23 years old.

I'm like totally over this age... I actually liked being 15 to be honest. Then my shit got all fucked up later when I was 17 and just lost every sense of purpose or desire to achieve anything in life basically because I was so far behind my school mates who had way better parents. Now people are treating me as both adult and child for their own amusement and using psychological tactics on me to sway me to their view of the world since that's how the "real world" works. Not everyone agrees and so we piss on each other constantly over every little thing. I'm not all that. You're not all that. And around and around it goes. But I've noticed that a lot of peeps my age are cocky assholes once they realize their political power and think they should slam anybody because they're free to do so. No you're not. I thought I could too but it's not so. Some people you have to give some sensitivity to out there, some people who can't even think straight or whatever. That's why I'm so valuable. I'm capable of being some kind of leader or something... father too I guess though I don't want to be... No one even agrees on what a true "adult" is supposed to be. It's all political bullshit.

But there's no getting around the fact that reeeeeeeeal kids do exist and are young and stupid as fuck and can't be treated like a full grown ass person yet.

So parents want young people to conform so that they are more "normal" adults as they envision them to be, MAN up etc. Sigh... Good luck with that... I see young women online now realizing that their biological clock is ticking and that being raised to believe they should pursue a career was a big fat mistake. Back in high school all they wanted was lots of sex, now they want a classy husband and all that nuclear family shit. But we're not taking their bait. Me specifically, I saw through the bullshit waaaaaaaay back when I was in senior year or so. My intention was to become a super smart science guy so in order to do that I had to avoid girls and marriage and all that bullshit so I could focus on figuring out the secrets of time travel, my personal dream.

So far it's almost mission accomplished. took me a solid 8 years but I've never even gotten close to impregnating a girl and all that shit. I'm so happy I don't have a kid to worry about like the morons I went to high school with, but now something's happening that I didn't forsee. People are up my ass about "being normal" getting married having kids, since that's all we're here to do. I'm an anomaly. A full grown sexually mature male who isn't trying to fuck every girl he sees who's young and sexy. That's dangerous since a man is a powerful motherfucker. He can be a great asset or a great burden. That's why we're so good in the wars. Women view men as big dumb apes they can use to make little babies with and then use to make money. That's all we are to them. No one tells you this. They tell you all that bullshit about equality, then of course the truth is you're just a sperm bank.

Yep. Like, If you're a "man" instantly people fear you. But if you were like just some super smart 17 year old guy, you're adorable child. And trust me there are prodigy kids out there who honestly are more mature than me yet I'm the adult who can go be massacred and it'd be cool to do so. That's the real world. And life isn't fair.

It's like this. No matter how good a person you are, someone will ALWAYS hate you. You can be like me, a average dude, but since you're over 18 no one HAS to treat you with any respect at all even if you're a good guy who doesn't start shit with anybody. It's how it is. Praise jesus if you think that will save you in this crazy world. I know I still have some faith but I'm losing sight of it every day the more I realize I'm just waiting to die and that' s all my life is.