so not motivated

Not going to lie, too many liars in this world. I'll not join them.

But yeah the hard editing is about to begin. That dreaded, ugh, of struggle to create something that works despite not know what the flying hell you're doing. The forest battle so far has been a mess, got lucky a track I liked a lot worked and made certain scenes beautiful to watch and artistic.

I want that same depth, same feel to the rest of this, but I don't know if I can achieve that.

My mind swirls with confusing, doubt, thoughts of past failures, thoughts of a girl I could have had, such stupid emo shit. Why now? Just bust out the edit and have a wrap party for f's sake.

Yeah, would be nice to just have infinite motivation, but it's not always the case isn't it.

I'll struggle with this all day, fighting the demons telling me to stop don't do what I promised myself I'd do.

Isn't that just awkward. You set upon a quest to do something cool and you get scared of completing the journey?

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of failure. What the hell...

so not me, but here I am. I'm stinking afraid.

I can't tell you if I'll be able to overcome this. I can't see the other side... let's see...