrible. One wonders why people would want to continue to live in it, have children in it. continue going on and about in it... like, really, chances are slim life's going to be good for you especially if you're on the black side of the fence. Then chances are like 0.00% that you're going to have it made in the shade with a glass of lemonade.

I mean the racism I've encountered in recent years has been extremely shocking. I never got treated outright like an insect by white people until recent years. It's just, what a lie I've been taught in my childhood. Oh don't worry, things have changed, blacks are equal and nobody's going to shit on you as a black guy when you get older... FUCK NO. That's hardly the case at all... Like, I just get treated like I'm hankering to go steal everything in people's houses and start a whole mess with the world... All I can wonder is where the hell this came from...

I went to the toy store, the book store, library, school, no racism there. I go generally anywhere now at 30 years old and I got some weak kneed little scared pissless white people trying to pin me as a criminal and all that shit.

It's like, fuck the hell? I never got treated like this. Never.... Doesn't make shit sense how it's changed for me.

I go to the store and the managers treat me like I'm straight out of the Hood, gangsta black guy, following me through the store, asking me if I need anything... It's just offensive as shit.

Here's an idea, grow a dick and stop being a little girl about black people in your area going about their day, how's that?

But yeah, that lack of understanding between blacks and whites going on this day and age is so fucked up, it's beyond retarded.

No, I don't want to be in your predominantly white neighborhood at all. It's like asking for a bullet.

No, I don't want to stir shit up with you at all.

No, I don't give a damn about you in the least.

That's what's going on in my head if you are wondering what those evil little blacks are thinking who come waltzing into your neighborhood every so often.

Sadly, I'm a nerd.

I watched a lot of tech tv. I watched my star wars movies all day non stop when I was little. I actually studied and worked hard in school and have the capacity to get a college degree, I just have no interest in it.

So yeah hell yeah it's really off putting and weird to be pinned as some kind of hood rat black guy when I actually grew up like a white kid for the most part. It's just aggravating to have that label placed on you when I have had nothing do do with that culture my whole life. In fact the hood rat black kids that eventually ended up in our school were despised and not welcomed and generally made everyone feel uncomfortable.

Sucks that you have to get stuck in their little world no matter what you want to do about it.