hope

all I can do is hope. Honestly I'm not superman. I've been editing but yeah this thing is a mount everest of a project due to my own supidity.

I'm gonna be honest. I have OCD. It's may be no big serious level of it but it's something. I honestly can't concentrate on a thing if I don't get over the ocd issue that's on my plate. I mean shit hits the fan, I can push beyond the OCD but if it's possible to get things in order, I don't want to... how stupid can you get...

I'm ocding over some stupid stuff right now and it's just aggrivating to be unable to dedicate myself to the film because I have to go back and put my mind in order in a way of speaking but it's the truth. I've always had mild ocd and now here I am with it causing a major obstacle in the path of my ideals and such.

Well, anyway. Going to to make it I hope, get passed these issues and stick the landing finish what I started. It's a damn fine film. I watch the clips I put up and I actually legit enjoy them tremendously. All the drama that went into filming them. I curse myself so heavily for not having it ready to go and out as I promised.

Maybe I need a week off and just get away from it for a bit... truth be told that's probably what I'm gonna do. It's not a school assignment. I don't have to rape my brain to get it done on time. I can get it done at my discretion or quit, which I swear I will not be doing. But yes, I'll go at my pace get it done hopefully by Solo's release. That's all.