Delicate dance

That's what this project is... I find myself over doing it, trying to get it perfect, but I must remind myself that I never intended it to be perfect. It's just something I feel compelled to do but never was intended to be top quality...

I suppose I'm now employed. It was a thing I kinda hoped to do and I guess it's going forward. Saw a job posting for bag guys at JFK and jumped on it. It's not a good job but it remarkably pays through the nose... 14 buckaroos an hour for just tossing luggage. I think I struck oil here.... apparently a bunch of ruckus happened while I've been away from the airport stuff and the workers fought for and won a pay increase for all airport staff, minimum wage is now bumped to a decent level that you can hope to survive on... So everybody gets paid good money now even ramp guys... so it's almost like I got in at jet blue considering my new wage increase vs most likely the original crap level it was before. Yeah I mean the crap they make the "luggage monkeys" do is insane, give them a fair wage imo... You're putting your life on the line, towing aircraft that cost millions, in charge of flight stability because of your competence at your job, yet you get screwed on the pay, wow... finally they're wising up about it...

I don't know, this might interfere with my project and I might not be able to dedicate full time to working on it and polishing it, but I will do my best...

It made me feel better anyway, you do feel better when you have income. It just puts your mind at ease...

So I bought a mountain bike for no damn reason now... hmmm.... I still want to build a gas bike, but now that I have a job, I'm gonna be able to get my car repaired and re-insured, and all that stuff, then just drive wherever I want to go from here forward...

I dunno what to do, kinda lost on that. I don't want the car honestly, prefer to sell it off or junk it. Cars in NY honestly make no sense. It's just madness to drive here. When I get the money I'm going to get a suped up top of the line electric moped. Get it licensed registered up all that stuff.... Just zip zip to work, zip zip back home... I might look for an apartment near the airport though. If after like a month of just smooth work and no problems it seems like a good idea, just get a damn apartment, f that... yunno what, I'm never owning an apartment for the rest of my damn life tbh.... I don't like that scheme... You're kinda having no choice but to pay for a glorified hotel room, just screw that. Yunno what I'm going to end up doing in life, van-life....

I'm gonna buy a damn van, build it into my house... always dreamed of doing that. I do indeed envy the people who live their life that way. It's genius. You can travel any time you want, and you don't owe rent to nobody. Only thing is insurance and gas and maintenance, no stupid apartment crap for me... It's infinitely cheaper to live in a van than to struggle to afford an apartment that goes nowhere and you have to deal with neighbors and ridiculous rent cost.

Sadly I have no experience driving a van so this might be something that's beyond me to attempt... But I can see this being something to consider down the line... Buy a nice comfy van, gut it, rebuild the inside of it into a nice comfy motorhome and boom, I'm living life the smart way... I'm not gonna be a rent slave, sorry, no dice...

But yeah, I was struggling with whether to go out and do the job interview today... but I'm happy I did it. I don't have to feel out of the loop in this world anymore, I have money and stuff now, that's awesome. The thing that compelled me after I told myself just stay home, don't go out... I wanted to buy new computer components... then I got off my ass and said ok time to suck it up and deal with the shit filled subway...

Now I'm looking at money...

I got a lot of money, so much money I'm gonna be throwing some away, damn... full time 14 dollars an hour, that's a lot of bread.

How did I end up here? Don't question it... One wonders how bad it's gonna get in the bag room over there. I chose that, f the ramp. Only a sucker would do it. They're gonna kill you with not only the belly of the plane but the rear cargo area, plus all the other stuff that they make you do that's makes the day harder... smarter to just chuck a bag now and then in a bin or ultimately I do think the bag room guys will basically just have to put the bags on the belts after a flight lands... more or less I'll be doing both of that crap most likely...

what the f ever... I just need quick and dirty cash and now I got it...

so about the project.... yeah, gonna have to motor on it. Got training and crap coming up for the job, so I have to actually knock the movie out faster and hopefully get most if not all of it fully finished by the 22... Gonna be murder... Then Solo comes out on 25 and I'll dump it here on the blog and attempt to find a streaming site to put it on...

As for the bike. I mean you should always have a bike in your life time... just for quick little trips. I do indeed want to put an engine on it and have that as an option if like I need to go to the store and get something or want to go long distance to home depot but don't want to bother with the moped or car, whatever..... dunno, need to think deeply on these things. What is it that I'm going to be using for transportation... I'm still got a lot of thinking to do and a lot of work ahead of me.... but at least I got an f'n job now, that's a huge burden off my ass...