Interesting times

For the first time I can actually say I'm looking forward to life, to getting up and going towards tomorrow rather than the norm of dreading it.

I'm moderately wealthy now. I wonder to myself if I deserve this... I did bust my ass in school. I have no idea in hell what a woman's body feels like at all.

I guess I'm one of those guys who does deserve to win in life rather than struggle.

TSA is win. Yes, it's quite the bottom of the world job and no one should seek it as a long term career, but you get paid too much for doing too little that's the simple truth about it.

If I have to go towards my fucking grave, I'll tell you this, I'd rather do it on top of a pile of cash.

I wonder to myself if I should feel like I've achieved better than the guys working at Delta. Yunno, I don't look down on them. They're good guys, just trying to get those planes moving and doing their jobs well because they want to see the world and fly.

But one of the assholes I met working there trying to huff and puff and make himself look like he's equivalent to the pilot himself because he's got Leet skills at luggage stacking. Not only was that laughable beyond measure, but it was so bizarre to have him in my face that day trying to belittle me, it was just mind fucking stuff. You area  loser in every definition of the word. Don't try to show pride i achieving the level of master luggage stacker.

Just fucking don't bro.

I'll never peg myself as a racist, but yeah it's not gonna work even to a guy like me, someone who's blacker than midnight trying to bring me down. Just give up on that. I'm not better than you because I'm part white, but get your head out of your ass and wake up. This is not a black man's world.

I'm just saying I'm excited... I can use TSA as a spring board to getting my pilots license, college degree, a lot of doors open because of that job. And I didn't think I'd get back in, fuck yeah, I'm happy as all hell that my life is going up and towards the sun.

Sad to see kids with cancer on facebook, but it's an eye opener. I always knew there were bad shit in this world, but that's depressing beyond hell. I never knew about that side of life and I've been blinded to it for too long. If I do get cast as Lando, I'll donate a lot of money towards this one girl who's fighting for her life and needs her medical bills paid. I'm not a hero, but I do want to help because that's just who I've always been, that guy who gives a damn.