Who am I?

I'm supposed to be in the military... But I'm scared. If I do anything stupid and fuck up it's yeah, it's we're all dead. I'm glad I didn't make it. I don't know. i'd have preferred just to do any old job at the base like scrub toilets. I don't give a crap about shooting people and all that. I have to be careful what I say though because I saw a lot of lackland. If I were to blab about training, there'd be hell to pay. I never realized the seriousness of life until now. Jesus Christ help us all.

Ugh, well gonna watch some porn now.