Independence Gay

Looks like a bomb. Wow, thought it would do ok at least. Loved the first movie. Love Jeff Goldblum. Hate to see him return and all only for it to be a big puff of gas.

I'll see it, fuck it. I owe the movie, cast, and directors for making my childhood a blast. That's the thing about me, I escaped into cinema any chance I could get as a kid and that's what made life tolerable. We all did, I'm pretty sure. All of us 90s gen kinda got away from life in movies. And I'm telling you, it's a good thing. Makes you keep your sanity. Hell I still do it. I guess its ingrained in me. I just lose myself in a film from time to time and try to forget all the drama of life if I can.

What am I really posting about, fucking job I got to go to tomorrow.

I hope and pray every day that Phil and Chris want me as Lando. But I'm not going to put all my bets on that shot of luck, hell no.

I am a postal worker.

I take somebody's bullshit and get it to them, and that's all I do. I fucking hate it, but it pays.

It'll help me to lose weight as I endure the lengthy bullshit of the job, and of course the money won't hurt in my efforts to craft and design and create the official static shock live action trailer.

Now that I have substantial money I may actually write and direct a full length episode. But that's a pipe dream. the trailer's the only thing that makes sense. I don't have the big bucks like white folk, so I do what I can.

Interesting to browse facebook. It's an addiction of course. It's like if I'm not checking out the new shit, I'm missing out. Gotta break that habit. I did other things with my time before facebook. I browsed porn sites for one thing.

Here I stand, still living. Got a job that pays 16 an hour and isn't a horror story of a job. Should I consider this a win in life?

I mean I'm a postal worker, even white people take this job if they need to survive... I got my ass in the door. I COULD in time, seek out hire levels of federal employment since I'm a federal employee right now... it's all about sticking with it until opportunity knocks.

Hate how cops give me the evil eye still like, OMG black guy gonna start trouble. I bet if I became a cop they'd act a little less shitty. But that's not my interest. When does a black dude NOT get shit from cops in this world? I'm a federal employee, I am on their fucking side, working for the government, and they still treat me like some black hood thug. Wow, what do I got to do? I'm lucky as fuck, if I wear a cap I look like a hispanic dude.

You have to take that into account when you try to understand why black people get all kinds of plastic surgery, it's a survival tactic. If you can pass for another race, the cop will potentially hesitate to kill you.

No I'm not kidding.

I try not to be emo about life, but it comes with the package unfortunately. Being black opens up a whole world of SHIT to deal with. If you are white or anything else, you got it too good and don't know it... appreciated it if you can. Don't look down on the fact that every day is christmas for YOU.

Will I get some white pussy and get a boost in status in life? Certainly hope so. Just hope to get any ass to be honest. Can't stand this virgin nonsense. It's truly nonsense and feels like you're just waiting to die off every day instead of doing what you're here to do.

Anyway besides the negative, there's positive to my life. I hope to do a lot of the shit I've been planning for years but never had money to get it done.

Buy a delorean, build a proton pack, make the static shock trailer... Get toys!!!

That's my mission in life. Pathetic? Yes, but that's who I am, mr. pathetic. Not going to lie.