Wtf today was worse

word to the wise, keep your clothes on in public.... I mean I probably should have reworked the scene to have me with my shirt on but I felt like I was going to drop the weight and bulk up enough to look fine. Sad day, I mean, I did drop the weight, my body was nice for a few days prior to today. I get out there, thinking I still look good, then I see myself in the footage and not so much. I gained at least a pound or two in the last few days due to eating so much carbs at night. I thought I read you could do that. No, just don't eat carbs at night before sleeping. I was on a roll, my body was dropping so much fat, but I ate cereal and a burger at night and have been snacking on my luna bars at night a lot, turns out to be a bad decision. I had to simply fight to hide my jelly rolls all day today and struggle to find decent angles.

Plus some weirdo woman showed up to eat donuts in the woods. I was just wtf with that mess... I purposefully go deep into the woods to avoid anyone. You can write a book about the kinds of psychos who go hanging around in the woods at odd times of the day especially f'n winter, I've come across so many lately, today being another fun one. She comes, sits down to rest for a bit, then I wait it out for what seems like ages and she finally leaves. then I start smelling goddamn donuts. She's having lunch or something up there as I notice she returns and the air fills with donut smell. Couldn't be more confused as hell.

Will I go back and reshoot the shots again to make up for my lack of foresight and poor diet strategy?

No. I've been through so much to get this stupid film made, I don't want to spend more time on it, want to finish what I began and move on from it at this point. Prettymuch all the hard tough stuff is now completed. I only have to work on the goddamn final scene where static jumps on the saucer or whatever I decide to do. Thinking about having the true final shot be on top of a sewer lid as the thing fades out...

I mean, I'm so done with dieting like a mad man. If I look pudgy and out of shape, so be it. I've really poured my soul into this project, yeah too bad I couldn't look super ripped up like I wanted, but you'll see, I've done far more to solidify my passion for this thing than that.