Why Lando wears blue...

Got thinking about this. Lando typically wears blue.

I was thinking that maybe there can be a reason for that. He wears blue because of a girl he loved once who was blue. Twilek maybe I dunno. Be intersting to explain his blue favor.

Yeah, i'm trying to slim down. Gonna shoot the movie next year. We're coming to that point so I need to be having lost a ton of weight of course, but Dammit if I don't enjoy a good meal. My bad. I got to get aggressive with this diet if I truly want to ace the part. Shit, gotta find out when the audtions are taking place and where. Gotta figure this shit out quick or I'll miss the boat.

Really am feeling like I have to audition for this shit people.. Like, I've been waiting all my life for it. I just want to auditon. Honestly, getting the part is immaterial. To say I had to balls to try, is all I want...

Life today vs the 90s

Been watching family matters recently...

I can't believe that show even got to exist in any way shape or form. Truth be told, it was a fluke, the whole show. They never intended for it to be more than a mild cosby clone. Suddenly Urkel just exploded and it made history for all time. And made me who I am today. I literally am a living breathing steve urkel.

Which is why I'm confused by the hatred towards black people going on. I mean psychologically if you study it and look into it, people generally have antagonism towards blacks no matter what. They've tested it and found that people change their behavior when a black person enters a room.

So fucking sad.

I grew up watching and loving family matters. Despite the weird racist shit in the scripts at times, it's still a beacon of hope for humanity that show.

To propose to a mass white audience that a black person can be super intelligent, was and still to this day is just so unbelievable a thing.

It's the truth though. I'll never understand why cops are killing black guys left and right. I've met genius level black people. They're assholes because they're so fucking smart, they feel like they're surrounded by insects. You telling me  you'll gladly shoot that kind of person? I don't know what planet you fucking live on...

How the hell did things get so bad these days.

We need Urkel Back I dare say.

Jaleel's like the last beacon of hope for black people and I don't think he ever intended to be. But the image of black people should NOT be some black dude on the floor with a pool of blood under neath him. We're not going to make that the modern 2016 image of black people that you're going to see all day now are we???

I mean I'll be honest with you. I don't have this overwhelming super defensive attitude towards black people. I've had too many black fists pummeling me to ever feel that way tragically... but I do not believe ZOMG run away from the crazy terrible blacks is all she wrote regarding black people. Not after my childhood. Not after michael Jackson, urkel, jordan. All that good shit I enjoyed coming from blacks. How does all that culminate into RUN it's a negro, gonna beat us up!

Like I don't care about race. I don't give a damn about racism and hatred and protesting and all this shit going on... It's weird. Yeah, a black man getting shot for no reason is bad, but it's like clock work how as soon as that shit goes down there's a riot afterwards. Everybody seems to be all prepared to riot after these things happen. Like they scheduled it on the calendar, ok everybody get your rioting stuff together, how's monday sound for you guys... monday it is...

Jeeze. I don't get it. Why could Urkel be all over our TVs back in teh 90s and yet now, we got blacks getting filled with bullets instead...

Something don't make sense about that weird shift in the social acceptance of black people. I still kinda can't believe you got to feel like a lesser being as a black person and fear being blown to pieces by a cop.

I grew up watching urkel. Not once did I think anyone would shoot him. What would Urkel be like in today's atmosphere of fear and dread of the KKKops on the street this day and age.

Did none of these cops grow up watching cosby and family matters? Most likely they were the white kids that got shitted on by black gangsta kids and now that they're cops, it's revenge time.

Nobody innocent in this mess we're in. If black kids would stop being retards, sure enough white people wouldn't kill half of them off.

I gotta say despite the messy weird fucktrip that my life as a kid was, I enjoyed most of it.

Disney movies, Cartoons, Toys, TGIF, my childhood crushes. That stuff was fine. Having to deal with the daily grind of blacks in a black school, not fun at all. Gets worse when you get older. Now YOU are that black asshole bully in school no matter what. You don't have to do SHIT to anyone, it's just how society views you because EVERYBODY's had a fist in their face from some jackass black kid. Now that they wake up and see that they own the world, you're gonna get it.

Tragic, weird, awkward, life I've been landed with I have to say.

But it worked out didn't it. Despite the messy weird awkard stupid shit I've dealt with, I'm going to make a lot of money. Going to have a nice apartment. Most likely going to be fucking some girl in every hole she has.

Yep, I'm gonna fuck some ass.

I mean I damn deserve to get some. I've waited forever after all...

Landoooooooooooooooooooooo

Gotta get in  shape. Gotta get ready, gotta be great. Gotta be steady. It's LANDO TIME!!!

Black dude mugs a guy on twitch, whole KKK explodes with rage

"See this is why you're getting shot in the street..."

Yeah this explains why some cops shoot a black guy after he's been pinned to the ground and cuffed.

Let's ignore that part.

Wow, never thought I'd live this long, to come from my childhood of urkel dances, hanging with cooper, all the simple trappings of 90s life, to sitting here wondering if being black is truly a dead end street.

Yes it undeniably is. I have no misconceptions about that. You can be like me, a black person who went out of his way to make certain flights leave on time and white people in aircraft are safe and happy and still get shot. You can be like that one black devil I saw one day on the metro north who saved a white man's life by helping him get out of a bathroom who's door got jammed. You can fight for this country and serve in the military like my father did and still get shot. I'm well aware that being black puts a target on your head from birth....

Interesting to read the comments on the article... Interesting to think about the social implications of the whole thing.

The hard cold truth though? The guy was playing pokemon in a dark park at night. People with any sense in their head are commenting that he was lucky he didn't get killed by that asshole and he just wanted a phone to sell for a couple hundred bucks on ebay.

Why did this guy mug him is the question people should be asking.

Why?

Because he's hungry. Because you do the right thing as a black male, go try to get a job, and all you'll get is some hispanic supervisor harassing you all day at a job worth chicken feed. It's the reality I've come to see with my own damn eyes, modern slavery... It's nobody's fault. I mean yeah, you just won't win. You a black person will be answering to and working for whites and hispanics at every turn you go in the work world. It's amazing and just fucked up how slavery's been done these days.

He robbed him because the job world would merely rob him. Nobody's saying this, but the sad truth is that it's tough as shit to get a job anywhere as a black guy... never thought about it, but it just is. Yes there are complete dipshit black guys who just mug and start trouble, but there's no denying the sad reality of the majority jobs blacks have access to being bottom barrel shit. And even if you do the right thing and get a job, start a family, you'll get shot anyway.. it's tough to say to black males, get a job and clean yourself up. You'll still get shot.

Shit to do...

Hell, I'm kinda beat up in the brain yunno. What can a guy say. It's stupid to have to make sense of life at this age at this point. All the shit you want to do, you can't because you don't have money. All everyone these days is feeling is FEAR of everyone else. That's the thing about today's world vs my childhood. There was a lot less FEAR abounds back then.

Everyone's to me feeling like they're scared of being stabbed, shot, shit like that.

EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD JUST RELAX AND LOOK AROUND YOU

THIS SHIT IS WHAT'S SURROUNDING YOU:

what the FUCK is wrong with you that you'd rather start drama than rip her fucking clothes off and have a fuck party? WHAT? Explain that shit to me.... 

I mean, it's utterly the MOST retarded thing I've witnessed in this life I've lived. People generally forgoing a good fuck to have a political debate. Fuck policis. Fuck Bill O reilly, fuck CNN, fuck hilary, Obama, Trump, FUCK ALL OF THEM. 

All I want to do is grab a bitch and go for the gold medal, people. 

Honest to GOD. Nothing means more to me than getting a girlfriend, big titties, big ass, sexy face... I know I can do it too. That's the funny thing. I'm ME, a clown. I can make a girl laugh and hit all her sexual buttons. I've actually done it to this one girl who was stone cold you'd think it was impossible. Got her pussy fucking drenched with my charisma... It was enlightening... 

Anwyay, just a horny guy going on and on and pissed and tired about life the way it is. Carry on with your daily duties everyone. Rant over....

Let's talk about something

why not, I got the time.

Something I was thinking about, sequels that just exist with no purpose.

By all means, take my idea and play with it.

I was thinking about Robocop 2. A movie I've had to struggle with liking or not liking for years now. How do I feel about it today. I don't like it. I really don't. I know what happened. They had the budget, the manpower, the demand for a sequel, but no story worth shit. So we got what we got, a cobbled together fucked up mess of a film that abandons the story if there was one half way through and then just rides off the action for the last hour to give you something to watch.

Die Hard 2 is also just as bad.

I truly despise that film. Don't you hate it when they make a sequel and they don't have a good idea for what it's supposed to be so what we get is a messy mixed bag movie with no central theme or driving force to it.

Say what you want about movies like superman returns, hulk, even force awakens. At least they're not wandering all over the map with their ideas, they're centrally focused. That's what I have to say I like about a solid film. Simplicity. Maybe I'm simple minded. But that's what I like, when it's not trying to be a thousand movies all at once. It's just itself.

That's the key to a good film. They're not trying to be a buffet of film making. No unnecessary deviations and diversions abound. Just stick to your story and say what you want to say with it.

Choices and future potential...

Going to slave away and figure out how to finish my Static Shock Project... Gotta do it while I still look youthful. Got to lose weight so I can definitely look much younger.

And life feels good right now. Can't complain... I have a high paying job. I'm still young, all my shit's working sexually, if I get lucky and land a girlfriend somehow under the blue sky I'll be in too good a shape. Can't understand why there's tons of women everywhere and people are wanting to start drama. I'll never make sense of that garbage. I know what I've been told about my offspring, but doesn't make me NOT want to get laid, not want to experience sex... Just doesn't. Am I supposed to just say nah, don't want a girlfriend ever...

good luck with that... I don't understand people and perhaps I never will. To try to convince another person to deny himself sex, what kind of idiot are you. Don't want to know... Keep on living in that special universe YOU personally inhabit.

Got things to do. I mean, getting back in at TSA what does that ultimately mean in the end. Means I have a lot of money to burn. Means I can potentially go back to school. Means I don't have to feel like I don't have options in life vs just having no cash. Also means I got a job that really isn't a job. You can look down on TSA personnel all day and all night, they're the smartest people on the planet. Either you get a bone crushing job that's for suckers working long and hard, putting your life at risk, for a bunch of asshole managers who are pinching pennies or you be smart and get away with murder and get a job that's paying you to sit down and relax. Yep, that's what shocked me about working there. They don't work... All the job is is monitoring xrays and searching luggage every so often. It's not work... And they have a lot of staff. That means you'll never be over worked or having to work harder than anybody else. And the guys there are decent people too. That's what happens when your workforce is paid well, they act like human beings. It was a night and day difference. You go work those ramp ops jobs, all the guys there are cussing and pissing about working there and have a huge stick up their ass. You work at TSA, everybody's just chillin. Nobody wanna be there doing that shit, we all have the same mentality, shit pays...

So yeah, FUCK YEAH, I'm just knocked out cold to have gotten back in... It's like achieving super saiyan level when you've been fighting as regular goku for years.

Made a mistake, bought a quadcopter that doesn't have altitude hold. Need to get the one with Hold if I want to get those cinematic crane shots for the static shock project. I just had the idea one day, shit just popped in my head. If I want this thing to look cinematic, and get really movie quality shots. Buy a drone and film some of it with the drone. Literally have limitless filming possibilities with those things.

So once I get paid, I'll get a really good drone that can stay hovering in the air on its own, get a really powerful camera for it and going to spare no expense make some amazing photography with it. I suggest yall get into the drone scene. It's so awesome. It's all about taking exciting pictures and vids with them really. That's a hobby worth doing. Building and flying drones cuz, it's going to be the future of film making down the line and it's just cool.

more progress

Got passed the tsa nonsense...

back to work, people...

got one left, need a break then we do it...

 doneeee

Progresss on Lando

Toldya I was rusty. I forgot how to draw hands, speedily anyway, I know how to draw the shit, but not the shortcuts, babbling sorry... Yeah, I guess you got to practice drawing if you want to stay good at it.

Will finish this and get started on the next two tonight after my bullshit drug screening for TSA.

Ghostbusters 2016 vs Ghostbusters 2

I wish more people did this comparison. I think it's apt.

A lot of vitriol being poured on the new movie. I think a kid will dig it, as I loved a lot of shit as a kid. Being a Kid opens that door to liking utter nonsense no matter how foul.

So yeah, I was thinking about it. GB2 is a shitty movie. Why is the new movie any worse than that garbage?

It isn't...

Sadly it's not "better" than GB2 either. It's just about the same damn movie prettymuch. Some asshole is stirring up evil, yanoosh, the new guy rowan, people have pointed out that they're the same exact villain. They are...

Ghosts get released and the GBs get together to take them down in a fashion that demands they shoot into a central location with their proton packs and such. Same shit different movie.

I can't say I'll watch the new GB over GB2, but a part of me deep down in my anus does kinda like the more fresh modern aspect to the GB than the complete rehash of a film that is GB 2. Such a waste that movie is, but nobody called anyone out on it. Actually yeah, Murray himself loathes the movie, my bad.

Well, that's all I was thinking about tonight. Why I wish GB was done much better than it has today. How they could have dropped the ball the way they did, or even why they did... It's just such a waste the whole thing. Like I said, nobody going to watch home alone 3 over the classic home alone, but when you think about it. Home Alone 3 is a lot better than home alone 2. Same shit different decade can you believe it?

Interesting times

For the first time I can actually say I'm looking forward to life, to getting up and going towards tomorrow rather than the norm of dreading it.

I'm moderately wealthy now. I wonder to myself if I deserve this... I did bust my ass in school. I have no idea in hell what a woman's body feels like at all.

I guess I'm one of those guys who does deserve to win in life rather than struggle.

TSA is win. Yes, it's quite the bottom of the world job and no one should seek it as a long term career, but you get paid too much for doing too little that's the simple truth about it.

If I have to go towards my fucking grave, I'll tell you this, I'd rather do it on top of a pile of cash.

I wonder to myself if I should feel like I've achieved better than the guys working at Delta. Yunno, I don't look down on them. They're good guys, just trying to get those planes moving and doing their jobs well because they want to see the world and fly.

But one of the assholes I met working there trying to huff and puff and make himself look like he's equivalent to the pilot himself because he's got Leet skills at luggage stacking. Not only was that laughable beyond measure, but it was so bizarre to have him in my face that day trying to belittle me, it was just mind fucking stuff. You area  loser in every definition of the word. Don't try to show pride i achieving the level of master luggage stacker.

Just fucking don't bro.

I'll never peg myself as a racist, but yeah it's not gonna work even to a guy like me, someone who's blacker than midnight trying to bring me down. Just give up on that. I'm not better than you because I'm part white, but get your head out of your ass and wake up. This is not a black man's world.

I'm just saying I'm excited... I can use TSA as a spring board to getting my pilots license, college degree, a lot of doors open because of that job. And I didn't think I'd get back in, fuck yeah, I'm happy as all hell that my life is going up and towards the sun.

Sad to see kids with cancer on facebook, but it's an eye opener. I always knew there were bad shit in this world, but that's depressing beyond hell. I never knew about that side of life and I've been blinded to it for too long. If I do get cast as Lando, I'll donate a lot of money towards this one girl who's fighting for her life and needs her medical bills paid. I'm not a hero, but I do want to help because that's just who I've always been, that guy who gives a damn.

Future of the automobile

So it's becoming more and more prominent a thing, the whole driverless car thing.

I was just thinking about it, it'd work. It'd really work, As far as high ways or more open roads are concerned. If indeed it was mandated that you had to have your car on autopilot on long stretches of road, maybe there'd be no more crashing since human error would be eliminated.

It's worth a test. Give it 3 years of intense testing. See if it'll work long term and put it into action eventually.

Driving for me on the high way is easy except for the human factor. You will have some retards driving on there who don't care and will cut you off, bullshit around going too fast or something. So even if they did have it be computer controlled cars, you'd still get assholes on the road being assholes. Wouldn't change that.

I've gotten hit from behind, imagine if the auto breaks thing was mandated already, that wouldn't have happened.

They're working on getting automatic brakes mandated for all vehicles. That if your car senses that it'll hit something, it slams the brakes automatically. I mean, it was just the way it was, I was on the bridge doing my thing going to work. This shit fuck hits me hard, fucks up his car. If auto brakes was implemented wouldn't have happened.

Just an idea I had. I mean, all these goddamn car accidents can definitely be avoided if more cars were computer controlled if not all cars on the big high ways. Of course what you'll get is 90% of the people putting their cars on autopilot, then the too cool for school gang trying to bob and weave through traffic so they can get ahead of the rest of the pack...

There's no easy answer to this. But at least the auto breaks thing should be put into play definitely... That would make cars far safer to have on the streets.

will facebook last forever?

I don't know, myspace was where it was at, son. I never got into it, but that's what young people were doing back in the day, myspace.

Facebook's the current iteration of that.

All well and good, but I'm not betting on it becoming more than what it is. Google is in fact working on their own facebook so that facebook doesn't monopolize the online social media scene.

Hell, the internet always has been a social media or basically a "forum" all these years. It's just that now you can see celebs using it and being associated with it rather than my own experiences all these years of just posting to message boards and not showing my true face. Do you really want to see some frumpy looking 14 year old at a message board for star wars?

I like the new internet age we're in though. It's different but then again, no it isn't. We just had things harder. If you wanted to broadcast a show on tech, you had to go through tech tv, get a degree in journalism, get cast as a host, work on a show.

Amazing that I'm here and still watching Chris Pirillo to this day. Never wanted to get into his awkward as hell head, but here I stand, getting to know the guy way too damn much.

People mad as fuck serious about the internet these days sad to say. I posted to tons of forums back in high school. No one took it serious as hell. But sadly people are living their whole life online now. You piss off the wrong group of people, they'll wish you death through the internet. I laugh it off to myself because I don't give a shit about what someone says about me online, but it's getting to the point where someone's fitting to call the cops on you and indeed the cops have showed up at people's houses for what they've been doing or saying online... I can understand if you post a live video of you beating a kid or some murder online, the cops will show up. But damn, I mean, I've done a lot of weird stupid stuff online back in high school, downloaded tons of porn, watched tons of illegal cartoons, movies etc. No cops got involved.

You even tweet something off balance, it'll be on CNN the next day. That's a trip for me I gotta say. I mean, I just said whatever I wanted all day online back in the good ol days of the star wars prequels. You never saw anything anybody posted on the internet show up on CNN. It's the internet, not the real world. No one cares. You can see a girl getting slammed in her ass on here, see a lot of weird things. None of that makes it to CNN. But yeah, some stupid asshole celeb tweets some stupid asshole thing suddenly it's on CNN the next day. That's just stupid as fuck . CNN's lost its credibility with these tweet news stories. That's bottom of the barrel. War, death, starving children, massacres, not as important as Kim Kardashian new shoes!!!

Only good that's come of this stuff is that I can kinda have my selfish desire to keep abreast of Sessler and Webb through twitter. They're my family. I think they know they've beloved by a lot of losers in this world. Never want them to stop being a part of my life. Pirillo too. Hell Laporte as well.

Just even got back with Victoria Recano from the old ZDTV days, man. It's like I'm home now, don't feel so lost anymore. You get older right, then you feel like something's missing, something's wrong with life... I figured it out, Tech TV's been gone too damn long. I missed that shit more than I thought I would.

Surprisingly, but not really surprisingly, they're all still hanging out on twitter basically. All the Tech TV guys. Too bad they don't have shows anymore. That's really the pits. I mean it would be better to watch them and have them on tv than all this garbage we have now. All I got to say...

Gonna get in shape to play lando

To my pleasant surprise, I got paid my last paycheck from the post office. I'm gonna buy a more elite level art kit then since I got it like that now.

Yes, I am reading and watching the accounts of a lot of comic artists and industry pros. I'm intrigued by what you guys are doing, how you got to where you are. I've always intended to become a comic book artist, interesting to see how and what struggles you all went through to finally reach that plateau.

I'm going to do 3 pieces based on my casting as Lando. My cousin has actually shown interest in me playing Lando. You must realize my cousin is an Ivy League graduate, he's got a lot of power and responsibility and connections in the upper crust...

It is intimidating as all hell I must express. I sense it within me, the fear of performing on camera. Being laughed out of the theater for a shitty performance. I don't want to have Disney put their faith in me only for it to be for nothing...

So I'm going to do what I've wanted to do and get my fat ass in shape. Even if I don't get the part, at least I'll have slimmed down.

Lost album

Recently lost a family photo album... found just one page out of it with some of those old pics I used to see all the time. How do I feel about that, terrible honestly. I never thought those photos would be gone. I love photos, love photography, love films. A word of warning is all I can impart. Do save those photos of your childhood. Cherish them. Take photos every day you wake, video every day. I see dudes going nuts on facebook taking photos and videos like every second. I can't look down on that having lost a photo album at this point and NEVER getting those images from my childhood back.

Lesson learned. It hurts. I'll never get over this, the fact that I'll never be able to see that old photo again... it's in my head but that's all...

I think I lost my dad's old airforce photo too. That REALLY hurts me. I didn't want to lose that. It's not totally lost though. I mean, if his squadron has copies of that photos, it's gonna be around somewhere. But damn, not fun to have lost history in any capacity whatsoever.

I think about the overarching reason for saving photos. Is there a point. We're all going to die off and leave them behind. Ultimately they won't matter in the grand scope of the demise of this planet.

A part of me intellectually reasons, life goes on, even with the loss of some history. Life goes on, then it abruptly doesn't as indeed our planet will cease to exist, our history will cease to exist.

I don't know... maybe it doesn't matter to keep old photos or even care about making them and storing them. What's the point. We're on a sinking ship. It's like if you took a badass family photo as the titanic was sinking. Yeah, good job.

I don't know... all I know is that it hurts to lose your past...

Thawtz on Gene Wilder

Thank you for existing is all I can ever truly express. He's been more of an influence on an entire generation of nerdy outcasts like myself than he could possibly ever imagine. I literally read the original wonka book as a kid because I saw that movie. It's such a great film. Just pure joy on film. Something we've lost, but should never forget about the film world. That cinema is supposed to be about uplifting and entertaining people, not a documentary on some horrible tragedy or warzone.

Had no idea he joined twitter. Makes twitter and facebook's relevance that much more powerful. These actors who use them and are giving us their wisdom will be gone and all that will remain are their posts, such as wilder's. He had a twitter account. He used it briefly. It's like looking at a ghost, reading his posts, very eerie.

So awesome that he did it though, that his last words on twitter were about his breakfast.

Makes me feel sad knowing that Mel will be gone soon too. He's lucky to still be with us and he knows it. God, why do great people have to die. That shit just makes no sense. Take bieber. Take all these isis retards. Take me if you want to. Leave the great people alone.