Fatherhood

Something I never thought about much until now. I touched a girl's breasts for the first time in my life back when I was at a dep meeting for the airforce. It felt great, needless to say. I still remember her soft breasts and her little belly area against my arm. Something inside me just went crazy over that. Yeah way back in high school I wanted to have some sex with all the gorgeous girls around me but I was told not to do it, so I tried my best not to rape any of them. I lost my mind a little as a result. I'm an extremist to some degree, quite dangerous to the workforce in a sense since they'd like someone to be stable normal worker, not a nutty weirdo like me. But I like that part of me, makes me feel special, unique. Still if I become a regular ol' father, then society will pressure me to conform since there's no getting around the fact that children are our number one priority in life. That touch meant more than just OH MY GOD SHE'S GOT NICE TITS. It meant a new life could be created! From just us two people.

But God it's so frustrating, thinking about it and all that shite... women today suck ass. Theyre not women, they're men in women's bodies. I hate that. I'm a man. Always have been. Never even heard of all this femism bull until college, and all I've ever had planned since 8th grade is to become an awesome husband and love my dream girl. God damn you society! you suck! I hate how my life has turned out and it's all your fault. A man let's nothing stand between him and his goals, I know this. But I fear my power. I fear so much of what I can do if I get angry enough... It's like how superman has to hold back all the time incase he punches a person's head off by accident.

Balance is the answer! But how, how do i achieve balance!